Don't dismiss your feelings, don't call them stupid and push them away. Rather, look at them and ask: What does this remind me of? What is the deeper reason I feel this way? And be gentle to yourself.
Let yourself enjoy what is enjoyable, don't allow your thoughts to make you feel bad. If you're having fun and a bad thought shows up, laugh at it, ignore it, don't assign value to it. Just be happy.
Most of us are not raised to actively encounter our destiny. We may not know that we have one. As children, we are seldom told we have a place in life that is uniquely ours alone. Instead, we are encouraged to believe that our life should somehow fulfill the expectations of others, that we will (or should) find our satisfactions as they have found theirs. Rather than being taught to ask ourselves who we are, we are schooled to ask others. We are, in effect, trained to listen to others' versions of ourselves. We are brought up in our life as told to us by someone else! When we survey our lives, seeking to fulfill our creativity, we often see we had a dream that went glimmering because we believed, and those around us believed, that the dream was beyond our reach. Many of us would have been, or at least might have been, done, tried something, if...
If we had known who we really were.