Itโs time. wow, youโre 43 now. I never knew that someone could grow up so fast. I was a little girl when I found you. I didnโt even know who you were nor that I would ever love you the way I do now. But here I am, loving you more than I ever thought, smiling wider than I thought I would ever be able to and youโre the reason. Back in 2014, I wanted to give up on myself. I wanted this life to end... you were the only reason why I didnโt do what I wanted to so badly. & even though Iโm still dealing with most of the things I dealt with back then, Iโm so glad that you helped me to make it out alive because you gave me the opportunity to see the bright sides of life. Iโve learned to be ashamed of every single scar that I have, but you taught me that I donโt have to, that itโs okay & that I deserve to be loved, to be happy. You really are an angel. The way you help so many people, all the things you do for us, the way you treat everyone around you. We donโt deserve you, not even a little bit. You have one of the biggest hearts and one of the purest souls I know. A lot of us wouldnโt even be here anymore without your support, without your love - myself included.
You make this world to a WAY better place, just by existing.
You know whatโs crazy? We all grew up with you, literally. The whole world saw how this amazing young boy turned into a beautiful man. We saw you change from a little caterpillar into a beautiful butterfly. Itโs just mind blowing when I think about for how long Iโm actually loving you, for how long Iโm by your side. and I still love you with all of my heart, with my entire soul. just like the first time I saw you. time hasnโt changed a thing. My love for you will never change, not in one year & not in ten. Iโll forever be thankful for all that youโve done for me, for helping me when I needed you the most. You know, whenever I look at you, I know where I belong. I know where my happy place is. You meant the entire world to me back then and the more I grew up, the more I started to understand why youโre so special. Youโre one of the brightest stars of the universe. Iโm so glad I found you. You deserve all the love & happiness in this world. thank you for everything.
I donโt know if youโll hear this. wherever you are. I hope youโre happy. I know that Iโll never have the right words to say what I really want but thank you has to do justice for now.
Thank you Dean,
for the amazing man that youโve become. I know that you were fighting evil and demons but by doing so you also helped me fight my own.
Without you, I wouldnโt be here.
Thank you for showing me that my mistakes donโt define me and that Iโm able to do good in this world.
Youโve shown me that I can write my own ending, no matter my past.
Youโve shown me that family donโt end in blood and that it can be found in the darkest of times.
Youโve helped me become the person I am today.
I thought Iโve lost my smile years ago but you brought it back to me, Dean Winchester.
Thank you for helping me seeing that light at the end of the tunnel. Youโre the one who showed me that itโs worth fighting.
You helped me get my hope & my faith back.
You helped me find my purpose.
Youโve made me the happiest person alive, just by being you.
Thank you for the happiest years of my life.
I know that you always wanted to go out fighting & thatโs what you did but when you left, youโve left a hole inside the chest of so many. Thereโs nothing we can say or nothing we can do to bring you back. Trust me, we would. Right now weโre looking back and we realize that we should have appreciated the time we had together way more because we never know when someoneโs gone. & trust me when I say that I didnโt expect to lose you so soon.
I hope heaven is treating you better. I hope youโre writing your happy ending up there, with the people you love. I just wished you would have stayed a little longer. you deserved to heal. you deserved to find happiness. you deserved to build your own family.
Dean Winchester,
the guy who saved the world. you deserved everything. & Iโm sorry you didnโt got what you always wanted. I wish I could have given it to you before it was too late.