Kara: Why do you have Myriad?
Lena: Well, you caught me. I have Myriad because I’m using you. Like you used me.
Kara: I never used you.
Lena: Do you remember when you finally told me that you were Supergirl? You were weeping big, crocodile tears. Well I wept real tears. Bitter tears over you weeks before.
Kara: What? I-I thought… How long have you known?
Lena: I found out the day I killed my brother.
Kara: Lena, you didn’t kill Lex. That was me. I watched him, I saw him fall.
Lena: You saw him fall, but did you see him land? Did you see him die? I did, and let me tell you, it wasn’t pretty.
Kara: That’s impossible.
Lena: Anything’s possible when you’re a Luthor. Lex used his transmatter portal watch. I knew exactly where’d he go—the cabin we loved when we were children. So, I was there waiting for him. Had the gun ready. Loaded. I could feel the weight of it in my hands. Every fiber in my being rebelled, but I didn’t wanna do it, but I knew I had to because if Lex lived, the world wouldn’t be safe. My friends wouldn’t be safe. So, I forced myself to pull the trigger. I shot my own brother in the chest. His final words to me were that I was a fool. That my best friend, that every friend I had was lying to me. With his dying breath, he told me that you were Supergirl.
Kara: Lena, you have to believe me. I never meant to humiliate you—
Lena: No, when I came to this city, I promised myself that I would never trust anyone again and… then I met you. You chipped away at my armor with your warmth and your earnestness and you convinced me to trust in people and friendship again, and against my better judgment, I did. All the while telling you about my Achilles heel: betrayal. I confided in you that everyone in my past had betrayed me. And that how much it hurt to have someone you love lie to you and betray you, and I spelled it out to you OVER and OVER again, essentially begging you not to violate my trust, BEGGING you not to prove that once again that I was a fool! You reassured me ad nauseum you would never lie to me and you’d never hurt me. And all the while there wasn’t a single, HONEST moment in our friendship.
Kara: No, no, that is NOT tru—
Lena: Now I killed my brother for you, for our friends! Don’t you understand what you’ve done?
Kara: When you found out, why didn’t you come to me right away, so I could explain—
Lena: Explain? Yeah?
Kara: If you hate me so much, why not out me at the Pulitzer party? Why pretend to still be my friend this long?
Lena: ‘Cause I wanted you to experience what you did to me. Feel what I felt.
Kara: I understand your pain and your fury, and… and you’re right! I made a big mistake, maybe the BIGGEST mistake of my life, but please, Lena, please don’t leave the Fortress with Myriad. Please don’t let my mistake push you to do something terrible! You are a GOOD person!
Lena: NO! No, you don’t ever get to tell me who or what I am again!
Kara: Did you reprogram Fortress’ defenses to attack me?
Lena: Yes. I rigged it to answer to this little button I have in my hand.
Kara: Are you gonna try to kill me?
Lena: No, Supergirl, I’m not gonna kill you. I’m not a villain. You shouldn’t have treated me like one.
kara begging lena to please not take myriad is especially painful when you think of the fact that kara could have just grabbed myriad from her faster than lena’s brain could have processed but kara a) can’t bring herself to believe that lena is actually going to do something sinister and b) can’t physically approach her because lena’s in too much pain and kara knows it would just make it worse and she’d never do that to her
when i came to this city i promised myself that i would never trust anyone again and…and then i met you, and you chipped away at my armor with your warmth and your earnestness and you convinced me to trust in people, in friendship again, and against my better judgment i did…all the while, telling you about my achilles heel: betrayal. i confided in you that everyone in my past had betrayed me…about how much it…hurt…to have someone you love lie to you and betray you- i spelled it out to you over and over again, essentially begging you not to violate my trust, begging you not to prove once again that i was a fool…you reassured me ad nauseam you would never lie to me, that you’d never hurt me, and all the while there wasn’t a single honest moment in our friendship…i killed my brother for you! for our friends! don’t you understand what you’ve done!
Can we talk about the fact that after Lena’s reveal and even when the Fortress attacks Kara at Lena’s command, Kara never once attacks her or says anything to hurt Lena? She never turns it on her or tries to fight back. She’s just broken, hurt, and absolutely aware of the magnitude of pain she caused Lena. She’s so sad, so upset, but not angry, not defensive. And that’s beautiful to me because that’s what Lena needs right now - Kara’s unique brand of love for her, her unwavering faith and unshakable desire to protect Lena, no matter what. Because when Lena wakes up from this haze she’s in, when she has that moment of clarity and realizes what she’s done and how far she’s let her hurt and pain carry her, Kara will be there to wrap her up in strong arms and reassure her that Lena is more than what she’s done, that she’s still a good person who was just misguided and lost, that Kara still sees the same Lena she saw from the very start. At the end of this fight for Lena’s soul, when Lena is terrified of herself and scared of the person she’s become, there will be Kara waiting to heal her, waiting to love Lena back to health.