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no offense to 2020 but what the fuck

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“We often want it so badly that we ruin it before it begins. Overthinking. Fantasizing. Imagining. Expecting. Worrying. Doubting. Just let it naturally evolve.”

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today’s mantra

(via astound)

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Over and over until I truly mean it.

#I am whole #I am enough #i will get through this #mantra #things have been bad

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“be protective of you. your aura. be protective of the garden that you’ve watered for so long within you. you’ve worked too hard on yourself to let anyone with dirty feet walk all over your soul.”

iambrillyant

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“…and I told him, is you crazy?!” 

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1:51 AM

I’ve been so depressed over the last year and a half and today something happened, just a few hours ago actually, that triggered something in me and has sent me spiraling into an emotional break. All I can think about is cutting. It’s been over 10 months since I’ve put a blade to my skin but right now that’s all I wanna do.

I have no one. No one..... And the person who is supposed to be my rock, my partner, my strength when I’m weak and the one who gives me pure, unconditional, honest, true and faithful love is just.... *sigh* I want you to understand and I want my feelings to matter so badly. But they don’t.

So now I want to cut and go to sleep and not wake up for a while. And that’s exactly my plan.

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Depression is a grave. It buries every thought, every person in it. The real me is buried inside it too. I can’t get out, I am stuck. Nobody can help me now. I am dead.

-@wickedmewickedyou

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I’m losing myself more and more every fucking day…

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The sad truth is, I’ll never be able to believe anyone when they say they love me.