My heart is so heavy and burdened by the guilt and shame I feel. I could collapse from the pressure. I miss you so much bibay and I cant belive its been 365 days since we last spoke or held hands. I had 20 days to visit you after this and i didnt and for that i am so so sos so sorry. I know in 20 days i will feel this again. May 6 th 2019 was the hardest and most surreal day of my life. 23 years together laughing and taking care of one another. My whole life is memories of me and you, nd this last year without you has been so hard and diffrent. You would be so proud of dad right now, hes making jokes and laughing and harraj is spending time and getting smarter by the day,and moms been rocking the subgees and small rotis . Im gonna finally get a degree, i am almost finishing school and the sucess of preet and amans weeding has been so beautful and And sham was a teacher and virgie shaved his head . So much has changed and will change and it breaks my heart. That was you bibay G 94 years on eatth and you impacted so many. you did that you let your grand daughters be happy and look where we are. Your strokes, your cancer, congestive heart failure and falls but you still pushed the limits. Brought 5 kids to canada, was a widow for 40 years, had over 10 grandkids and lived wirh your family. You lived such a strong and powerful life and gave so much to so many im so fucking thankful bibay G and i miss you so much and love you so much. Im crying so much i cant breath but alt J is calming me down. I should probably sleep and somehow work on 2 finals
Gonna write my paper on the street of crocodiles 2morrow, ready to read fairy tales and cite MLA. Can't wait for these last assignments to be over and finals to be completed