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I'm not sad. I'm just tired and I feel burnt out and I want to be held and loved completely without any question. I want to feel safe and secure. I want my cup to be full so I can pour into the people I care about the most. I'm so burnt out right now. I want a week to just rest and do whatever I feel. At this point my body and mind feels like I have to just keep going going going.

This month was so long. One of the first few months that I was able to find balance between work, music, and other parts of my life but still I feel like I fell short in some areas. I still was able to do it, release my second EP. I am very proud of myself.

Right now, I'm just feeling tired.

I want to sleep for a very long time.

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I threw my vape away prematurely and I'm going thru it. I'm crying again. I'm tired of crying and I wish I could just disappear

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Ah here it is again, that sinking feeling my heart feels at night. It feels like that sensation you get when you're in a rollercoaster and you're riding down from the highest peak. It feels like that but slow motion. That's what my anxiety feels like. I don't like to say that I have anxiety. I don't claim it really. It just this subtle nervousness that I get and then I start to feel these unwanted thoughts creep through my head. It happens most nights than others. I'm not sure why I'm crying now. I had a really fun weekend.

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Choosing the path of love and kindness and to walk into it with patience at times can be hardest option. However, I do believe that this can be the most rewarding.

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Brianna Wiest, 101 essays that will change the way you think

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At the end of the day,

I would rather love hard

Than not love at all.

So that's what I will do.

Pour into myself

So that I can

Pour into others

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Seasons like this I need a little extra loving

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Another day trying not to CRY. Wtf is wrong with me

#on the verge of break thru I guess. I feel like I'm going thru writers block #my brain is messing with me

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:(

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Hallenbad am Hof - Kleinpöchlarn (Photographer: Paul Ott)

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Blake Carter. “1,439 of Us”

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im gonna pass out

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rehearsing, feeling nerves. idk why though. I made myself some tea in case it would help. I woke up and wrote everything down that i wanted to accomplish this week.

i'll go to the gym after work and stop by walgreens to pick up some cotton pads. i got a new toner in the mail today

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I've been doing 2 hours overtime, monday thru Wednesday. I'm tired but proud of myself for getting through it. Thanksgiving is tomorrow and I'm looking forward to seeing my family. I hope my brother is there. I've been silently working on speaking a little more clearly, walking with my head a little higher. I'm trying not to talk down on myself. I deserve to be loved! And I should also love myself too in all ways. I still don't feel quite 26. 26 has been very "still". Still wanting the same things, wanting more, still wanting to be better for myself and those around me. Still wanting to be loved. Still wanting to see my future bloom in front of me. It all will still take some work. Everyday I have to remind myself of it.

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Can we bring tumblr back please