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i feel so dirty after eating :(

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saw trap where u have to eat dinner without watching something

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i just want endless amounts of cute underwear and thigh high socks

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my safe foods and their calories +benefits ･ﾟ.*✧･.

♡ ginger kombucha (50 calories per 470ml)

great for bloating and rebalancing your gut microbiome

is quite sweet and tones down my sugar craving without being full of chemicals

♡ grapefruit (42 calories per 100g)

so filling due to large size

dense with vitamin c

♡ miso soup (35 calories per package)

feels like having a proper meal

you can add as much water as you want as long as you dont mind a diluted taste

♡ peaches (40 calories per 100g)

literally delicious

filled with natural sugars

tastes like a desert

♡ spicy pickles (5 calories per 2 spears)

satisfies my salt craving without having very many calories at all

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ed-things nobody talks about

(some things I experienced when my ed was really bad when I was 16-17. It’s not all fun and it’s not like the cute thinspo-posts you see here everyday)

hiding food in your pockets, shoes, socks… while eating with others

forgetting that you were hiding the food in these places (oh the smell)

friends, family … finding the food you were hiding

trowing away the food someone you loved gave you

making people cry and constantly worry about you

being upset when people give you the bigger portion (do they think you eat that much????)

being upset when people give you the smaller portion (do they think you are fat and that you should eat less????)

drinking to much water before a doctors weight in so you feel like you are peeing your pants

the pain after the laxatives kick in

being afraid to put chapstick on (because you know, it’s made out of fat lol)

not going out with frieds, because there is food everywhere (you will regret it later, because everyone went clubbing and now that you are healthy they are not into that anymore, aka missing out your youth)

freezing when people around you wear a bikini

not being able to get pregnant, although you recovered

heartproblems, although recovered

struggling with hormone-production, although you recovered

having bad teeth, although you recovered

having problems with your bones, although you recovered

having problems with your nails and hair, although recovered

the need to take medication your whole life because of a few years of having an ed

loosing your sexdrive

being afraid to fall asleep and never wake up again

not being able to stop, even if you want to

Edit: I didn’t want to make you guys feel bad about using chapsticks. I thought it was obvious that, unless your eat your chapstick, you don’t consume calories by using it. Calories need to enter your mouth, not just sit on your lip. Your skin just absorbs the moisture, you can’t gain weight by putting calories on your skin. Me thinking that was a thing and so many of you now thinking that’s a thing should make you think about how absurd this illness is. You are here to live and experience this earth. You are not on this planet to worry about calories absorbing your body through your skin.

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does anyone have those songs that arent explicitly about anorexia but you relate them to your eating disorder? maybe it's a few lines or even one quote that relates to your eating disorder, i find these songs provide a lot of comfort.

here are mine:

♡ folk-y

mama's broke - wrecking need

lumineers - gloria

lumineers - donna

ramshackle glory - i'm not a good person

rainbow kitten surprise - its called: freefall

the uncluded - earthquake

kimya dawson - my mom

♡ hot grl music (idk the name for this genre)

marina - seventeen

mommy long legs - weird girl

doja cat - 4 morant

ladytron - seventeen

♡ indie/indie rock

car seat headrest - happy news for sadness

bon iver - blindsided

sufjan stevens - fourth of july

turnover - cutting my fingers off

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does anyone else’s brain constantly bounce between like 10 ed moods at once

like rn my mind is going:

“ok so if i eat exactly 700 cals every day for a month i’ll totally lose a bunch”

“maybe i’ll not count and just try to eat super clean and healthy”

“im just gonna fast for as long as possible”

“fuck it maybe i should try to recover”

“im a whale and eating is stupid”

like…..bitch make up your mind??

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I love this picture sm 😭😭😭🤚

I would kill to look like this

🔫🔫

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Wanted to put all my favourite thinspo in one place

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I love this picture sm 😭😭😭🤚

I would kill to look like this

🔫🔫

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My thinspo in 2017

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meanspo literally the funniest shit ever lmfaooo call me a pig again and i will beat you the fuck up

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me: *fasts for days*

*excessively works out*

*gets dizzy/lightheaded*

*is exhausted in the middle of the day*

*cries when food is offered*

everyone I know : doing great girly😊💖💕✨keep it up🤪 🤪

me:

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me trying to enjoy something: ☻

my brain: you can’t enjoy this because you aren’t skinny

me: ☹