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hey! it's been a while, I'm actually trying to recover, my food guilt has gone down so much and im doing my best to eat what i want :')

[a-bonetopickwithmyself]

I like to post wrist photos on here as you would a selfie on a spam account lmao

[a-bonetopickwithmyself]

take a dumbo rat :) <3

[a-bonetopickwithmyself]

every year I go through the same cycle. I binge and dissociate october-march, then restrict april-september

fucking awful bc my weight CONSTANTLY FLUCTUATES over years but Im never "bad enough" :(

[a-bonetopickwithmyself]

[a-bonetopickwithmyself]

when you go from anorexia -> bulimia -> BED 😍😍😍/s

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[a-bonetopickwithmyself]

okay went thru a lil breakdown but feeling better

[a-bonetopickwithmyself]

soup 👍

[a-bonetopickwithmyself]

make me thin please please I want control again i want to starve I want to be skinny i want control I want control I want control please I NEED control again

[a-bonetopickwithmyself]

[a-bonetopickwithmyself]

hi! you there!

you are loved and cared for, and worthy of experiencing that :)

[a-bonetopickwithmyself]

I am genuinely in the best mental place I have been in YEARS, maybe my whole life, but FUCK I constantly want to be high lmao

[a-bonetopickwithmyself]

if you are a boy, and you have ANY body type, that is a boy's body type <3

it makes me so sad to see young transmasc people on this app fueling their ed with their dysphoria and pushing stereotypes that you have to be skinny to be recognized as your gender. i wish i couod tell them all thay thats not the case and that their minds are tricking them.

they also make borderline transphobic comments in relation to themselves, saying "boys don't have thighs like me" "i'm too thick to be a boy" etc etc. it makes me so sad. boys DO have thighs like you. there are fat and chubby cis boys. there are cis boys with thick thighs and wide hips. and even if there wasn't, you would still be valid. if you see yourself as a boy, if you are a boy, you have thighs like a boy. your body is a boys body. trans people are beautiful and perfect how they are. trans peoples bodies are different and thats ok. you don't have to be skinny to be valid in your identity. i know how it feels to think that your gender expression is tied to your weight and appearance, but please try to deconstruct that. its so untrue and toxic.

so many transmascs are pressured to be skinny, androgynous and perfect. this isn't something everyone can achieve. wanting to be like that is killing so many young people, hurting so many children. all i want is for trans people to accept themselves. its so hard to get acceptance from other people why do we have to keep tearing ourselves down like this?

[a-bonetopickwithmyself]

//tw death

since june now we've had a current student, 2 former students, and another current student die (there's only 1 highschool in my town so that's m a s s i v e) and idk it just feels awful :(

[a-bonetopickwithmyself]

ily

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dinner thinner, up skip wake

thinner skip, dinner wake up