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[aaronandroid]

Idk if it's exactly workplace PTSD, just seeing the bitch or both. But every time I or someone else must go to that particular store my ex is working in the area I need to get mine or their items from. Like wtf!!! I hate that. I really can't stand it. My anxiety rises so high because she mentally fvcked my head up so damn bad to a point of even setting foot in the entrance feels like a completely different world, but evil within the air. All I needed was shampoo and GUESS WHO WAS STOCKING THAT VERY AISLE🤦‍♂️ My heart was beating so hard, im surprised no one could hear it but I. My best friend was with me, but it didn't mend the anxiety at all. I couldn't even pick out the damn shampoo for me because I couldn't concentrate due to my ex standing behind my stocking. As soon as she hit the corner and came back onto her aisle she makes this "Mmm!😑" sound of hatred towards me. How can YOU hate someone you fvcked over on your own. That's YOUR doing. Im simply ignoring you and trying not to have a mental breakdown in the aisle. There's no breathing to stop my anxiety, nothing. It's only this bad around her. She broke me mentally and now it feels permanent. To make matters worse I fight and force myself to shop there anyway because I don't want to let her control my decisions. It's a war in my head and I cannot tell you how many times I've just juggled the thought of suicide. You'll never understand this pain untill you've felt this tier of anxiety and mental fvck up. To make matters worse I can't even fvcking kill my self because if I don't succeed, im smacked into a hospital w/ another bill and broken mother that I have to face while in a hospital bed. I can't seek help because IT COSTS MONEY. It's soo much pressure. This anxiety in general has controled everything. Afraid to drive, afraid of classes, afraid of people, afraid of interviews, afraid of every damn thing. And there's no professional help without cost. I don't know how much more longer I can hold out this way. I can do these things, yes. But my head has been broken twice and my heart multiple times. Idk how im still standing after lastnight. I really was ready. But couldn't. I never can. As always it's suffocating.

#suicide #sorrow #anxiety #anxiety disorder #help me

[aaronandroid]

April Fools😩

‪Remember, folks, it's April Fools. Don't let any childish buttfvck ruin your day today. Seriously. Beware.

#HappyAprilFools

[aaronandroid]

Exhibit A on hatred and just how close minded people are. I'd struck up a good gaming conversation with a guy in someone's stream, he asked for my gamertag and I gave it to him. The guy added me and I added him back. He then asked if I were a girl. Seein as it was in my bio. I said "Yes, lesbian 😂" to basically explain my looks in my profile pic and soon as I said that, he goes "Sorry. But I disagree with homosexuality. I believe it's wrong in the eyes of God. Im a Christian. I've been one since 2015". I told him that that was fine and that even his opinion mattered. From then on out this guy wouldn't even engage in chatting w/ me anymore. I could call out 100,000 things wrong here, but I don't have the energy. Goes to show you our people today is the moral of the matter when you remove the velvet curtain down of who you can actually get along with blindly.

#hatred #close minded #discrimination #homosexuality #lesbian #gay #love #Christian #judgement

[aaronandroid]

💨Was suppose to post this yesterday but.. here she is. The Smok GX350 kit‼️

#vapes #gx350kit #smoktech #smok #cloudbeast #purple #clouds #cloudchaser

[aaronandroid]

I'll be expecting to slay you all very soon w/ my special Jason character. See you at camp, gamers😏

#fridaythe13thgame #fridaythe13th #jason voorhees #tom savini #xbox one #crystal lake #horror films #videogames #horror survival

[aaronandroid]

Thank you Uber!

First time using Uber. Had my bestfriend w/ me for the ride and we were terrified about what kind of driver we were going to have. Our driver.. was a trans-female. I was sooooo damn happy OMG and amazed. Like wtf are the odds?! She was cool as Hell too. Definitely a trip to remember for my first Uber ride, yo.🌈✊🏽

#uber #love #trans #pride #equality #taxi

[aaronandroid]

Today is a sad, lonesome day for many. Including myself. Which is why I don't fully feel alone. I normally don't let this holiday phase me. I've ignored it for many years, but today is different. I feel like I have soo much to give and it goes to waste each and everyday. I just sit in my room, watch the world be active before my eyes, people driving nice cars and working suitable jobs while I, myself, am stuck with the mind of a 15 yr old while 27. I feel like because of my anxiety controlling my every move and me being limited to normal tasks that that's the reason I'm alone now.

#anxiety #depression #life #mental illness

[aaronandroid]

Happy Valentine’s Day!

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OMFG MICHAEL MYERS IS BACK!!! Yesssss!!!!!🤧🤧🤧✊🏽✊🏽✊🏽😩😩😩🎃🎃🎃🔪🔪🔪❤️❤️❤️

#halloween #halloween 2018 #michael myers #john carpenter #horror films

[aaronandroid]

Time and Tension

Each and everyday I wanna take a pill to sleep it all away to make the day go by quicker until life decides to give me a break from the past. But I don't. Yet I am growing weaker to the time and tension.

#pills #emo #depression #unemployed #transmasculine #unwanted #burden #wish i never met you

[aaronandroid]

#birthday tomorrow #birthday #lesbian #stud #27 #Aquarius #January #mixed breed

[aaronandroid]

Merry Christmas | Happy Holidays from Nintendo Cafe!

[aaronandroid]

Not Havin It

Oowee! Finna be 2017. Omgg😩 I'm still alive and kickin w/ no charges🤧 I don't do resolutions. But as the song says "Leave it in lastyear". I damn sho nuff won't forget though!! If you wronged me? You gon see it again some way some how before you die. That occurs to us all. If you gettin on my nerves, and I know, you know that I know? Ya feelins, hopes, dreams, draws and all gon be deep fried. Blatantly disrespect me? 👀🗯<Yeah, ima just set that down right about there>. Folks gon think im off the meds. Gon learn today!🙃

#fed up #passive aggressive #strong #anxiety #depression

[aaronandroid]

Ordered my "Scott McCall" hoodie. Been wanting one for over a yr now and was constantly procrastinating on getting one.

#teen wolf #scott mccall #lacrosse #beacon hills #mtv

[aaronandroid]

Are you fvcking kidding me?! Everyone report that ass pirate, zSack!!

#lgbt #stopthebullying #xboxlive #microsoft #bullying #report #xbox clubs

[aaronandroid]

[aaronandroid]

☆To whom it may concern

I don’t “Identify” I AM!

I don’t have preferred pronouns I HAVE PRONOUNS!

I may be transgender but MY GENDER IS JUST AS VALID AS YOURS!