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"you don't have to perform around me" sweetheart i have to perform in front of myself

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uhh???

#this is so awful it’s laughable #i will never understand how empaths think this is in any way okay to say

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the npd + autism combo is awful because i could be the cool charismatic version of me in my head that everyone likes but no i'm weird, offputting, and annoying because of my autism.

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I love you people who show kindness because "it's what you're supposed to do". I love you people who show kindess because they like being thanked. I love you people who show kindness because it makes them feel good. I love you people who show kindness because they were shown kindness first. I love you people who show kindness for "selfish" reasons. I love you people who show kindness for the "wrong" reasons. I love you people who show kindness in a body that rejects the very notion. Your kindness is not any lesser because of its motivations. The good you added to the world is just as valuable as someone doing it for the "right" reasons. Your effort is seen. Your effort is valued.

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neurotypicals will be like "you can't self diagnose" and then diagnose everyone they dislike as a narcissist

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reblog if you have narcissistic eyes and dark energy

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neurotypicals will be like "you can't self diagnose" and then diagnose everyone they dislike as a narcissist

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they hate me for my narcissistic traits that they would love me for if i was a fictional character

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People with npd: Hey can we not be treated like abusers just for our disorder and be treated like actual human beings instead of monsters?

'Narc abuse' mfs: Is this an excuse to trauma dump on a complete stranger who is most likely a trauma survivor already?

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Covert NPD culture is fantasizing about videos being made about how tragic your life was

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i’m losing my goddamn fucking mind i was doing so well managing my bpd symptoms i was proud of myself for being better and then my chronic illness decided to spike to the goddamn heavens and i have headaches every fucking day that get so bad i can’t function. my pain is so bad it’s taking everything, i can’t do anything can’t go anywhere can’t talk to anyone without making zero fucking sense because my head hurts so badly i can’t think. i’m constantly irritable and angry because im in so much pain and i can feel all of my progress slipping through my fingers and im so fucking mad about it!! it’s not fucking fair and i feel like a goddamn child whining like that but why the fuck do i have tk deal with all of this my mind hates me my body hates me and i feel like every fucking person on the planet hates me and maybe part of me hates them too! i just can’t do this shit anymore i swear to fucking god

#vent #bpd #i’m just so fucking done #i can’t even talk to anyone about this i feel like im just a fucking bhrnddd #people only like me when i’m lying about how im doing #no one wants to hear about my problems and that’s fine #it’s fucking fine

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sorry I cried and told you I was gonna kill myself over a small thing, I have crying and wanting to kill myself over small things disorder

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(trying not to kill myself) I'm full of so much love and happiness

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i irreversibly split on my last fp and haven’t had an attachment like that since and. god. i forgot just how much it affects every moment of my life goddamn

my bpd has been kicking my ass recently how tf are you supposed to deal with having a proper fp attachment for the first time in like a year

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my bpd has been kicking my ass recently how tf are you supposed to deal with having a proper fp attachment for the first time in like a year

#vent #bpd

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me after nothings happened: do you guys still like me