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actualghostwriter · 1 year

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your neon blue

eyes

and honey sweet

voice

should not be able

to control me

quite like they do

o.m.f // yet here we are

this is super old, so old i don’t remember the context and its a style i haven’t used in a long time. but it sounded pretty and i thought it should see the light of day, i hope you enjoy <3

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actualghostwriter · 1 year

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loving me must be a painful way for you to spend your days.

“my love, if loving you is what pain feels like, i suppose that makes me a masochist”

o.m.f // “loving me is rotten work”

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actualghostwriter · 2 years

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Well Well Well….

Look what the cats dragged in! It’s lil ole me. Hello again old friends. It’s been quite some time since I have logged on here. I honestly have not written much in years and so have left this account to die. But lately i have wanted more and more to begin writing again. I’m not sure what i will be writing. I have some fun stories to share, poetry I want to write, and some short stories. So perhaps you can consider me back.

As an update - I am in my last year of college and still pretty busy. But my overall mental health has seen such a great improvement that i feel like writing will be a great way for me to share my experience and help me continue to heal. Additionally, thank you so much for 5.8k following! I am not sure where I left this account honestly, but coming back to such a large following and people still interacting even a month ago was super surprising, but super appreciated!! I hope that people can still enjoy my old writing and will continue to like whatever I end up producing in this new era of my writing. As I make this comeback, i will also start signing my writing with my pen name ‘Ghost’ rather than my initials. Not sure why yet, but this is something that feels right for me.

Lastly, as always on this account, I am here for friends and answering any questions! My inbox and messages are always open and I do my best to answer everything I can, so please do not hesitate as I make my little comeback to this app.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart <3 // o.m.f aka Ghost

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actualghostwriter · 4 years

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are you still around..?

I’ll be honest with you and everyone who has followed me, I have not. Last year, when I was writing, it felt as if it dragged my emotions down. I wrote poems charged with sadness and my negative thoughts. They swirled in my head daily at increasing rates because I used them to give myself inspiration. I used them to keep my writing going. If I was happy, I felt like the art produced wasn't as well received or anything that I liked. I would purposely make myself swim in horrible emotions so that I could make something I was proud of. But it hurt me more and more to write, so I ended up leaving. I decided I needed the break and I have been using it to develop myself and how I look at, treat and react to my emotions. Recently, I have made incredible strides it feels like. I haven't written in so long now, though. I am terrified of coming back because I do not know if new writing will be well received. But I miss it and have so many ideas, maybe I will be around soon. I’m sorry for making the answer so long and dragged out, but I thought an explanation might be nice, maybe I will get some good advice on how to come back to something I enjoy so dearly.

loved, o.m.f ♡

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actualghostwriter · 5 years

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Cool name bro!

thank you bro !

loved, o.m.f

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actualghostwriter · 5 years

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Hi, I too am an aspiring writer (I'm fourteen). I'm encountering a really big roadblock whenever I try to write stuff. I want to submit original work to things like my schools writing magazine, I want to be published, but I'm scared. I'm really fucking scared that I'm going to write something and no one will read it, whether that be for school now or later in life. How can I get past this? I'm also really scared of having people read my work in general.

Putting work out into the world is terrifying. As writers, we work so hard and put so much effort and love into what we create and all we really want is for it to be appreciated and loved back. At least, thats how I feel and find others feel as well. I, too, am scared. Im scared of people reading it, not liking my work, etc. These fears stop me from writing, posting and trying to put myself out there to achieve my dreams of writing. Tumblr for me, even though I am letting others read my work, is like a mask. No one knows who I am really and no one I know is reading my work and seeing it as me. There is a separation that keeps me safe from judgement. But sometimes you really just need to break that divide. The best advice I can give is to break it. Push yourself forward and work hard. Someone will read your writing. Even if its just a friend or a family member, someone will read and tell you what they love, and if you're lucky, what you can do to make more people notice your writing and passion. As far as roadblocks, get yourself in the mood. Read works by people who inspire you. Listen to music that makes your emotions go. Get your mind flowing in the best ways you can and keep working. Keep writing. I wish you the best of luck on your journey. I hope you can put your writing out there and get past your roadblocks and one day achieve your dreams. I believe in you and am always here to help.

loved, o.m.f

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actualghostwriter · 5 years

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if distance is

keeping us apart

now,

won’t it

forever?

o.m.f // the uncertainty

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actualghostwriter · 5 years

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My writing and creativity are probably more than toxic. The way I write is a coping mechanism, for anxieties and depressive episodes. Its so hard to write without them. So my entire basis of a dream is based on poor mental health. Without it, I cant write. But I don't want it. But I want to write. I love to write. But the best of it comes from my lowest points. I have put myself in horrible states of mind to put out writing I can be proud of. But now, I'm getting happy. Im improving. Theres no writing though. I feel no need to. But I want to so bad, I just cant. And thats hurting me the most right now. I finally crave to do something good, but I just cant because I am happy. A horrible reality.

loved, o.m.f

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actualghostwriter · 5 years

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roadblocks

Hey guys! Honestly, lately ive been completely unmotivated. I keep meaning to write or at least put together something to post, but I never seem able to get to it or get myself to do it. Im in a pretty nasty time if im honest and usually I can use it to channel creativity to write, but right now its too much. I hope to have more poems coming soon and I hope to actually finish writing the short stories ive all started. If anyone has any advice for getting out of a major funk, my messages, comments and asks are all open!

loved, o.m.f

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actualghostwriter · 5 years

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what if i cant see

that far?

fifty.

forty.

not even thirty.

married with kids.

doesn’t seem real.

even now my plans

are not the

ones I made in advance.

instead ones

made on the spot

because

i didn’t think

i’d make it this long.

o.m.f // growing up not wanting to live

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actualghostwriter · 5 years

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dont be so hopeful.

its not a good look on you.

o.m.f // abusive thoughts

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actualghostwriter · 5 years

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the weight of

unreciprocated love

crushes my chest

and I can’t breathe.

but the very thought

of the possibility

one day

i’ll have my hands

wrapped in your hair

and your legs

tangled with mine

makes it worth it.

o.m.f // why do i keep dreaming?

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actualghostwriter · 5 years

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So, as y'all can probably tell I have been pretty busyyyy. Holidays got hectic and ive just started my second semester of college, which is proving difficult. However, I look forward to getting to write vv soon. In the meantime, I was wondering if anyone would be interested if I shared my socials or did a face reveal ??? I really think it'd be cool if I was able to keep you guys in touch with me and everything, even when im not active on here?? idk though,, if y'all could comment what you think or send me a message/ask with your opinion, that’d be so helpful!! This is a bit rushed but ill update ylal later this week on stuff. Have a good week!!!

loved, o.m.f

#help yall #help ya boi out

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actualghostwriter · 5 years

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im the light

and she

is the moth

o.m.f // moth wife

for my lovely, moth loving wife @nichery ♡♡♡

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actualghostwriter · 5 years

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odd

how the people

meant to

care the most

can drag you

to your

lowest.

o.m.f // family complex

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actualghostwriter · 5 years

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hurt me

and i’ll write

just for you.

o.m.f // the pain makes my muse sing

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actualghostwriter · 5 years

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Hi there! I hope you're having a great December so far! - Your Secret Santa

Ohohohohohohohohoh im excite for this !

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