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[adhdconfusion]

I hope it's not overstepping to say you're in my thoughts and I'm glad your spirituality has granted you comfort in the coming months. May you rest well as time passes by and find things to enrich and soothe the life you have left. You were a blessing in my life, though a small role you may have played, and I'm grateful that our paths crossed.

<3333 Thank you so so much. This means a lot and I really appreciate it. I’m so glad I was able to reach you, even in a small way, and I really do hope you’re doing great and continue to do great for as long as possible

#beloved anons

[adhdconfusion]

Hi! Feel free to ignore if this question is too personal, but i wanted to ask how you’ve been doing since everything with your medical problems came out? I wanted to come see, but I noticed there hasn’t been anything since the announcement itself (and rightfully so, don’t worry!), so I was hoping to see if the outlook was looking any better

I know you sent this a week ago, but I’ve been debating whether to answer this or not. I’m a bit scared of making people worried or sad, but I eventually figured that it would be more worrying if I say nothing.

That being said, please be warned that the rest of this post will be sad, and I don’t mind at all if you stop reading now.

Okay. So, to answer your question, it’s gotten a lot worse. The expectations for me to possibly make it to April have dropped to late January, and judging by how I feel each day that goes on, I think that date will only keep dropping.

I started doing things I enjoy a lot more in order to make everything seem a bit better, but that’s been falling through as well. One of my goals for the past year and a half is to learn Hungarian so I can talk to my best friend in her first language, but my memory and focus just keep getting worse- sometimes I forget my own cat’s name. I’ve also tried going through my tv show hyperfixations, but watching them has started to feel more like a waste than it does comfortable and happy.

Not to mention the fact that the place I went to for therapy abt it all just suddenly got shut down, so that happened too.

Basically, what I’m trying to say, is that life (is that a pun idk) has been pretty awful for a bit now. On the bright side, I’m no longer scared of my soon-to-be nonlife. I’m extremely spiritual and digging deeper into the history of it has really helped with everything mentally.

I’m sorry for the sad update, but I figured it would be better than suddenly disappearing months before I mentioned in my earlier post. Thank you so much for asking though, anon. <333

#tw medical #tw mention of death #not adhd #text post #ask #anon ask

[adhdconfusion]

haha hey……

So um.

As some of you may know, I’ve been dealing with a lot of health issues recently. I won’t get into the symptoms, but I did finally get through to seeing a doctor (and cardiologist and neurologist) and they figured out what’s going on.

The good news is that I now know what it is, how to make it a bit easier to live with, and where to go from here. I won’t be talking in detail about it, nor what “it” is (I don’t know if that info can lead back to me?? So just to be safe), mostly for privacy, but also because I don’t want people looking up the issues with it and feeling bad or anything.

So the bad news.

I’m going to be very blunt with this because I’m unsure how else to say it, I was given 4-7 months to live. Best case scenario, I’ll make it to my sister’s birthday in April, and possibly even to May.

But as things are currently, it’s not at all likely.

So, yeah. The reason I’m posting this is so you know I haven’t just disappeared off the face of the Earth and abandoned this blog. I still care very deeply for making contributions here and helping people with questions.

With my mindset and everything going on at the moment, I don’t think I’m able to properly run this blog anymore, and I do apologize. Please just know that I really do care about you all. I hope you all find what you’re looking for.

<3

#tw death #not adhd

[adhdconfusion]

having adhd makes all of your thoughts feel like a 7-way venn diagram

[adhdconfusion]

honestly here's a shout out for everyone dealing with the less discussed or sympathized with aspects of adhd because that shit is tough and i'm just proud of you for doing the best you can. shout out to everyone who struggles to take care of themselves and their surroundings because they forget or can't bring themselves to eat, clean and put themselves to bed at a reasonable time. all my love and support to everyone who consistently misses important appointments and deadlines because they forgot or got the time or date wrong or got distracted while getting ready and ended up being too late. and if you regularly misplace things and end up dealing with crushing anxiety and humiliation when you can't find them i care about you. adhd is a disability and you're not a bad or lazy or inherently flawed person for struggling because it's making your life harder. and i know it's not easy to get help when it literally interferes with your ability to seek it out, but i'm rooting for you. i want us all to get better. i'm just glad you exist and i hope we all make it.

[adhdconfusion]

The psychologist seeing me quit.

So uh. Yeah. Might be a while longer.

For anyone wondering why I don’t really post anymore, there are two reasons (one a bit more important than the other)

For One: This blog doesn’t bring me as much joy as it used to. Not for any specific reason, sometimes I just fall out of interests and I can’t really control it.

And Two: I recently had to get evaluated with a psychologist and she brought up that my ADHD diagnosis may have actually been a misdiagnosis of Autism. That being said, even with the two being similar symptom-wise (though that does not mean they are the same), I’m not sure I feel comfortable labeling my experiences as ADHD for the time being.

That isn’t anything negative! I just want to be absolutely sure of where and what I’m posting for, as I originally started this blog to share my findings and experiences with ADHD specifically.

If it does turn out that my brain (for lack of a better term??) is more in line with Autism than the other, maybe I’ll end up turning this into an account for both; Autism as I go and continue to learn more about it, and ADHD since I still love learning about it in general as well.

Anyways, I’m not quite sure how to end this post, but if you read it then thank you! Have a lovely day :)

#:/ #btw this is exactly how getting diagnosed goes #its practically impossible #negative #negative post #adhd #autism

[adhdconfusion]

For anyone wondering why I don’t really post anymore, there are two reasons (one a bit more important than the other)

For One: This blog doesn’t bring me as much joy as it used to. Not for any specific reason, sometimes I just fall out of interests and I can’t really control it.

And Two: I recently had to get evaluated with a psychologist and she brought up that my ADHD diagnosis may have actually been a misdiagnosis of Autism. That being said, even with the two being similar symptom-wise (though that does not mean they are the same), I’m not sure I feel comfortable labeling my experiences as ADHD for the time being.

That isn’t anything negative! I just want to be absolutely sure of where and what I’m posting for, as I originally started this blog to share my findings and experiences with ADHD specifically.

If it does turn out that my brain (for lack of a better term??) is more in line with Autism than the other, maybe I’ll end up turning this into an account for both; Autism as I go and continue to learn more about it, and ADHD since I still love learning about it in general as well.

Anyways, I’m not quite sure how to end this post, but if you read it then thank you! Have a lovely day :)

#not an adhd post #well kinda #but still #yknow what ill tag it just in case i guess?? #adhd #asd #attention deficit hyperactivity disorder #autism

[adhdconfusion]

do you ever sabotage your own free time? like wtf is that about? i want to play this game or read or do something specific but instead i will just stare out the window or scroll mindlessly???

[adhdconfusion]

dude no one talks about how having a hyperfixation physically aches like why i can’t i be closer to it why can’t i hold the intangible help

#reblog #adhd

[adhdconfusion]

Who was going to tell me that neurotypicals consider looking up to be rolling your eyes?

#no because the amount of times ive been called rude for rolling my eyesin the middle of a conversation and i was just like ???? i didnt ???? #adhd #adhd stuff #adhd problems #adhd issues #i dont remember my tags pls #actually adhd #living with adhd #attention deficit hyperactivity disorder

[adhdconfusion]

okay but having adhd is so sad when you don’t have a hyperfixation so pretty much nothing gives you joy and you try and force joy out of stuff, you attempt new interests, you go back to old hyperfixations and... nothing? :( it’s so upsetting because it’s like damn. i can’t even have fun in a normal way. and that’s kind of sad ngl

#reblog #adhd post

[adhdconfusion]

running out my phone battery so I have no choice but to get my work done <- most effective adhd coping method doctors hate her

#reblog

[adhdconfusion]

Hi! The askbox is finally open again (though, because I’m using mobile at the moment, it might have anon asks off, ill fix that as as i can!). Feel free to send things in like last time :))

#not an adhd post #text post

[adhdconfusion]

(source: me)

#reblog

[adhdconfusion]

my favourite adhd / general executive dysfunction feeling is when you become very consciously aware that you are bored and there is nothing interesting left on the 5 social media apps you’ve been cycling around for the past hour and finally a small logical part of your brain goes “hey! perhaps at this point it might actually be more fun to do one of the productive things you’ve been putting off!” and you’re this close to going oh huh yeah maybe that's true! and getting up to do some housework or read a book or something when a far louder part of your brain goes “NO WAIT!!!! maybe THIS time when we refresh tumblr.... it will be interesting again” and you’re like "ohhhh right sorry for doubting you boss" & promptly get right back to doing fuck all

#reblog #tw swearing

[adhdconfusion]

ADHD culture is losing touch with your friends because you’re still hyperfixated on the interest that you all shared, while they moved on months ago.

#negative #adhd #adhd culture #adhd brain #actually adhd #adhd problems #adhd issues #adhd stuff #i am once again forgetting my tags #sorry ive been gone for so long by the way #i promise i havent forgotten about this blog im just very tired #might open the ask box sometime soon

[adhdconfusion]

ADHD tips from my school counselors:

“You need to create a study routine!”

“You need to stop fidgeting…you’re distracting yourself!”

“Get more exercise and take your meds!”

“Stop procrastinating!”

ADHD tips from my friends with ADHD:

“I eat one chocolate chip for every page I read.”

“I can only study by playing the gravity game on the Quizlet website. I need to beat my friend’s high score.”

“Every ten minutes I get up, put on one song by Taylor Swift, and wiggle around until I feel better.”

“Instead of checkboxes, I draw little flowers next to each task, and after I finished the task, I color in the flower in a fun color.”