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My shadow ban era is OVER, I'M BACK BABY

#thank frickity fuck #it was depressing for a hot minute there

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Promised KinnPorsche schmexy time art

#LOOK AT MY TALENTED FRIEND #THEY'RE SO DAMN TALENTED #god this is amazing #hot as fuck #so well done #excellent command of proportions and beautiful stylisation #so fucking good #well done harmless <3 #kinnporsche #kp: art

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For another KinnporscheAU story that combines the world of KP and TLoU

Wicked Grace by Ahdriking 😊

https://archiveofourown.org/works/45588094/chapters/114711130

#OMG TOTALLY FUCKING DIDNT EVER SEE THIS BEFORE #DAMN OP #OK #WELL SHIT #this is really really awesome #i kinda miss this story #maybe i should finish it LOLOLOLOL #kinnporsche

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Welp I've been shadowbanned. Trying to fix it. Until then, I'm contactable on twitter @ahdrik1ng or discord (user ID: 1200167638127628448, username ahdrik1ng). If I've sent you a message about being invited to my server, please reach out to me on either of those platforms!

#this wont appear in any tags because uh shadowban #so i'd appreciate if you reblogged this to spread the word? #fucking RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF MY DINNER TUMBLR

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FARK ME my DM's broke, oops. If I've sent you a DM inviting you to my KinnPorsche server, EDIT MY ASKS ARE ALSO BROKEN FOR FUCKS SAKE. Here's my discord user ID: 1200167638127628448 (name ahdrik1ng) please send me a friend request and I'll get you a link! I apologise for the inconvenience, I am also Annoyed (thanks tumblr).

#kinn x porsche #kinnporsche #kinnporsche the series

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Khem enjoying gifts from his admirers

(Because let’s be real he’d be getting a lot of them in Man Suang)

#WOOOOOOAH #fucking gorgeous!!! #dAMN #mansuang #man suang #mansuang: art

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-The Summer Palace -

#fucking BEAUTIFUL #capri: art #captive prince

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Hello frens! It's been a good long while since I've promoted or talked about my KinnPorsche Discord Server, so I figured it might be a good time to poke the fandom and see if I shake loose any newbies in need of a welcoming community to scream about our blorbos in! EDIT: TUMBLR DM'S ARE BROKEN. OOPS. Please send me an ask if you're interested in an invite, and I'll send you back an ask (keep it private, please) with a link!

#kinnporsche discord #kinnporsche discord server #Sinnporsche 18+ #kinnporsche #kinn x porsche

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THE OLD GUARD 2020 | dir. Gina Prince-Bythewood

#the old guard #MY BOYS #I LOVE THEM #ID DIE FOR THEM #and now i know that doesn't mean much since these fuckers have died more times than god #and god is very dead #but i'd like the record to show that i was willing #best movie ever made

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Are y'all sick of my truly incessant barrage of Mansuang gifs yet? Cos if not, I could keep going. I might never stop, actually.

#so help me god i will populate this tag with content if it's the last thing I do #I can't promise that it will be QUALITY content but it will at least be CONTENT #mansuang #man suang

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Khem meet Wichien for the first time

- Mansuang (2023)

#mansuang #man suang #mansuang edit #mansuangedit #filmedit #moviegifs #apo nattawin #khem #khem x wichien #don't mind me just amusing myself with copious amounts of staring at the pretty boy #honestly ok listen i'm going to go off my nut in a minute #because Apo's emotional expressions in this entire movie have got me by the fucking throat #I want to dissect each and every frame he's in #just to suffer #but also because there's an entire ANTHOLOGY in the microexpressions I KNOW IT #there's so much MORE to Khem than the movie got to show us #he's a complicated and traumatised yet resilient and resourceful motherfucker #he's thinking and feeling SO MUCH that we never get to fully understand #i want to pin him under a microscope and study him like a bug

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do you guys remember the Old Guard. remember when there was a major mainstream hollywood action scifi motion picture starring hot women with guns where gay people kissed on the mouth passionately. and the movie was both critically and financially successful. that movie feels like a fucking fever dream. i'll never achieve the high i got when that movie came out ever again

#i remember watching this movie for the first time #not because i wanted to but because i literally had no choice #i ran out of money to pay my internet bill so i spent 5 FUCKING DAYS IN THE STONE AGES #and all i had were the films i had saved to my laptop to give to a friend #the old guard was one #so i put it on and proceeded to ascend beyond this plane of existence #i genuinely felt so many fucking emotions watching this movie #i literally watched it 5 or 6 times in 2 days #the scene where they're all dead and they wake up for the first time #gives me fucking chills #the badassery is unmatched #the character complexity is delicious and juicy #the concept is DIVINE #the trauma and tragedy gets me GOING #LIKE THEY REALLY JUST GAVE US ALL THAT #AAAAAAAND A QUEER COUPLE AT THE HEART OF IT ALL? #Honestly I don't know who was smokin what in hollywood when they greenlit this bad boy but someone give em some more #the old guard

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"I love dancing. Every time I dance, I feel an elegant aura exuding from me. I feel proud of myself. But no matter how good I am, how much hard work I put in, all people want from me is just my body. My pretty outer shell. That's it."

- Mansuang (2023)

#mansuang #man suang #apo nattawin #the amount of fucking feelings i am having in the club tonight #unreasonable amount of emotions lads #god i want to write a fucking ESSAY about the nuance of every emotion here #Apo captures an entire language worth of complexity in a single micro-expression #It's dumbfounding i dont know how he does it #mansuang edit #mansuang gif #man suang gif #filmgifs

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The way they smile at each other 🥹

Mansuang (2023)

#mansuang #man suang #apo nattawin #mile phakphum #mileapo #mansuang gif

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KP deleted scene

#FUCKING CACKLING #MWAHAHAHHAHAHA #kinnporsche #kp: art

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I can't stop thinking about Khem and his relationship to sex as power and where it lies in relation to his own experience of sexuality. I also can't stop writing rambly, unstructured nonsense.

As we know, there's no explicit indication as to how Khem identifies sexuality-wise, other than subtle hints that Chatra's positive attention pleases him somehow (the repeating of 'you did a good job today', the very slight smile and perplexed pause at Chatra's admission that he just wanted to spend time with him, and finally, his frankly reckless trust in Chatra in the tree). And of course, 19th century understanding of 'sexual identity' as a character trait was different from the present.

I would have been interested in seeing more of Khem's perspective of his own sexual identity, considering that there was a scene that addressed homophobia directly. The fight that broke out was essentially used as a plot device to get him alone with Chatra, so I'm intrigued as to why they chose to emphasise homophobic rhetoric, when it seems that it isn't really presented as the issue. In Khem's case, class always trumps everything else.

All instances of Khem's sexuality we see are completely predicated on exploitation, with no suggestion at all as to what Khem's experience is beyond that. He has sympathy for the courtesans, because he understands what it is like to be reduced to the value of the pleasure to be derived from one's body. The first encounter with Phraya Wichiendej and the Inao performance, combined with the opening scene of the film, establish (to me at least) that he is practiced at recognising men's desire to 'have' him in a sexual sense, but perhaps more importantly, to exact class-facilitated power over him (he isn't really in a position to refuse). The way he smiles up at Wichiendej upon greeting him, the tone of voice he uses, come off as deliberately deferential in a way he has learned strokes the egos of men who see him as lesser. He recognises that it is the only tool for security or potential advancement he has in that particular kind of social situation. Tragically, the delivery of his lines during their meeting also holds a sliver of tenacious hope for the compliments to really only be for his efforts and not a veiled assertion of dominance ("you please me and I have all the power I need to make you do what I want"). And who knows, this may well have been the case, as we aren't shown Wichiendej pursuing Khem in any way after the Inao performance. We get the flashback montage of Khem's history of being sexually exploited by what appear to be men and a woman. So, again, the sex part of this exploitation is primarily about power, to reaally drive home that Khem has never had agency over his body or in his life. It is his base trauma.

The fight is Khem being slut shamed to compound on the humiliation he already feels from having received a thorough and public dressing down from Kru Phikun. And to add insult to injury, not only is he a slut, he's potentially 'a gay slut' (D.E.B.S? anyone?). He's understandably frustrated and angry, because he has had no choice in the matter, like, ever. What we don't know, is how he feels about the accusation regarding the gay part.

We don't get to see him as a sexual being on his own terms, he doesn't do any explicit desiring at any point in the narrative. So, the question is, how are we to interpret Khem's reaction to the disparaging of sexual conduct between men specifically? That's a big part of the argument, even to the point of surpassing the accusation that he is performing sexual favours in general. In fact, his assailant makes sure to let him know that he thinks performing gay sex acts for profit is worse than being a female sex worker in man suang, because gayness is particularly disgusting. Khem demands to know who presented the claim and whether they have proof, and he does it in a defensive, aggressive manner, and understandably so. Rather than commenting on the gay part of the accusation further than denying it, he chooses to openly defend the courtesans, effectively aligning himself with them, negating any discussion of the gender specificity of the accusation, but implicitly confirming the sexual favours part.

Does he recognise himself as experiencing desire for men? Or anyone, for that matter? Can he, when the primary association he is shown to have with sex is power-driven transactionality, instead of pleasure? Clearly this has been going on for a long time, but how long exactly? How has this impacted his perspective on sex and sexuality?

I was actually quite surprised how much time they devoted to establishing this part of Khem's character, without it playing a more pivotal role in the plot as the story advanced. I was sure at the Inao performance that Wichiendej would be built up as some kind of lech whose downfall would lie in his classist underestimation of Khem as a person, clouded as he would have been, with lust and a sense of superiority.

That leaves it to be simply a building block of Khem's character background, with the purpose to elicit sympathy in the viewer and contribute to world-building. But how does he feel? What does he think??

I know that Apo mentioned in an interview that Khem is some flavour of alphabet soup (not sure how specific he was tho), but within the narrative, they leave us guessing on multiple levels.

My fanfic fantasy for this whole thing is Khem finally being given a chance to get to know himself and have agency in choosing what he wants. Emancipate the lad!!!

#fucking good meta #love your brain #give me more #found this particularly helpful for the fic im writing #chatkhem whump ftw #im also fascinated by khem's sexuality and his relationship with sex #i found the movie to be particularly lacking in regards to a conclusion to this subplot #catch me working through that shit with a series of bad touch whump fics #im a simple woman #mansuang #man suang #mansuang meta

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Mansuang Review:

Mansuang was amazing. I was particularly impressed by Apo's performance as Khem, which was emotional and complex and deeply moving. His story was riveting to me. I personally love characters with trauma in their backgrounds, who have been beaten down by the world into a certain way of thinking and behaving, and Apo captured that experience gracefully and expertly. There is palpable pain in his performance of the darkest moments. I will say that they could have expanded upon his character development a lot more. It would have been nice to have a bit more emotional nuance in his journey towards self-love and acceptance, but I definitely didn't feel unsatisfied by where his narrative ended up. The movie was already juggling so much they clearly just didn't have the time to dedicate to expanding upon the nitty gritty aspects of his healing.

I will say that I am honestly kinda surprised this didn't have any romance in it at all, because there is such a good foundation for it that it feels like they wasted? Like, Khem feeling that no one cares about him except for his body could have been the gateway to Chatra demonstrating care and affection for him outside of sex, proving that he's capable of being loved for who he is. That jumps out at me. That might have been an opportunity for them also to have expanded on Chatra's character, and given him more presence and personality. Khem is a protector, that's clear in the way he treats Wan, but he so often has to sacrifice himself in that role that it would have been devastatingly effective if Chatra had had an opportunity to take care of him in some way instead.

I loved the *bad touch* backstory, for whumping reasons, but it did leave me a little confused. Why did Khem have to have sex with those people? Was it because he's ambitious enough that he'll sell himself to advance his position? Was it because someone was forcing him to, like a boss or person in power? Was it because he felt he had no choice, or was protecting Wan from something? I just wish we could have gotten to know him better, because we get to see the impact of the trauma but we don't really get to understand it, and that leaves me wondering. It felt like, during the dance scene where Khem goes off script, that he did that as an attempt at seduction, because seduction is what he knows and what he expects. He's used to trading in on his beauty and sex appeal to get what he wants. That suggests so many characteristics to me that just... don't quite exist in the rest of the story. And there's no real conclusion to it other than Khem, at the end of the story, choosing to be a dancer because he's at peace with his place in society. Again, lots and lots of opportunities were built up that just didn't quite manage to hit a home run.

Mile did a fucking fantastic job with what he was given, but I was a little disappointed with his role in the story. I felt like the relationship between him and Khem was half-done and underdeveloped, but it had so much potential! He put in an absolutely solid performance, and knocked the emotional scenes out of the park, but I couldn't help but feel like he wasn't given the chance to really shine.

Tong killed it. Killed it fucking dead. That man has the screen presence of a King, which surprised the fuck out of me cos I thought he was a character actor based on his performance in KinnPorsche. But no, this guy has range. I was very impressed.

Bas did a great job playing a racist sad boy. RIP Wan.

In conclusion: a flawed movie, but still so enjoyable and so, so worth watching. I cannot fucking wait for Shine, I hope that it delivers in some of the areas Mansuang wasn't able to.

#mansuang #mansuang review #mansuang spoilers #apo nattawin #mile phakphum #man suang