alkeila

[alkeila]

well well well, what did i find in my old drawings

#not sso #oc #i kiinda want to work on her story more #old one.. #not even sure about how to tag it...maybe i'll come up with some name for this uhh story #old therefore shitty quality

[alkeila]

I really hope it gets better for you eventually. You didn't deserve any of this shit, no one ever could. Just, please, get as much help as you need from your close people, relative or friends, probably therapist (cause it's truly fucked, honestly) and live on - it is the best thing you can do for yourself. People who sent you those disgusting messages deserve quite harsh legal consequences of their threats (I'd say way more, but every sane person already knows it). But probably not in this wicked world. Stay safe and healthy ❤️

Honestly, it’s a fault of mine but I’m very sensitive and I cried a lot over this, even right now. I tried to report that blog days ago, but I was told in the report response it would remain because no violations were found. I sent another report today, but it feels helpless.

I don’t understand anything about what’s happening.. I was told often here before that I should block people who are rude to me or doing things that make me feel uncomfortable, but I did that so I’m being punished? There are people who go there and say they want me to be harmed, beaten or raped. To have my home address and have other information about myself shared online like it’s nothing… I’m seriously very much afraid, so much so that I can’t even go to my home and staying with my parents now. I think the people who can follow this person and send messages of encouragement are also very scary and evil people.

I’ve always kept quiet and never said rude things to anyone, despite the terrible messages that would come in every day on this website before I closed the message function. I’ve never been treated like this in any other gif sharing place I go to. Many sisters in my life told me not to interact with English speaking friends because if they find fault with you and make them angry, they’ll call you with misogyny like you’ve never seen before. “You will be attacked for being born a woman who dared to be happy” is what my gif Twitter friend told me.

I would like to keep posting gif here. Because gif here is a very different format from what I was used to, so I could be a little creative. By being here, I learned how to make subtitles in gif that I was able to present the entire scene of beautiful words for this place and my Korean gif sharing community.

There were people who were nice to me, and there were people I was happy when I saw their user ID interaction with my posts. It has an invisible link but I would like to believe that not everyone was waiting secretly for the opportunity to say that they hope for my rape and abuse. Likewise, I would like to believe that there are people who will not be friendly when someone agrees that I should be harmed.

I’d like to come in again for the Donbrothers this time and the time after until the end, but I’d like to say that I don’t want to interact with people who say terrible or disgusting things. Don’t force myself to endure it. I really don’t want to.

Even though I say I want to post again for the next episode, but I’m really so afraid, I might not have the strength to come in. My heart is so broken, all I can feel is betrayal and fear. It hurts so much. I don’t know if I can heal from this, so it’s best for me to remain with my family and stay away for a while so I can breathe again.

Thank you very much for everything up until now. I hope that this translation can be understood. My hands are shaking and I’ve crying over and over, so I might not have typed well enough for a coherent translation.

#honestly wtf #just reading replies to your posts makes me sick #not art but wtf??? #english speaking communities are truly fucked sometimes #I know my words won't make much change but in this shit ton of cruelty at least it's something

[alkeila]

Don't Have the Time (Lisa ver.)

https://youtu.be/p_3Ov8LM4Ow

Soo I wanted to make arts to every Star Academy song.. Decided to start with this one, although this song isn't first in SA games.

Just wanted to do something with Lisa, and this song somehow associates with her mostly. Aaand i really like the mood of this one! Suits her well.

#sso #starshine legacy #star stable #star stable online #star academy #lisa peterson #lisa sso #i really missed this version of her until i realised that i can just stick to it #aand i think its my fav song from all of them #altho last one is also great #hit me hard in childhood tbh lol #every song did tho #shame i didn't know english well that time and couldn't even learn it to sing along #ahhh what a times #anyway...its just a quick sketch to warm up #haven't been drawing for a long time

[alkeila]

just the latest mood

#sso isn't inspiring and i'd even say disappointing lately #buuuut i have an inspiration from nowhere so maybe maybe soon i'll give a birth to some new art #hopefully #i dunno #also there's a possibility i'll draw more shit about star academy but honestly #what's the point #those stories are dead and new ones are simply meh #should get inspired by something new ig..

[alkeila]

Ahhh I love your art so much it's just so beautiful!! Everything has a lovely flow that draws the eyes exactly to its movement 😍

Omg thank you so much!! 😲💫

#my day is made now

[alkeila]

damn, i really hope some sso fans demands will be ignored by devs. like, adding a male playable character? hell please no. some stuff is created for girls but apparently people don't wanna respect it and claim that "making sso only for girls supports the stereotypes like liking horses is a girly thing". uh, i guess authors of any content now don't even get to decide whos story they want to tell. not like you get to choose any characters sex in books or movies. apparently games are a different case, but why can't people just deal with it? with the fact that this is a story about girl. not like they forbid boys to play it. their dignity won't belittle if they once in eternity won't have a choice to play as a dude.

i wonder why is it a topic that people bring on and on. let girls have a game, gosh. but no, those people have to spoil even those crumbles and claim it's sexist etc.

#it's not some game with full freedom where you build your character depending on your desire #it's a story about certain character with certain personality #it may be a minus for an online game but it is a fact #we can't even change anything except appearance. we can't choose sides. we can't make serious choices #whole starshine legacy games were about girls and for girls. is it bad for boys to like it? no. #but as a creator i 100% support creating something specially for girls #we do deserve it #nothing serious #i'm just so annoyed with such people #i will delete it later apparently but now i'm just bitter #sso #starstable online

[alkeila]

waiting for brighter days

#soo i wanted to make an animation #but i was busy way too long time #i can't finish it anymore cause now i want to make it completely differently #i see way too many mistakes now #i guess small sequence of pics is better than nothing? #sso #starshine legacy #star stable online #alex cloudmill #maya dew #ah i ship them so hard #hmm maybe soon i'll do less comforting and more dynamic #arts #damn i hope so #i like how nice company may make chill evenings warmer

[alkeila]

Brainstorming at Leonardo’s

#sso #star academy #starshine legacy #star stable online #Lisa Peterson #kyomi #brittany #kevin #lance and lilith are in the back as well #i started this piece like months ago... #well.. #at least i finished it right #oops i wanted to draw here only girls and horses but mkay kevin i guess you may stay #exclusions will be rare i hope #i was so happy with star academy reference in alex video so immediately started drawing this #sigh and since this time what we have new about lore? nothing #more and more questions about garnok and soul riders but less and less answers #and if there are any answers i don't really like them lately tbh #anyway

[alkeila]

How different is SSO story from SSL?

It is really really different. SSL had a lot of unanswered questions and bringed up some stuff only to completly aboned it.

SSO is more or less a reimagening. But still wonder what they keep from SSL.

Is Mr Sands and the dark riders still aliens? Is Pandoria a planet or another dimension? Is Buck still Katjas brother? Is Buck still one of Garnoks generals(not one of the dark rider but like a foot general)? Are the Grunts still robot clones(they do seem like it, Idk, still ask)? Is Garnok a normal monster or is he a leader of a race(really not sure anymore)? Can you talk to Garnok? Is it possible to reason with him?

Darko seems to control Garnok like he was just an animal. Didnt a character(dont remember who) said Dark Core think they could control Garnok to take over the world? In SSL they try to free their ruler. Not to try to control him. But to follow him.

Maybe I have missunderstood some things but still. I wanna know the lore.

#Sso #Star stable online #starshine legacy #SSL #damn same

[alkeila]

i wonder if many people do know about star academy and that Lisa Peterson had a voice before those new songs at all

#sso #star stable online #star academy #i mean as i know this game isn't available in english #so just interesting to know #Lisa Peterson #starshine legacy #hmm should i make post about it maybe? i'm pretty bad with words but at least i can gather vids with songs from youtube #it's something already i guess

[alkeila]

mood

#i made it during graduation year #very end of it #still find it pretty topical #i just finish drawing one pic in new uh style and it's awful #i feel like i wasted all those hours i tried to make it look good #AAAAAAAA #maybe i could post some sketches for work but #kdjsghkjd

[alkeila]

#BROKEN HORSIES TIME I"M SORRY #sketch #horse #welp someone was pretty upset at work so #just let it be #and me #at least weekend is near #i hate people sometimes #this horsie is surely gonna fall #justl ike me #ugh

[alkeila]

#Alex #alex cloudmill #sso #starshine legacy #star stable online #tin-can #i feel like Alex seems to smol but..okay....at least horse anatomy seems better than before #don't try this at home i guess #you know that feeling when everything's constantly bad and you grieve most of the time but then you wake up one morning and feel better #and so light on your heart #and you feel yourself ready to let someone go #that's it #i'm not sure if it's too burning eyes out in terms of colors but i checked it on three different screens and it was different everythwere so #i just give up #if it's too painful to see just tell me and i'll try to reduce its brightness etc

[alkeila]

#SSO #starshine legacy #star stable online #anne #anne von blyssen #concorde #that spoiler of Anne...good. just good #poor girls tho #i haven't drawn that often since i got a job lol #and all i do is comforting drawings huh #also someone needs to practice in drawing horses more

[alkeila]

#SSO #starshine legacy #star stable online #lisa peterson #lisa #starshine #oof well #i've always thought lisa would have that lip piercing somehow #her star academy clothes were so neat #so why wouldn't she wear it while sl events? #also. punk healer is hella cool imo #also i feel like i broke starshines anatomy #sorry dude #she'll heal you anyway

[alkeila]

For good times, for bad times

You know I’ll always be there

#SSO #starshine legacy #star stable online #lisa peterson #lisa #alex cloudmill #alex #linda chanda #linda #all together #friendship goals tbh

[alkeila]

You know i’ll always be there

3/3

#SSO #star stable online #starshine legacy #lisa #lisa peterson #WELP that's the point of being sick i guess #i drew something after all