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allmonstersxarehuman · 2 months

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All I can say is… DAMN!

Old Fashioned

Genre: 18+, heavy smut, fluff,

Cw: Alpha!Minho x Omega!FemReader, swearing, unprotected sex, porn with the tiniest tiniest plot, reader called good girl and baby, soft dom minho is a fucking tease obviously, slight mention of breeding but it's barely there, reader going through heat

Wc: 5k

Summary: Minho wanted to court you first, he was old fashioned, but fuck, he couldn't exactly just let you suffer through your heat, could he?

Part 2

AN: first post, yippee!! im so sorry for making it a/b/o I literally don't even know what came over me I was just like damn wolfgang minho kinda hot and here we are, also first time writing omegaverse omg don't kill me!

You liked to think it was the village's problem and not yours, that you didn't fit in with them. You were always a private person, choosing to indulge in your hobbies rather than social interaction. You had a few friends, no one that you'd choose to regularly keep up with, but you didn't think you were lonely persay. That was, until you met Lee Minho and his friends from a neighbouring village.

The pack was a mix of alphas and betas, though the absence of a social hierarchy made you feel at home with them immediately. They were friends, and although Chan was their leader, he didn't execute any sense of authority over the rest of them, over the betas, or you even though he knew you were an omega. None of them did.

They were different from the majority of the people in your village, the majority of alphas really. They accepted you with open arms, didn't treat you like you were a lower class, and you clicked with all of them in a way that you'd never done before. Paired with the fact that none of the alphas immediately offered to mark you up since you were unclaimed, you decided that you liked this group of 8 men more than your whole village.

You quickly grew fond of the bunch, and especially the man who introduced you to them.

He was also private, less welcoming of new members, new friends, though he seemed to regard you with a tender smile as he stuck by your side while making sure you got to know all his packmates.

Lee Minho had run into you in the borders of your village while he was out hunting- noticed you alone in the grass and immediately knew he had to see what you were doing. He noticed you there a few times, and each time he came to keep you company until one faithful day he asked if you would join him back to his village.

His pack teased him, of course they did, pointed out his red ears everytime you thanked him for being so nice and accommodating. They laughed at him when he would lose his composure all because you hugged him, and you could all smell the change in his scent when you would give him a little kiss on the cheek- preening from the attention.

It wasn't a surprise to anyone when he admitted he wanted to start courting you.

Somewhat oblivious, and largely old fashioned, the alpha didn't realize the commonly shared knowledge between the rest of you that you wanted him already.

When your heat came around, you panicked.

Minho wouldn't.. he was too.. he wouldn't want to help you so early, right?

There was no way you could possibly tell him you craved him when the man blushed and fumbled every time you shuffled closer to him.

It was cute. But it wasn't going to do right now.

You didn't want him to see you like this if he was going to leave, in your defense. Hence why you locked yourself away in your cottage as soon as you got an inkling of the beginning of your heat. But ever the worrier, searching for a reason to see you- Minho dropped by after about a week of no contact. He walked the few miles between his home and yours with half a batch of Felix's brownies that he had stolen, planning to use the excuse that he had made way too many for all of them to eat on their own.

He pushed open the door, concern painting his features at the fact that you didn't answer him when he called out into your cottage. The scent however, your scent, hit him like a brick as soon as he stepped inside. A shiver cascaded down his spine as he shut the door behind him, fighting with himself to leave because he knew what this was, knew he shouldn't go any further. But his alpha howled in his veins, pushing him towards your bedroom, towards his omega's bedroom- aching to.. make sure you were okay.

That's what he told himself as he stepped carefully through your home, he would make sure you were okay and.. handling everything well, and then he would leave. But, fuck, he inhaled the sickeningly sweet scent of your pheromones radiating from what he guessed was your bedroom and he was convinced he'd never smelt anything better in his entire life.

The man placed his palm on the wall, steadying his knees that were threatening to give out and breathed in slowly- trying to control himself. He shouldn't be here. He shouldn't invade your privacy like this.

He sure as well shouldn't be basking in the clear signs of your suffering, enjoying the scent of you pooling through his veins, rearing his alpha's head. But.. surely he should.. offer.. to..

He could- he would.. if you asked. He knew that omegas going through a heat don't drink.. don't eat.. he would stay with you and make sure you were okay. He would help.. if you asked.

N-No! That's the last thing he should be thinking about. Fuck.

He's here to help.. platonically..

And ..romantically.. if..?

No!

He's here for you, however you want him, even if you want him to leave, which would be the most likely scenario. He'll do whatever you want. He'll help.. however you want.

Minho breathed in, closing his eyes as he tried so hard not to focus on what the implications of the very slight very subtle indication of his scent mixed with yours meant. That's what he was picking up, amidst his wandering train of thought, he could smell himself in there.

He'd not been in your room before, it couldn't have been left over..

Fuck. Fuck. He loved it.

The alpha hung his head against your door, slowly turning the handle to reveal your feverish figure balled up on your bed in the middle of a makeshift nest. You were asleep, barely, but it was good he came by clearly, he needed.. to.. lock..

Your door, he needed to lock your door.

His eyes narrowed in on the components of your nest that had caught his attention, finding various items that had belonged to him..

No fucking way.

His scent, that was what it was, decorating your nest. Your face buried in one of his shirts, breathing in the smell of him as your eyebrows twitched upwards.

His cock jumped in his pants.

No fucking way.

He really shouldn't be here. He really shouldn't be stepping over to you, placing the brownies down on your bedside table, and brushing the stuck down hair off of your sweaty forehead.

You stirred with his touch immediately, a sigh breaking into a whimper as your nose followed the sudden increase in the scent that was giving you so much comfort through your heat.

"M-Minho.." You ragged out, voice crackling with days of not being used, thinking you were hallucinating the presence you could smell before you.

"I'm here." He spoke softly, watching the way your lips tilted up into a small smile until your eyes shot open.

"Minho! No!" You gasped, covering your mouth, squeezing your eyes back shut as his hand tucked your hair behind your ear. Your nose brushed his wrist accidentally, but once you had a whiff your hands acted of their own volition to keep his scent gland pinned under your nose as you breathed him in. "Fuck, Minho. What are you doing here?"

He was glad to let you. If it gave you comfort, that's what he was here for. He tried not to think about the nest that was clearly made for the both of you. He tried to keep out the thoughts of marking you up and down with his scent. Instead.. instead.. right.

"Have you.. have you had anything to drink.. since?" He spoke, feeling his resolve melt as your tongue darted out to lap at his skin.

God, he couldn't do this. He couldn't do this.

"I don't.. need..," you mumbled, brushing your teeth across his pulse point, some sort of deep strength giving you the ability to tug his body down- making him stumble to his knees next to your bed. "To drink right now."

"You d-do, let me go get-"

"No," you almost growled, startling him for a second and turning him the fuck on.

You emerged from the blankets, wearing another one of his shirts, to bury your face in his neck, nudging at another of his scent glands as the neediest whimper fell from your lips.

Minho was somewhat proud of himself for restraining, but did it really count if he was just letting you have your way with him?

"You should stop," he whispered, a halfhearted attempt to pull himself away completely thwarted by the pure desperation in your arms as you clung to him. "I'm here to take care of you."

"Minho," you whimpered, tugging on the hair on the nape of his neck. "Want you."

"Fuck, y/n," he pursed his lips, hanging on the smallest thread of restraint that he could possibly muster- and he didn't even know why, because he still bared his neck for you. "Let's talk about this first."

"N-Nothing to talk about," you whined, sucking marks into his skin. "Want my alpha."

Your alpha. That's fucking right. I'm your alpha and you're my omega.

"Mmm," you preened, smiling as his scent spiced up in your nose- full of possession and deep deep lust as you lapped up every piece of skin your tongue could reach. "I know you want me too."

A deep growl rumbled from Minho's chest as he effortlessly pinned you down into your nest, sending your nose straight into one of his shirts that had you whimpering at the loss of contact. Now that you'd had a taste of the real thing, his clothes weren't going to cut it.

"Let's talk about this first." He demanded with a gruff deepness to his tone, making your inner omega go crazy at his dominance.

"Minho.. please, I need you."

"What do you need?"

"Need everything.. need you to help me through my heat.. I need your cock.. need your knot!" You begged, sobbing into the pillow- wetting the man's shirt with your desperate tears.

"Why didn't you tell me? Before you locked yourself in here?"

You whined, wiggling your hips and pushing your ass straight into his already hard bulge. "Please, please."

"I'll give you what you need, I promise," he whispered, gently biting the shell of your ear. "Just be good, talk to me."

"I.. I didn't tell you.. because I didn't think you'd want to help."

"Why would you think that?" Minho questioned, letting you grind into him for little pleasure as you moaned into the pillow.

"I heard you tell Chan you wanted to court me properly.. d-didn't want to.. rush you, mmph~"

"Oh," he chuckled, finally rolling his hips into you and making you whimper out a feverish moan of relief. "Just because I'm old fashioned, doesn't mean I'd let you suffer through your heat."

"Please," you bit your lip, struggling to keep your breath as he finally gave you something.

"M'still gonna court you," he whispered, "still gonna take you out and get you flowers, I'll just fuck you first."

You moaned breathlessly, your scent thickening the air as he flipped you onto your back, pulling off your (his) shirt and admiring your trembling nude figure below him.

"Oh? You like that? Want me to claim you? Mark you up in this cute little nest you made for us? Let everyone know you've got a mate?"

"Y-yes.. yes, please," you begged, pulling at his shoulders but he didn't budge too far.

"I should really punish you a little, hm?" He smirked as his fingers deftly carded through your wet folds.

You sobbed and shook your head, half from your alpha finally touching you- half from the implication that he was going to keep letting you suffer.

"Oh I know, you were good, so good for me," he cooed, giving you a sweet eskimo kiss before pressing his lips against yours. "But you shouldn't hide things from me baby."

"Sorry, I'm sorry!"

"I know, I know you are," he smiled, taking the chance to finally press his nose against your scent gland and inhale the raw scent of your heat, every cell of yours begging to be claimed by him.

"You smell.. fucking amazing."

Minho's fingers dipped in and out of your entrance shallowly, teasing your clenching pussy with a mischievous glint.

"Gonna take care of you, gonna give you what you need," he mumbled against your skin, circling his clit with your thumb and feeling your walls clench around him in no time.

"Yes, y-yes, please.. close.."

You'd been in a state of unimaginable horniness for a few days now, so it was no surprise to you that the mere ghost of Minho's fingers in your pussy tightened the coil in your abdomen.

"Good girl. That's it."

"Min.. Min," you panted, and the alpha wanted to just close his eyes and hear you moaning his name like a mantra on repeat, he'd never get tired of hearing that.

"Yes?" He hummed, an amused smile etching onto his face as your hands frantically wrapped around his arm, his wrist, his shoulder- anywhere to try and get him to slow down.

Though your strength was no match for his, feeling the tendons and muscles flex and go taut beneath your palms as he fingered you felt like something straight out of a wet dream that was somehow turning you on even more.

"Wanna c-cum on your cock!"

"You don't wanna cum now?" He asked, deciding to tease you because you were just so adorable like this, all desperate and confused about what you wanted because of his presence, his scent.

You shook your head desperately, squeezing your eyes shut and throwing your head back- giving him ample space to brush his teeth over your neck.

"Want me to stop?"

"N-No! Fuck, min!"

"So you do wanna cum on my fingers?" He chuckled, using his free hand to hold your cheeks, tilting his head towards you to watch with a grin as you shook your head once more. "You don't wanna cum?"

"M-Minho," you sniffled, blinking through your tears as the man laughed, "please!"

"You can't expect me to know what you want when you're too cock drunk to know yourself," he smirked, "and you haven't even gotten my cock yet~"

"Stop teasing," you cried, earning a mocking coo from your alpha.

"Stop?" He hummed, "you want me to stop?"

A broken whine crashed through your throat as Minho pulled his hand away, your hips chasing his fingers into the air before collapsing back into your bed in defeat. You sobbed in desperation as you watched him lean his head back and moan at the very taste of your slick on his fingers.

"Why? Wh- I was good-! I.. Minho.." You babbled incoherently, continuously wiping away your tears with your hands as he looked down at you with a half amused, half pitiful expression.

"Mm, I know," he smiled sadly, like it wasn't entirely his choice to pull away from you when you needed him most.

And the ache was still there, the ache for his cock, it was fucking painful. You glanced down, the tent in his jeans looked painful too, you had half a mind to call him out.

"Sorry baby, I needed to teach you a lesson, but I'm gonna give you what you need now, hm? You know, I don't enjoy depraving you of release like this, but how else would you learn?"

God, you had half a mind to call him out on that fucking one too. It sure looked like he enjoyed it, if the straining bulge in his pants was any indicator.

"Can I have your cock now please?"

If there was any sarcasm in your tone, Minho disregarded it with a raise of his eyebrows, making you whimper out a small broken please that seemed to placate him enough for him to move past it and place his body weight on yours.

His lips met your neck yet again, kissing and nipping over your scent gland, grinding his hips into yours.

"Please.. please bite me, mark me up, claim me-"

"Ah ah," he hummed, "I'll give you my cock baby, all of me, anything else."

"Please, please.. why? D-don't you want to make me yours?"

He smiled, tenderly placing sweet kisses over your cheeks, a complete and stark opposition to the fact that his hips were grinding so deep into yours that you thought he was trying to give you his pups through his jeans.

"Of course I do," he huffed, kissing you deep enough that you could taste yourself on his tongue- enough to make a moan tickle your throat.

"Then.. b-bite me.."

"I need to court you first, pretty thing, I'm not budging on that."

You huffed, making the man chuckle as his hands slowly massaged your breasts- pinching your overly sensitive nipples at your attitude and making you gasp.

"What? Is my knot not enough? Don't go getting ungrateful now baby, after I so graciously decided to help you."

You scowled, tongue in cheek to restrain yourself from telling him what a whole lot of help he's actually been so far- but you had a feeling he might want to punish you again for that so you kept your mouth sewed shut.

"Mm, good choice, now you see why I needed to punish you just a bit?"

Before you could say anything snarky in return, Minho rose off of you to unzip his jeans and the mere thought of finally having your alphas cock deep in you got you so giddy that any semblance of a retort died in your throat.

You slapped your lips together, salivating at the size of it as he pulled his boxers straight down with his jeans, freeing his large bulge for an even larger cock that sprang up to his stomach- making your pussy clench around nothing but air.

"Oh, fuck, please.. please.. put that in me, need it.. need.. I-"

"Calm down, you'll get it," he smirked, resting one hand on the pillow beside your head- the other lining himself up with your entrance.

"Spread your legs wider for me, that's it."

He hummed in approval as you wrapped your legs around his waist, waiting patiently for him to act instead of rubbing his cockhead up and down through your wet folds.

But your patience could only last so long.

"Min," you whined, pulling at his shoulders and interlocking your ankles so you could attempt to pull his body down into you.

He gently slapped your thigh, it didn't hurt, but it made you whimper and give up your escapade as quick as you'd started it.

"I like brats, but I like good girls more," he smirked, leaning his face down to kiss you softly.

"Please.. please.. I need.. fuck, a-alpha I'm.. I've been in heat for a week and I h-haven't even.."

Minho's face softened listening to your rambling pleads for for him to just make you cum. Maybe he had been a little harsh. You were in heat. He was supposed to take care of you in your heat, give you everything you needed.

"Mm, okay, I know, shh," he whispered, wiping the remnants of tears away from your under eye as he finally, finally began to push his cock into you. "Gonna give you what you need, gonna make it go away."

You nodded feverishly, your loud moans swallowed by Minho's lips on yours- swirling his tongue around yours and drinking in every whimper and whine that left your lips as he moved inch by inch.

The alpha was enamoured by the fact that there was no resistance, you took him in- sucked him in, so greedily and desperately that he almost felt bad for teasing you so much. So fucking wet. He could hardly restrain himself from taking you the way he wanted to, from biting you- claiming you.

"Almost there baby, you're so good, doing so good."

"M-Min.. Minho.." You mumbled, desperately entwining your fingers with his- your other hand carding through his hair, tugging his lips down onto yours like they were oxygen.

"I'm here, I've got you, gonna let me take care of you hm?"

As the man finally bottomed out, he growled into your neck- choosing to bite the pillow behind you with a frenzied vigour instead of you because he was genuinely concerned about hurting you. Hurting his mate just because of how good you felt wrapped around him.

"D-don't hold back," you almost begged him, dragging your nails down his sweat damp skin- clawing his back with an animalistic fervour that could only be the omega in you raging for him to put his fucking pups in you already.

"Y/n," he warned, but you didn't let up.

You clenched around his cock, tightening your walls and winding the poor alpha with so much pleasure that his resolve snapped almost instantly- winding his hips back and slamming his cock against your cervix, as deep as he could go. As deep as your pussy would take him.

And he still wanted deeper. The possessed screams ripping from your chest only served as a motivator as he grasped your hips with a bruising grip, pistoning in and out like a madman.

"Th-this what you wanted, hm?" He growled, "Is it? T-tell me."

"Y-yes! Yes!" You weeped, everything just too much but not enough, overstimulated and understimulated simultaneously.

You clutched on to Minho wherever you could, trying to find somewhere for your hands to hold him- darting between tugging on his hair and grasping his cheeks to pull his face down to yours. Clutching his broad shoulders and squeezing the tensing muscles in his upper arms.

"Fuck, fuck, I want to mark you so bad."

The alpha nipped at your neck, his tongue slipping out to wet your skin- ready to bite, growling as he squeezed his eyes shut. If he was going to excersise any restraint tonight it needed to be this. He couldn't mark you yet.

But he imagines it, and god the thought makes him feral- thinking of how you'd wear his mark with pride, how your scent would change so that everyone would know you were his. Permanently, irrevocably his.

"Ple..hah-please," you begged, "do it, make.. make me y-yours."

"You're already mine," he shook his head, feeling his knot start to swell at the base of his cock. "Fuck, are y-you..?"

"Close," you nodded frantically, "please, fucking b-bite me.. I- ah.."

"I can't- c-can't, next time baby I promise. Fuck, I'm gonna cum."

One of Minho's hands slid down your stomach, finding your clit with ease and immediately circling tight and fast around it- cursing under his breath at how you clenched and spasmed around him.

"Minho.. f-fuck.. a-alpha I'm.. gonna.. a-ah, c-cu-"

You could barely get the words out to warn him before you were barelling through your orgasm, screaming through the intense waves of pleasure that wracked your body. Your mouth fell open with a silent gasp after the most of it was done, whimpering as he kept fucking you through the last of it.

"O-oh my god," he moaned, the muscles in his abdomen tightening painfully as his orgasm dangled above his head with the swelling of the base of his cock.

"Min.. Minho.. please.. alpha.. cum in me.." You babbled between kisses, "g-give me your knot, please alpha!"

He bit his lip so hard he thought he was going to draw blood, contorting his face in pleasure as you repeatedly clenched around him. He thought you were trying to drive him insane, not make him cum.

The man placed a hand over your lower stomach and felt the bump of his cock push through your insides. It was so lude, so fucking dirty, he felt like he had corrupted the sweet and shy girl he met just a few months prior.

"F-fuck, fuck!" The man growled, shoving his knot into your pussy as he finally came, filling you up with everything he had, so much cum you could feel all it inside- feel the pressure.

He collapsed down onto you, panting heavily with you, content for a minute or two before he felt you trying to adjust your legs underneath him.

"S-sorry," he mumbled, lifting off as far as he could before he was unable to remove himself from you.

Oh.. my.

He blushed furiously when his eyes glanced down at where his cock was buried inside you, wet and messy with his cum and your slick. You giggled through a yawn at his reaction.

"Thank you," you smiled, carding through the hair that was sticking to his forehead. "I know you wanted to do this whole thing properly.."

"No! It's no.. well, yeah.. but I also wanted to help you however I could," he huffed, brushing his nose against yours.

"Did you know I was in heat?"

The man shook his head. "Not until I got here, I just.. actually wanted to drop off some brownies for you. And then I smelt... me."

"Yeah," you blushed this time, glancing side to side at his belongings that you'd stealthily stolen days before it started. "Sorry, I.. I'll wash-"

"Fuck no, don't wash them," he said, a little too quickly for him to play off. "Smells like you, gonna drive me insane."

"Okay," you giggled, kissing him sweetly. "I'm still sorry I took them though, and.. for not telling you."

Minho grew tired of holding himself above you, grabbing your hips and manoeuvring you on top of him instead- humming with approval when you buried your head in his neck and inhaled the pheromones he was giving off.

"You can take anything from me." He mumbled into your hair, kissing the top of your head. "I'll give you anything you want."

"Mm? You wouldn't claim me like I asked?" You teased, feeling the skin on his neck grow hot with a blush.

"Anything but that." He smiled, drawing absentminded shapes over the red marks that were beginning to go purple on your hips.

You whined and he laughed.

"But courting is such a long process!"

"A month or two?"

"Exactly! I wanna wear your mark now! Wanna show everyone I'm yours, wanna belong to y-"

"Easy, you're gonna make me go into an early rut," he chuckled, raising an eyebrow when your big eyes pouted up at him, a silent question that you both knew the answer to. "No, I'm not marking you in my rut either."

You huffed, "too old fashioned to mark me before courting, yet you can make me beg for your cock before a first date?"

"Y-yes," Minho blushed, pushing your giggling head back down into his neck. "Um, speaking of.."

The alpha sucked in a breath, he was nervous for some reason, he had planned to ask you soon anyway- to actually begin the process. Seemingly as he'd jumped the gun a bit, there was no better time to ask you out than while his knot was buried inside you. Because that's very gentlemanly.

"I um.. there's this.. it's stupid now, but the strawberry field in my village lets you.. pick a basket each.. we could.. would you want.. to?"

"Pick strawberries with you?"

Minho sighed, biting his lip. "Yeah I.. I thought.. it would be cute?"

You moved up, leaning your palms on his chest to watch his somewhat panicked expression avoid your gaze.

"It is cute."

"Really?" He glanced up, his eyes sparkling with hope.

"Of course, I'm just waiting for you to ask me properly," you smiled, seeing the cogs turn in his mind before a lightbulb clearly turned on above his head.

"Ah! Would.. would you like to go on a date with me?"

He watched you nod, a grin etching it's way onto his face as he kissed you sweetly- peppering your lips and cheeks with small pecks.

"What's wrong?" He asked curiously, observing the slight frown suddenly on your features.

"I'm just.. thirsty," you slapped your lips together, now acutely aware of how dry your mouth was- when was the last time you had had a drink?

Minho laughed boyishly, making you tilt your head to ask him what was so funny. "I told you to let me get you a drink."

"You did?"

"Yeah, when I first came, I was gonna make sure you were hydrated and had eaten something, but," he smirked- making your face heat up at the implication of your feverish actions that you didn't remember all too well now that you could actually think straight.

"But..?"

"You knocked me to my knees so that I wouldn't go," he teased, nudging his nose at your cheek. "Basically pounced on me, it was really quite cute."

You covered your face with your hands, moaning for him to stop.

"I came with pure intentions," he hummed with amusement, "but you begged for your alpha to give you his knot, what was I supposed to do?"

"Min!" You smacked his arm playfully, "are you trying to say I coerced you into fucking me?"

"All I'm saying is that one of us came to deliver brownies," he raised an eyebrow, "and one of us was almost naked in a pile of my clothes."

He laughed loudly as you grumbled, burying his face into the junction between your shoulder and neck- teasingly nipping at the skin.

"So, are you free tomorrow?" He smiled, "I wanna take you on that date."

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allmonstersxarehuman · 3 months

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"I've got you"(18+)

Synopsis: Caught in a stressful situation, you do the only thing you can think of - texting your friend's older brother, Chan. However, was that really the better option?

Content info: Chan x afab reader, one-shot, idol Chan, friend's older brother trope, fluff/smut/slight angst

General Warnings: Smut (specifics under the cut), unwilling drug use and comedown, swearing

Word count: 10.5k

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a/n: Hey readers! Long time no see - hope your holidays were fantastic. As promised, I'm releasing this in January. Please let me know your thoughts and don't forget to reblog! There is a sensitive scene filled with macho bullshit at the start but it doesn't last long. I must say, writing for Chan is always such a ride. Anyways, enjoy! 🖤🌻

Smut: dom/sub dynamics, dry sex, oral (f receiving), unprotected sex (don't), dacryphilia (crying/begging kink)

Explicit content - minors do not interact.

“Look at Y/n for example, she’s hot but also a gaming nerd obsessed with Kpop so she hardly gets any. We should be going after girls like that since they’re not the sluts showing their tits on OnlyFans.”

You slid further into the couch, trying to make yourself look small. Your mind was a haze and you could hardly stand up for yourself like you normally would. Your colleague was making the most ridiculous, sexist statements that screamed ‘Andrew Tate’ but all you could do was try and hide your shaking nerves. It had gotten so bad that your teeth were chattering. Jack had always been nice to you and you thought he was a solid guy but a different side was brought out when he revealed the party favours. You had accepted the invitation to his house warming without worrying about what the night would hold - your plan was to show up, act impressed at the large space, have one drink and then bounce. It couldn’t have been further from the truth because now you were sitting in a room with around six people, coming down from the coke they had pressured you into taking (you were too inebriated to say no) and he was spouting all this bullshit about how women were always out to get each other and kissing you all over your face. The more invasive he got about your body, your sex life and the inferiority of women, the more you froze up. You had never felt so unsafe before so you stumbled to the bathroom, trying to think fast - who could you message to come get you? It was 3 am in the city and most people were either too drunk or asleep. Who could you count on to always answer the phone? Who would you feel safe with whilst coming down? The questions were racing through your brain and you were about to give up when a name hit you square in the face. He was here. You thought hard about this - he had arrived the previous day and you hadn’t seen him in years. Would you really want your friend’s older brother seeing you high? Yes, you had kept in touch over the years - he had even gotten you a VIP ticket at a discount price - but this was too much. Suddenly, a knocking startled you out of your reverie.

“Y/n?”

It was Jack.

“What are you doing in there? Do another line with us because you’re looking way too sober, you can stay over!”

Oh fuck no.

You texted Chan.

You didn’t know how much time had passed - perched miserably on the couch, staring into space when a banging was heard over the music. The others looked at each other warily and a girl proceeded to open the door, widening her eyes. In strode a medium-length broad-chested man wearing a tight black t-shirt, ripped jeans and a black cap pulled low over his face. His silver earring glinted in the soft lighting. He tipped his head at her slightly and then lifted his head, serious eyes searching for something. When they landed on you, his jaw clenched. Hard. You struggled to focus but you were pretty sure you looked wrecked. Crossing the room, he knelt down at your side, glaring at the guy next to you who shifted further away.

“Y/n.”

“Channie,” you breathed out, relief etched across your features.

He cupped your cheek softly and sucked in a breath, finally taking note of the situation. When he saw the white lines of powder on the mirror in the middle of the table, his head whipped back to you with a questioning frown - you could only nod in response, too ashamed to admit to it verbally. His frown deepened and you instinctively cowered back in response - why did you think it was a good idea to text him? But, as if he knew what you were thinking, he grabbed your hand and rubbed soothing circles into the back of it, trying his best to school his expression.

“Knew it was too good to be true.”

Why couldn’t he just shut up? Chan shifted himself so that he was facing the rest of the room, scowl deepening with every second.

“What?”

Jack eyed him from where he was pacing, “I said it was too good to be true. Here I was, thinking that Y/n was so innocent - I was actually telling her to go to Korea to hook up before she grows old in order to satisfy her curiosity. With that hair, those tits and face - they would definitely notice her! But I had no idea she had already found herself one. Careful, Y/n, don’t turn into one of those loose bitches.”

There was so much to unpack here and your eyes widened in horror, frustrated tears pooling in your eyes. How dare this asshole speak about a culture like that? All you did was appreciate Kpop, the fact that he had implied it was a fetish for you had your brain spiraling. You didn’t even care about the remarks about your body - he had insinuated that you were sleeping with Chan and that you were only sleeping with him because he was Korean. You didn’t know where to look, humiliated and furious beyond belief. You opened your mouth, about to rip him a new one, but the man next to you had stood up, hands balled lightly into fists and eyes stern.

“Say one more thing to her and I’ll tear your head off.”

You couldn’t look up, too anxious to lift your head but the tone of his voice sent a ripple of fear through you. You could see it mirrored in the others’ faces because they immediately grabbed Jack and whispered in his ear. He casually sat down with a grin.

“I’m just messing around, man, what you do with your free time is not my problem. You sound like you’re from around here - have a line with us, let’s chat. What’s your type?”

Oh, this guy was deranged. Chan turned to you again, trying to meet your eyes in order to assess the damage. When he saw the panic he gently helped you up, pushing past the others with an arm around your shoulders. He silently led you down the stairs and while you waited for an uber, he held you close. You shook in his warmth, his strong arms encircling you - you were too embarrassed to look at him and he knew this so he whispered soothing words into your ear. He helped you into the car and when the driver set off, he started to talk.

“You all right?”

You studiously avoided him and he gently touched your hand, waiting a while before trying again.

“Y/n, look at me.”

You sighed and looked at him from the corner of your eye. He noticed something outside the window and straightened up.

“We can talk inside.”

Inside? You saw that you were entering an underground carpark of a hotel and turned to face him fully with an eyebrow cocked.

“You can’t honestly believe I would drop you off at your place after all that’s happened, right? Especially in this condition…” His voice had softened and he was back to stroking your hand. You just blinked and turned away again, feeling his hand retract.

When the car stopped, he opened the door for you, guiding you in with a gentle hand on the small of your back. He pulled out a keycard and you were ushered into an elevator. A thought struck you and you forced out a hushed question.

“Chan, we’re not going to your room, are we? What if the others found out?”

“Don’t worry, I booked another room as soon as you texted.”

Oh. You felt something that you couldn’t identify. Why would he do all this for you? Where was the boy who would push you into the pool as kids, who’d lock you out the house when you came over? You studied him surreptitiously - at least, you thought you were discreet. It had been years since you’d last seen him - you had obviously seen photos and videos, being a fan of their music, but nothing compared to the real thing. His shoulders had broadened, his face had become more defined and the look in his eyes had matured. When did his arms turn into those? Even in your beaten down state, you could appreciate this evolution. But you shook your head, you would not think of him like that. You hadn’t really spoken to his sister since you grew apart in first year but it was still slightly odd to find her brother attractive. You’d had a puppy crush on him back then but wasn’t that normal? It didn’t feel normal right now. You felt like a creep and tried not to let your admiration show. He and Lily only had a few years between them and you used to go over there quite often as kids which is why you had exchanged the odd message every couple years or so. He must have seen you as the annoyance of his childhood - especially now. He led you to your room at the end of the corridor, keeping his hand on you. You wished he would let go and just step back.

When you were inside he turned to you.

“Have a seat and I’ll be right back.”

You grabbed his hand as he tried to walk past you, silently asking him not to leave you. He removed his hand carefully and cupped your face, murmuring, “Don’t worry, I’m just getting you some clothes. Take a shower and I’ll be back before you know it.”

You slowly nodded and took a deep breath, watching him leave then you looked around. The room was magnificent. Everything was lit up in a soft, golden glow and the furniture was plush and new. The bed was monstrous and looked like you would sink straight into the mattress. But none of that registered with you - you felt disgusting. A dark cloud of insecurity had settled over you, chilling you to the bone. You had never done that particular drug before but the comedown was bleak. You felt so vulnerable, convinced that no one would be there for you. If Chan hadn’t been in the country, how would this night have ended? The chill had numbed you, made you apathetic - you were upset but couldn’t get the emotion out. You wandered into the bathroom, hoping the heat from the shower would warm you up and get you to feel something.

A soft knock on the door had you startling out of your thought process. Chan’s voice came through, telling you he had left the clothes outside the bathroom. You heard his footsteps retreat back into the room. When had he gotten back? You realised you’d been in the shower for a while, trying to get the heat back into your bones but it hadn’t worked. You felt cold. Cold and alone. You wrapped a towel around your shivering shoulders and cracked the door open, swiping an arm out for the clothing. You pulled on the navy blue t-shirt which was wonderfully baggy and settled on your thighs but the pyjama trousers were way too uncomfortable so you decided to forgo those. You were now faced with a dilemma - do you don your underwear or do you go commando in order to separate yourself from the night’s events? You skipped the panties. The shirt was so long that he wouldn’t notice anyway - at least, you hoped not.

You exited the room, still feeling nothing but the biting cold. Chan was settled on a champagne coloured armchair on the other side of the room, freshly showered and dressed in a black t-shirt and soft, cotton shorts. His dark hair was still damp and he was busy running his hand through it, looking tired. As soon as he saw you he froze, eyes raking down your bare legs. You almost felt a spark. Almost. When he noticed you shudder, he nodded towards the bedside table closest to him where a steaming cup of tea sat. You gingerly walked around the bed to his side and opened the duvet, sliding into the bed and propping yourself up against the headboard as gracefully as possible - your mind was still numb yet full of images, you needed this cloying frost to dissipate.

“Y/n.”

You lifted your mouth from the cup, sighing in defeat as the hot water still did nothing for your nerves. You wanted to scream but the emotion was so deeply embedded into your chest that you couldn’t claw it out.

“Y/n.”

You met his gaze timidly. He was bent over, resting his elbows on his muscular thighs to be closer to you and you took in every detail. Tired but warm eyes, curly hair, prominent nose and a plush mouth. A plush mouth that was pulled down in a concerned grimace. Again, you almost felt something stir.

“How are you feeling?”

You cleared your throat and willed yourself to speak but only a whisper was heard, “Better now, thanks to you.”

He narrowed his eyes but did not refute you.

“What happened tonight?”

“I went to a housewarming party and took drugs, that’s all.” You couldn’t bear to go into details, it was all too raw.

“Did you accept the coke willingly?”

You thought about it, did you consent? To be honest, you couldn’t remember much of how it started.

“Well, I didn’t say no…”

“Were you drunk when they offered you some?”

“Yes.”

“Have you ever taken it before?”

“No.”

“Fuck.”

“I’m sorry..”

Chan snapped his head up from where he had been glaring at the floor and looked at you in confusion, “For what?”

You didn’t want to talk about it but knew you had to since you owed him that much, “For what he said. About you. You have to know - that isn’t - I would never…” Chan made a furious noise at the back of his throat.

“Don’t apologise for that asshole! You have nothing to feel guilty about - how long have we known each other? I know you. You have a kind and beautiful soul. God, when he said those things about you, about your body - I thought I was going to have to bury a corpse. You don’t go near him again, got it?”

You didn’t respond, looking down at your hands until you felt him remove your cup.

“Hey. Don’t cry, I’m here now - you’re safe.” You hadn’t even registered the icy droplets running down your cheeks. He grabbed your hand and looked into your eyes, “How are you feeling? Are you sober?”

You numbly nodded your head and stated in a small voice, “I can’t feel anything except the cold - I can’t warm up.”

“Here, move up.” He slipped into the bed and tugged you down, coaxing you into turning on your side and wrapping his arms around you - effectively spooning you. Your breath hitched in your throat as you finally felt a spark of heat run up your back. Turns out, you needed to feel safe in order to heat up. But it was still not enough. Chan felt you shiver and pulled you closer, not an inch of space between you. He then started talking in order to distract you.

“Are you still a horror fanatic?”

“What?”

“I remember you and Lily being obsessed with those god-awful movies about possession and zombies - remember thinking, how could these munchkins enjoy that stuff? But then, your true colours revealed themselves and I was more terrified of you two, to be honest.”

You chuckled weakly along with him and bit back, “Hey, it’s not my fault you were scared of your own shadow - you made it way too easy to get back at you for all the times you’d bully us.” He shifted behind you with a sound of incredulity, “Excuse me, how was I able to be the bully when two vicious girls were ganging up on me all the time. If anything, I’m the victim here.” He giggled, hugging you tighter instinctively and you bit back a gasp. His face was now buried in your neck and you suddenly lost the ability to breathe.

“Do you ever talk to Lily?” He murmured against your skin.

Sighing, you felt yourself grow sad again. “No… I let us drift at uni, didn’t make enough effort with all the shit I had going on. I feel so guilty, she must hate -” He cut you off, turning you to face him.

“Hey. No, she doesn’t. I know my sister and she has a tendency to get swept up in her own life, she is just as much to blame and she’ll come around if you reach out. Besides, no one could ever hate you.”

He stared into your eyes for a couple seconds and you felt yourself heat up some more. But it was still not enough. The frost would dissipate for a few moments and then insidiously pull you back in again. At this point, you didn’t know what to do and he must have recognised the insecurity in your eyes because he gently brushed your hair away from your face.

“Y/n…” he breathed. “What’s up?”

Your lip trembled.

“I’m so cold.”

“Still?”

The frustration pulled at his features as his mind raced. He entwined his legs with yours and stroked your hair and then… And then he softly pressed his full lips against your forehead, lingering. The warmth trickled from that point all the way to your toes and you let out a relieved sigh. He took note and rested his forehead against yours - the calm gradually stretched until it twisted into something else, something heavy. It built until he tilted your face up slowly but instead of stopping there, he searched your eyes carefully and found whatever he was looking for because his own widened and you felt his heart race as he pressed his nose against yours.

You felt dizzy but this was the boost of emotion you were chasing so you closed the distance and brushed your lips against his. It wasn’t fireworks, not by a long shot. It was the comfort you needed which was a million times better. You moved slowly in tandem, experimentally angling your heads and applying different degrees of pressure - when you accepted his silky tongue he melted into your mouth, hand moving down to your hip.

You couldn’t believe this was happening - kissing Channie after all these years was never on the agenda. You were so lost in your head that when he made a strangled noise and pulled back, staring at you in a panic, you were thoroughly confused. Did you do something wrong? Were you a bad kisser?

“You’re not wearing any underwear!”

Oh. Right. Fuck.

You looked down quickly, realising he had been stroking your naked hip under the shirt. Where his fingers trailed, a line of fire was left in their wake - the desire was clogging your throat. Not enough. He made to disentangle himself but you weren’t about to let that happen so you pulled him back, swinging your leg over his hip, grinding up against his clothed erection. You both keened hard into each other’s mouths, caught up in the situation. The frosty darkness had started to seep from you entirely and you felt the knot unravel in your chest but all of a sudden, Chan pulled back, panic flitting across his face again. His chest was heaving in exertion and something else, you weren’t sure what.

“We can’t… we can’t do this.”

“Why!” Your outburst shocked the both of you but you didn’t care. Anything to feel. Anything to get rid of the gnawing ache of fear inside of you.

“Please, Chan, please, I need this. I need to feel warm, I need to feel safe, I need to get rid of this pain, I can’t….” You didn’t even notice the tears running down your face in absolute devastation. He quickly moved back in and cupped your face, whispering, “Hey, sshh, sweetheart, you’re okay. You’re okay. Don’t worry, I’ve got you.”

You quietened down, soft whimpers falling from your lips as he gently pushed you onto your back and caged you in. He lifted up to rip his shirt off and then leaned back over you, bringing his lips down to yours. When you tried to remove yours too, however, he grabbed your wrists to stop you.

“If we’re doing this, we’re doing this my way.” Never breaking eye contact, he parted your legs and settled between them. He brushed your hair to the side and when he started to softly suck a mark into your neck, his hips started rolling. And rolling. And rolling.

“Fuck, Channie!”

You were in agony. There was so much, almost too much. His strong arms kept you close, the heat from his shining chest washing over you - you were separated by the thin layer of his cotton shorts but nothing could prevent you from feeling his enormous, leaking member grinding against your pulsing clit. You begged to remove your shirt but he wouldn’t let you, hands staying over the material - he didn’t even caress your breasts. You couldn’t worry about it though, not when he was giving it to you so good.

“I-I think I’m gonna cum,” you panted against his skin to which he groaned a response.

“Yeah? You gonna cum for me, baby?” He started sucking harsher marks onto your collar bones, speeding up his movements.

“Cum for me, sweetheart.”

The orgasm ripped through you - it was unlike anything you had ever felt before, the fire spread over you, burning everything in its wake.

You were finally safe.

When he was sure you had come down from your high, he lifted his head, looking at you. Simply looking at you with blown pupils and you had no idea what he was thinking but, at that moment, you didn’t mind. He kissed you sweetly and rolled off you, spooning you again. Before you drifted off, you heard a faint murmur into your hair.

“Good night, baby girl.”

The sun was high in the sky when you woke up. When you woke up alone in a hotel room, to be exact. You tried to rack your brain in your sleepy state and it took you a few moments but boy, did it pay off when the memories came rushing back. Chan had brought you here. Chan had brought you here and you’d had dry sex. But wait… You sat up swiftly. Where did he go? Did he not enjoy it? You remembered your mindblowing orgasm but couldn’t remember his. Oh god. You had embarrassed yourself. You had begged him to fuck you and he hadn’t even enjoyed it. You had taken advantage of him in your desperate state and it was a pity fuck. Quite frankly, you wanted to disappear. As you turned around to bury yourself into the pillow, two foreign items on the bedside table caught your eye - a coffee cup and a paper bag. There was no note. Good old Chan, despite thinking you were pathetic, he still took care of you. You grabbed your phone off the table, checking for messages but none were from him. What was interesting was the notification you received about a concert that night - a certain Stray Kids concert you would be attending as a VIP. You sucked in a deep breath and then let out a huge..

“FUCK!”

“What’s he staring at?”

“I don’t think it’s a what, I think it’s a who.”

“I can hear you.”

Chan turned around from where he had been standing backstage and the two who had been observing him, Hyunjin and Jisung, took the opportunity to sneak around him. They craned their necks as they located the object of his scrutiny. The smaller crowd had walked in to see their soundcheck and so it was easy to spot you.

“Ahhhh is that the girl you raced to help last night, Ch-rizz-topher?”

“Ooh I can see why, she’s hot!”

“Shut the fuck up, Hyunjin.” Chan rubbed his temple and stared at you again, brows furrowing as he noticed a young guy lead you to your seat, hand on your lower back. He couldn’t blame him though - you looked amazing. You were wearing a tight contraption in your skin colour with red outlines tucked into black jeans, and a black leather jacket thrown over. The corset gave the impression that your torso was bare with blazing streaks across your body and he visibly twitched. Why did you have to wear that? The guilt was eating away at him already.

“What are you guys staring at?” Minho and Changbin had just joined the fray.

“Chan-hyung’s girl!”

Minho moved closer, “The girl from last night? She’s hot.”

Changbin eagerly nodded along and Chan could feel his blood pressure rising.

“Guys, she is not my girl. Simply Lily’s friend who needed help.”

“Hey Seungmin! Check out Chan-hyung’s hot girlfriend who happens to be Lily’s friend!”

“Jesus Christ, Jeongin!”

Chan had had enough. He couldn’t have this distracting them right now. They were about to go onstage in a city near his home and they needed to focus. He decided it would be best for everyone if he ignored you so, squaring his shoulders, he said something that he thought would end the discussion.

“She’s like a sister to me.”

“So you mean she’s available? OW, WHAT THE FU-”

You were right. You had embarrassed yourself last night. There were a number of factors that led up to this conclusion. Firstly, he hadn’t texted you since the incident. You chalked it up to his schedule but you were slightly hurt by the notion that he didn’t want to check up on you. Despite your mortification, you had dressed up really nicely - you weren’t sure why as you would not let it get to you. He was just busy. But now, as he walked down the stage, right past you, he kept his eyes carefully trained away from you. You knew he was aware of you, it was obvious by the way his jaw was clenched. You sighed inwardly - this was awful. Would you get the chance to apologise or would he shut you out completely? At this thought, your throat closed up but you were getting ahead of yourself. One step at a time.

The concert was incredible. You had never had so much fun in your life despite feeling the underlying stress of the situation. The boys were so talented and gorgeous. You admired Chan and even though you knew you shouldn’t, the events of the previous night flitted through your mind. When he hugged Minho tightly from behind, you felt his arms around you too - soothing you to sleep. When he brushed the hair from Felix’s eyes, you felt his featherlight touch as he dried your tears. When he lifted his shirt you were reminded of the smooth, hard muscles rippling under your fingertips as he brought you to your demise; and when he turned around, you remembered the firmness of that ass, clenching in your grip. Fuck - this was not happening. You were not growing feelings for him, were you? He had simply helped you out platonically and the way he was ignoring you proved that. But you found yourself questioning everything when he pulled his tight pants lower surreptitiously, showing his happy trail and briefs. You saw him look at other girls and your heart dropped - his dimple was on full display for everyone but you… You were shaken from your maudlin thoughts, however, when the other members drew your attention. They seemed to have taken quite a shine to you, completing hearts and throwing big smiles your way. It didn’t seem like a coincidence by the way that Chan visibly tensed up and pulled Hyunjin away from your side of the stage or smacked Changbin over the head when he sat down and stared at you during a speech. How much did they know? They were quite obviously getting a rise out of him and you were kind of enjoying it immensely. You were about to give up hope completely until something finally happened. It was during Red Lights. Chan was directly in front of you when he was doing his floor work and when he lifted himself up somewhat, his eyes locked with yours. You felt the air escape your lungs. The way his revealing jacket gleamed in the red spotlight, making his firm chest glow; the way the sweat trailed down his neck; the way his pretty pink mouth parted. All that made you dizzy but what had you wet was his stare. His stare. The way his dark eyes drove into you, the way his brows furrowed in consternation. You couldn’t decipher what he was feeling but you needed him. You hoped he craved you too. You were royally screwed.

The members were backstage while the audience was watching a video, getting ready for the final number. Minho saw Chan nervously darting his eyes to the wall, as if he had suddenly received the gift of X-ray vision. Chuckling lightly, he rested his chin on his shoulder and proceeded to play the part of the devil.

“How you doing?”

“Fine.”

“She’s alone here, right?”

“Yeah. Wait, I mean, I think so?”

“She staying at the hotel again?”

“How did you know where she stayed?” Chan turned to him in confusion. Minho merely smirked which annoyed him further and he turned back around, moving to catch a glimpse of you. His second in command zeroed in again.

“So? She coming with us?”

“No.” Chan grit his teeth, wanting nothing more to do with the situation. Nothing more to do with you.

“But… how will she get home? You can’t expect her to wait outside, in the cold, in the dark, alone, for a random taxi?”

Chan faltered at that. What kind of person would he be if he left you alone without checking up on you? He thought back to how small, vulnerable, scared you looked sitting on that couch and his heart clenched, the anger stirred. He still had your room since he didn’t know how much time you needed to rest so what was stopping him? He didn’t want to think about the answer to that question.

“Fine.” We probably have something to discuss anyway.

You were singing along with the final number when you heard a voice in your ear, shocking the bejeezus out of you. You turned around to find the young, attractive usher from earlier hovering - he beckoned you closer and told you to meet him by the side door as soon as the audience started filing out. You tentatively agreed, knowing what this meant and wondering what the fuck you were going to say when you were face to face with the man you simultaneously wanted to kick and kiss. As you turned back to the stage you caught him quickly turning his gaze away from the two of you - did you perhaps affect him in the same way? No, surely not. He was probably just annoyed at his protective instincts - that’s what landed you in this mess in the first place.

You realised you had zoned out because when you came to, most were cheering and moving around to leave. This was your cue. You moved to the door behind you and loitered a bit until the staff member came to get you. His name was James and he really was very nice but you couldn’t reciprocate his flirting - not when you were about to meet him. He led you through the corridor all the way to the back of the building and knocked on the door of the green room. You felt a warm sensation on your lower back and noticed his hand resting there - before you could ask him to remove it the door opened, revealing a wet-haired Changbin in fresh clothes. He opened the door with a wide smile and stepped back to let you in. You looked beyond him and saw Chan staring daggers at the man behind you who dropped his hand reluctantly. You thanked him gently and walked in.

You knew this was a mistake the moment you did because Chan went back to ignoring you, making you feel very out of place. The room was big, couches settled against the walls and make-up stations set up in the middle but, because of the absolute rejection, you felt the walls squeeze you in from all sides. Your heart stuttered and you started to instinctively move back. This was worse than you thought. How would you two ever be able to go back to normal? You wanted to be alone to mourn your childhood but, just as you were about to make your excuses and leave, a hand guided you to the couch where you were gently pushed down. The man followed you swiftly and sat by your side - it was almost invasive. You turned your head and found yourself staring at the most beautiful pair of lips. Hyunjin. His voice was like molten silk, sliding over your nerves, settling you.

“So what’s your name?”

“Y/n.”

“A beautiful name for a beautiful girl.”

You heard a scoff from somewhere and straightened up, refusing to appear vulnerable. Minho jumped into your line of sight and towered over you, gripping the couch.

“So. You’re the girl Chan valiantly rescued last night.” He smirked evilly, shooting a look at him who had his back to you, shoulders tensed. He still hadn’t acknowledged you. Minho, undeterred, was on a roll.

“How long have you known each other? Because he was frantic when he got the message from you. You two must be awfully close. Isn’t that right, Chan? I think he’d practically do anything for you.”

You schooled your breathing and answered without thinking, using his childhood nickname, “Well Channie and I -”

“Of course, I would. She’s basically my little sister.”

He didn’t look at you as he cut you off and you fought to swallow down the bile comprised of hurt, shame, anger. You knew he was in the right since you forced him into what had happened but you couldn’t help it. You needed to be wanted, you needed to be seen as a woman so you decided to fight fire with fire and focus on the members instead. You let a mask slide across your features.

Leaning back, you smiled demurely up at Minho, saying nothing in return. You took in the other boys - they were all so striking, so unique. Jeongin was staring at you shyly, Seungmin was maintaining nonchalant eye contact and Jisung was adjusting his belt. Good god. Felix had made himself comfy on the other side of you and thrown his arm around your shoulders, murmuring into your ear with his deep voice.

“If I may be so bold, I love your outfit. The red really pops against your smooth skin.” At this point, your face had started to match said colour. What were they playing at? You couldn’t say you weren’t relishing in it, however, as your inner brat was trying to rear its ugly head.

You crossed your legs and pushed your chest out slightly, noticing that Chan had now turned around and was staring balefully at the others. You couldn’t help but stare at him, his annoyance rolling off him in waves. The way the black tank hugged his torso as he crossed his arms really had you pulsing.

“Thanks, I am feeling a tad warm right now though so I might take off this jacket - could someone help me?”

Changbin appeared out of nowhere, pulling you upright and helping you out of it. You practically purred out a thanks and pretended not to notice how Chan’s scowl had deepened dramatically. The boys raked their eyes unabashedly over your body and when you turned you heard an appreciative gasp. You felt someone’s fingers trail over your shoulder and realised what they had seen.

“Your tattoo... So fragile, so delicate, so dark.” You realised it was Hyunjin and shivered when he brushed your hair to the side, seeing that it flowed up the back of your neck. It wasn’t a big tattoo by any means but you looked over your shoulder and caught Chan staring at it, eyes wide. You felt a quiet sense of satisfaction which was masking your lingering hurt so, clinging onto it, you gave Hyunjin a cheeky smile and reached out to touch his new piercing, eyes locked on his. His hair was shorter, shimmering maroon and his shirt was showcasing his collarbones. He was beautiful. He seemed just as entranced by you so he leaned in.

“Are you single then?”

“All right, Jesus! Stop acting like horny teenagers - she’s here because we’re helping her, what use is that when you’re harassing her? Y/n, put your damn jacket on - I can see the goosebumps from here.”

Chan started aggressively gathering his things, muttering under his breath. Hyunjin’s eyes gleamed at you and it all fell into place. They were all baiting him…and it had worked. As everyone got their bags, you moved to slip past them to the door.

“And where the fuck do you think you’re going?”

Chan was grimacing at you, arms crossed.

“You guys are getting ready to leave? Didn’t want to be in the way. Have a safe flight and well done for the great concert.” He was being an absolute prick and you realised that a written message three years from now would be sufficient. But as you started to open the door, a strong hand kept it closed, an arm effectively caging you in. You turned your head slightly and was met by his hard stare. Fuck me. You quickly looked behind you to see all the boys simultaneously turn and stare at a particularly ugly painting.

“I like the…brush strokes.”

“Yes, the mustard yellow is quite…prominent.”

Chan lowered his voice, “You’re here because the hotel room is still available and we don’t want you going home alone. Please… just go there.”

You grit your teeth and tried to tug at the door but his hand wrapped securely around yours and held you still. He leaned in, face unreadable, “What’s going on with you? I’m getting worried.” Your heart clenched painfully and you schooled your expression.

“Oh, don’t worry about me big bro - I’ll be fine.” He flinched and you cast your eyes down, feeling slightly guilty. You sighed, adding, “But I’ll take you up on your offer as I’m too fucking tired to find an uber in this madness.”

Everyone was quick to gather their things and when it came time to leave, you received your instructions.

“We will head out first, draw the crowd in and so forth. Once we’re on the road, you’ll follow us in a company car. You have your room key card?”

You nodded mutely and stared at the ground - so he wasn’t going to talk to you later. The disappointment and relief twirled into a glutinous mess and you felt sick. Someone approached you with a black cap and face mask, and you looked up to see Hyunjin in front of you. He gave you a gentle smile and silently asked if he could apply them. You nodded again and he slowly slid your mask into place, fingers trailing across your cheekbones. A hiss came out of nowhere and suddenly a new person had taken over. From behind you, Chan ran his fingers through your hair - you had seen him approach you but even if you hadn’t, you would recognise those fingers anywhere. The way they raked across your scalp had you seeing stars, the sensation threw you back to the bed where this had all started. You thought you might be imagining it but you could feel his heart race through his shirt and you shivered. After he had balled your hair up, under the cap, you were ready. He stepped back and avoided your gaze. You noticed Jisung clutching his chest, expression cooing and Jeongin blushing in the back. You rolled your eyes and watched the members move towards the van. Just as you started contemplating making a run for it, a harsh voice whispered in your ear.

“Don’t you dare think about it. Stop being a brat and go to the hotel.”

“Come on, Channie! The car is waiting!” Minho cackled and Chan jogged on, scowling the whole way.

Once in the car, Chan’s mind raced. He felt like absolute scum. He had hurt you. He had hurt you the night before and it was evident in the way you interacted with him. He knew he was being standoffish but he was scared to look you in the eyes because everytime he did he was reminded of the tears glistening there as you begged him to fuck you. He didn’t even know he had a crying kink until you outright sobbed, clutched onto his shirt and stared beseechingly into his eyes. God, he had never been so hard in his life. He had let himself get swept up and now he was paying the price. He had acted like a frat boy and taken advantage of you in your vulnerable state. You. You, who knew who he really was, who had grown up with him - he was supposed to protect you, you fucking trusted him. He’d let one of the most important people to him down and he couldn’t bear to face you. He’d seen the hurt etched across your features while he was onstage and, like the coward he was, he ignored it. Like the coward he was, he had slipped out of your bed and fled. Like the coward he was, he didn’t message you, no matter how much he wanted to. And like a pervert…he had gotten himself off in the shower as soon as he could. How could he not when he noticed the patch of arousal you had left on his boxers? You probably hated him and he couldn’t face it. He instinctively gripped his seat as he remembered how you looked in the changing room. His heart had stuttered seeing you up close, your hair tousled, your eyes shining as you looked at the other members. He thought about that tattoo, when had you gotten that? It might quite possibly have been the sexiest thing he had ever seen. It reminded him of how you’d grown up without him, how you had bloomed into this gorgeous creature, how you were different yet not. He wanted to trace his fingers over it or better yet, his tongue but Hyunjin had beaten him to it and Chan had to hold himself back from strangling him. He didn’t know how you felt about him, he wasn’t supposed to want you but he couldn’t help it. When did he start liking you in this way? Did you like Hyunjin? The jealousy had flooded him when you touched his piercing with a smile. You had smiled at him like that when you were in his arms. Right before you cried and begged him to fuck you. Fuck. He was an absolute fucking mess.

He had to apologise to you, he had to make this right.

When you opened the door to your room, you froze. There, sitting in the same armchair as the night before, was Chan. He was staring hard at the carpet, saying nothing. After a while you slowly closed the door and shifted from one foot to the other, not sure what to do next - you didn’t particularly want to sit on that bed in front of him.

“Are you just going to stand there?”

His face was impassive as he looked at you, it made your heart hammer in your chest. He was angry at you - you wanted to melt into the carpet but knew it was better this way. You wanted him to just get it over with - yell at you and then leave. You didn’t deserve anything less. So, mustering up your courage, you made your way to the bed and perched on the side of the mattress closest to him. His eyes were dark and you forced yourself to maintain eye contact - he was really angry. Your lip trembled as you realised there was no going back for the two of you. This was the end of everything.

“Y/n. I need to say something to you - fuck.”

He hissed the last word as he noticed your eyes glinting. Scrambling out of the chair, he moved to the massive windows, back to you.

“Please stop crying,” he gritted out.

Embarrassed at how pathetic you must look to him, you hastily wiped your cheeks and stood up, moving towards him. When you placed a hand on his arm (you had to apologise to his face) he jerked away as though electrocuted, muttering, “I can’t do this.”

You turned away in defeat and made your way to the shower, thinking you would make it easier for him to leave. You found his pyjamas on the sink and choked back a sob, why was this so hard?

After scrubbing your skin for fifteen minutes, you ventured out. You wanted to curl up into a ball and berate yourself further for jumping the man who’d always been there for you in one way or another but you came face to face with Chan again. He hadn’t left, he was sprawled in the chair again. Why won’t he just leave? I would much rather send him a fruit basket than do this. You steeled your shoulders, opened your mouth, but before you could say something he cut in.

“I’m sorry.”

What?

He repeated it and looked you dead in the eye. It confused you so much that you stood there, gaping like a fish for a good few seconds. When you were finally able to get words out, your voice sounded shrill.

“Chan… what are you apologising for? I’m the one who should be doing that.”

His brow furrowed and he tilted his head questioningly.

You stepped forward slowly, it was now or never.

“I’m sorry. I’m sorry for last night - I forced myself on you. I begged you to sleep with me and you gave in. I assaulted you. I’m so fucking sorry!”

Now it was his turn to gape - he felt even worse than before.

“Is that the impression I gave you? That I didn’t want it?”

“You were hardly touching me, wouldn’t take my shirt off and you didn’t come!”

“That’s because I was forcing myself to stay calm and not lose control! You have no idea how incredible you looked under me, how fucking much I wanted to ruin you. I am so sorry. Even though I tried to restrain myself somewhat, I violated your trust in me. You were coming down from cocaine for god’s sake and I took advantage of you. I don’t even deserve to be alone with you right now.”

“No.”

You started to panic, hands shaking and breaths shallow. You couldn’t believe he was trying to do this again. To protect you and make you feel better about you assaulting him. Typical Chan. You’d had enough. Angry tears pooling in your eyes, you strode forward until you were standing right in front of him.

“You don’t get to do this. Not again! I fucking attacked you and now you’re trying to make me feel better? Chan, stop hiding your feelings - I know you’re resenting me right now and I need you to be honest. You’ve been ignoring me all evening, acting aggressive when I approach you. Saying you ‘can’t do this’ a moment ago. Stop being so nice!”

He had stood up by this point, towering over you.

“Being nice? I’m being nice? Do you want to know what I actually meant when I said I can’t do this?” There was no trace of empathy on his face and it made you nervous. Were you wrong? He continued on, moving even closer.

“You had just started crying and it turned me on. It fucking turned me on. Apparently I’m into that. If I didn’t shake you off, I would have taken you against the window for everyone to see. I’m disgusting.”

Your breath caught in your throat. God, you wanted him. He was about to move away in shame when you caught his wrist. He studied you carefully and noticed your dilated pupils, mouth parted and cheeks flushed. You loved his confession and it twisted something in his chest. He wrapped a hand around your hair and lifted your face up, admiring the silvery sheen of tears glistening on your cheeks. He groaned and with his free hand, wiped them away with his thumb. When he slid it into his mouth and sucked at the salty residue, you felt your guilt wash away. He wasn’t joking. And you were going to lose it.

Gripping the back of your neck, he bent down to lightly brush his lips against yours but you both stopped before sealing the deal. His eyes danced.

“Tell me to stop.”

“No.”

You mirrored his words, “Tell me to stop.”

His reply came fast and breathless.

“Never.”

The kiss was immediate, it was forceful with teeth clashing and lip biting.

He pushed you onto the bed and, this time, ripped your shirt off.

“As much as I love seeing you in my clothes, I just need to fucking check something.” He turned you onto your front and roughly brushed your hair out the way, stilling for a moment as he took in the sight. Your painted shoulder was glorious.

“When did you even get this?”

“Back in uni, six shots of tequila helped me gain the confidence to share my design with an artist.”

“So you’re saying, I leave you for a couple of years and you go wild? Shit, I’ll have to keep my eye on you in case you come back with a nose ring.” You felt his arousal through his shorts and smirked to yourself.

He bent his head down and finally got to slide his tongue slowly over the clean lines, causing you to shudder and arch your back. He licked up your shoulder, to your neck where he bit down. Hard. It had you bucking in his grasp and he sternly pushed your hips down.

“Oh baby - settle down unless you don’t want to come. At all.”

Your eyes rolled back into your head and you quietened down, panting in anticipation.

“Good girl.”

Fuck. When did he get so authoritative? He gripped your hair and bruised your mouth with his, licking into you. The pace was rough and you suddenly became aware of how gentle he had been with you when you needed him the previous night. He had gone at your pace, fluttered his fingers over you and made sure not to make you uncomfortable. You smiled into the kiss as you truly realised that he wasn’t reluctant, he was respectful - he was treasuring you. You were both idiots. He quirked a brow, feeling your smile and pulled away.

“What’s on your mind, baby girl?”

“Channie, you could never hurt me - not even if you tried.”

He understood your meaning, giggling shyly (how?), but decided to take your words literally.

“You sure about that?”

He bit the shell of your ear sharply and your eyes darkened in response. Now was not the time for sentimentalities. Ripping his shirt off, he flipped you over and nestled between your legs - his eyes trailed down and his lips quirked.

“You didn’t learn the last time?”

“I have a thing against wearing dirty undies after a shower.”

“Who are you?” His face tightened in thought and you needed to bring him back.

You cupped his face, “Chan, I need you to understand that I’m not the girl from your memories anymore. I’ve grown up - which you can clearly see - so please, don’t be gentle and don’t regret this. I want you and I realise I’ve kind of always wanted you - you were just either too thick to see it or you didn’t want to. I’ve grown up, I’ve dated and I still want you. Tell me you want this and then stop worrying about hurting me, if you’ll have me - I’m all yours. At least for tonight.” You swallowed thickly with nerves and waited for his response - would he finally see a beautiful, worldly woman (like the ones he must hang out with) or would he not be able to get past his impression of you, his little sister’s friend. You hoped it was the first. He took a few moments and you thought you might just cry which you did not want to happen as it would, apparently, just persuade him to fuck you.

He sucked in his bottom lip with a sigh and stared up at you from below his lashes. His warm brown eyes narrowed in something akin to concern. He opened his mouth and then thought better of it, leaning down to place a warm kiss against your forehead. You shuddered and waited, heart sinking.

“Y/n. I can’t promise that I’ll be able to separate you from the girl I knew when I was little. In fact, I don’t want to.” Your shoulders tensed and you waited for the inevitable rejection. What an unfortunate position to be doing this in.

“When I saw you on that couch yesterday, scared and so alone, an image of you crying in the rain hit me. I don’t know if you remember but you were sixteen - your parents had had a fight and gone to bed, forgetting to unlock the front door for you. I pulled you to your feet and cuddled you on Lily’s bed while we waited for her to get home. Anyways, you looked exactly the same, lost and feeling abandoned. I wanted to gather you in my arms again, I needed to protect you again. You mean so much to me and I wouldn’t want you to be anyone else. Just be Y/n, the annoying neighbour who I had a massive crush on before I left. Why do you think I kept in touch all these years? I needed some semblance of normalcy, I needed the comfort of home. I needed you. And I still do. So, stay with me as you. Yourself. Be mine.”

You let out a relieved laugh and he cradled your face again, whispering,“But you gotta stop doing this, darling, as you’ll send me to an early grave and you wouldn’t want to disappoint my fans now, would you?”

He was kissing a stray tear away and you decided you would indeed try your best to shed a few everyday if it meant getting this treatment.

Suddenly, you felt his breathing grow ragged as he looked you over.

“Now call me Channie again and let me have you.”

You bit back a whimper as he lowered his mouth to your neck and then, realising you were stark naked under him, you tugged at his waistband. He broke away for a second to rip both layers off and then captured your lips with his. It was a slow, deep kiss this time - as though you were savouring this pivotal moment together. His hands softly entwined in your hair again and yours slid leisurely over his back, running your nails over the tight planes of flesh. He hissed and you felt woozy, arousal dripping from your core. He slid his cock through your folds gently and held eye contact - it was almost too intense for you so you turned your face away, only for him to grip your chin and bring you back.

“Look at me. Please.”

You blinked and nodded dumbly, watching as he slid his fingers down to your begging hole. You were sopping, ready, and he knew this but a cheeky smile flashed across his features and you narrowed your eyes at him as he slowly made his way down your body. He trailed his tongue across your collarbones, flicked your nipples, grazed his teeth along your ribs and when he reached your pelvis he bit down on your hip. All while maintaining eye contact. You yelped and jerked your hips up from the bed but he easily draped a muscular arm across your torso, glaring at you.

“What did I say about moving?”

“Sorry…” you murmured, head in the clouds. You felt him chuckle, breath ghosting over your pussy. He hummed quietly and kissed your folds. It felt so good that you knew you’d be begging for more later. When his tongue swept over your slit you keened loudly, forcing yourself to stay still. He sucked your bud in between his plush lips and you felt your waterline pleading to release. No, this is too soon! You tried to keep your impending orgasm at bay but it was as though he knew all the right spots on you so as soon as his tongue slid inside you and lapped at your walls you lost it, thighs locking around his head and mouth open in a silent scream.

You felt him nip at your thigh and position himself over you, waiting for you to return to him. You lazily smiled at him, combing a hand through his messy locks and he kissed you all over your face, making you push at him.

“Tell me to stop before I make you scream.”

You widened your eyes as his confidence swept back at full force and choked out, “No.”

“Don’t say I didn’t warn you.”

He gripped your hip with one hand and sheathed himself in you, apparently deciding he couldn’t hold back anymore. And scream, you did.

“Fuck, Channie!”

He said nothing, starting off at a punishing pace and you felt the breath leave your lungs. You held onto his biceps, honestly trying not to pass out. You realised he adored edging you because the heat in your belly would build up at the abuse you endured by his thick cock slamming into your walls but, at the last minute, he would feel you clenching and change the pace. It was frustrating the hell out of you and you wouldn’t have it any other way. He had monumentally slowed down his pace when he started talking.

“How are you still so tight, baby girl? I’m so deep inside you and your wet cunt is still trying to suck me in. Fuck. Is this good for you? Do you like it when I take you like this?”

You let out an embarrassing noise, too fucked out to speak. At this, he slowed down even more.

“What was that? Speak to me - what do you want?” His face hovered over yours, smirking devilishly at you. God, you hated this man. You tried your best to glare at him and pulled your lips firmly shut, two could play at this game. He stopped completely and gripped your face hard, pushing his thumb into your mouth - you felt your eyes roll back as you instinctively clenched around him.

“Stop being a fucking brat, Y/n, and tell me what you want. Beg for it or I’ll make you cry.” He clearly was not going to move and your pussy ached so much as you had been going for quite a while. You realised that if you were going to sleep with him again, you would need to learn to hold your own but it wouldn’t be tonight. He heard a sound around his thumb and pulled it out.

“Hmm? What was that, sweetheart?”

“Cum. I need to cum. Now.” Your voice broke around the last word and he sucked in a breath, eyes darkened to black. He rose up on his knees and folded your legs up against his chest. You had thought it would be impossible but he was even deeper than before.

“If I see even one more tear, I’m going to stop.”

He started up his brutal pace, watching your face contort in the most delightful way. Your eyes took him in as much as you could - the furrow between his brow, his mouth hanging open, sweat trickling down his neck and shoulders. The way his arms bunched around your legs and the way he was breathing was coaxing you to the edge - when he started to feel you contract he licked his thumb and swiftly brought it down onto your clit. It sent you hurtling to your destruction, taking him with you.

Later, whilst facing each other on the bed, arms and legs tangled, you searched his eyes. The sparkle was there, no hint of regret in sight. You felt a surge of relief until you heard his next words.

“The sun’s not out yet and we are far from finished.”

Fuck.

Your body was sore. Really sore. It felt as though he had split you in two, you shuddered at all the positions you had tried (successfully). But you had been over-ambitious and now you were paying the price. Opening a weary eye, you looked around. It was morning, the sun was gently washing in from behind the light curtains…and there was nothing blocking it. Chan wasn’t there, Chan was gone. You struggled to sit up but managed to slouch against the headboard. Was something wrong? Had you fucked up again? You got nervous - when he said “be mine” did he mean “just for tonight?”. You racked your brain, trying to remember what time his flight was but the sound of your discarded phone ringing had you scrambling to reach for it. When you looked at the caller ID, the air returned to you.

“Channie?”

A warm chuckle met you and you sighed in happiness - until you realised he had destroyed you physically and ran. Was he already at the airport?

“Where are you?”

“I’m at a cafe, getting us some breakfast. In fact, I’m currently fighting over a Pain au Chocolat since I remember you liking those.”

“ …oh.”

“Baby, did you think I’d left you again?” You imagined him softly smiling into the phone and you mirrored his action as you heard his next words.

“Don’t worry, sweetheart, I’ve got you.”

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