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Maam. You don't understand how emotionally attached i am now to what I think. Like I don't think I'll be able to stop thinking about it. Like I was so not ready to stop reading that i literally read every line 2-3 times 🥺💔

Awwwww stawp it 😭😭 you have no idea how much that means thank you so much

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What I Think Pt. 2

lucien vanserra x reader

Part One

Lucien's response to your claims.

A/N: thank you all for the love and support with part one, it made me really excited to do part two! I hope you enjoy

Word Count: 645

Warnings: angst.

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He didn’t say anything for a moment. He didn’t so much as move as you both stood there, eyes locked on the other’s.

You thought you had won. That he knew you were right, that he couldn’t think of anything else to say.

But then he leaned against the wall behind him. He smirked.

And you seethed.

“So it’s me who has all the problems then, huh?” He began. “Oh, Cauldron forbid I want to be helpful to those around me.”

“You’re not helpful,” you spat. “You’re a needy man in disguise, parading his way through the courts. There’s a difference.”

“You’re not sacrificing,” he countered. “You’re just a martyr. And a piss-poor one at that.”

You scoffed. “Excuse me?”

“Need me to repeat myself?”

You rolled your eyes. “Obviously not. But I’m not a martyr.”

“Really?” He took a step toward you, that devilish smile still on his face. If it were appropriate, you would punch it.

Mother above, were you really betrothed to this man?

You weren’t a martyr. You weren’t looking for attention, for some sort of award for what you did. You did it because the court needed someone, they needed you–

Oh Gods.

“You want everyone to pity you,” he began. “That’s why you said yes to this arrangement, wasn’t it? Poor y/n, the girl stuck with the High Lord’s bastard son—“

“Stop it.” A fire began to form in your stomach, in your throat–

“Not only that, but he was already mated. Too bad she’ll never know true love–”

“I said stop it–”

“Poor y/n, and all the things she’s done and sacrificed for this court–”

“SHUT UP!”

You screamed the words, and Lucien was close enough that your noses were almost touching, that you were sure he could feel each of the heaving breaths you took.

You couldn’t say anything, couldn’t think–

You needed to leave. You couldn’t do this, maybe Lucien was right, you couldn’t do this, you couldn’t do this–

You didn’t realize your back was against the door until you felt yourself reaching for the door handle. And once you had a hold of that, you left.

You weren’t running, but you weren’t walking, either, you were just…. leaving. You had to get away. Get away from the situation, get away from the conversation, get away from him–

Because he was right. At least, you thought he was right, and you didn’t want to think about what it meant if he was right.

“Y/n.” He called your name from down the hall. His footsteps grew louder the closer he became. It didn’t stop you.

“Y/n, wait–”

He reached you, grabbing your arm as he did.

“Don’t touch me!” You cried, your voice more broken than you thought it was, than you wanted it to be, than you wanted him to hear it as.

He let go, almost immediately. You stayed still, unmoving. So did he.

You cursed that there was no clock in the hall, nothing to fill the silence between the two of you.

Finally, Lucien let out a sigh.

“Look, I—“

“Don’t try and tell me that you didn’t mean what you said,” you told him. “Because then you’ll be expecting the same from me, and I can’t offer you the same solace.”

More silence. Aching, noisy silence. You hated it. You wanted nothing to do with it.

Maybe you wanted nothing to do with any of this.

Without looking down, you slid the betrothal ring– your one gift from Lucien– off your finger. It was a beauty, truly, the woven thing of gold and diamond.

You held the item out to him, grasped between two fingers.

You didn’t have the energy to try and decipher his change in expression.

“Do you want this?” You asked, voice tight and shaking. “Not symbolically. Genuinely, Lucien. Do you want this back?”

o-o-o

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Once more for those in the back.

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ask and you shall receive: https://www.tumblr.com/allyjoe755/747517082631077889/what-i-think?source=share

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What I Think Pt. 1

lucien vanserra x reader

Part Two

A/N: ask and ye shall receive. An incomplete angsty-blurb, essentially Lucien has taken his place as heir to the Day Court and so he's betrothed... to you

Word Count: 517

Warnings: there is Lucien slander. And some angst. I'm sorry (not really)

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“Not like me.” You breathed out a humorless laugh. “You haven’t sacrificed like I have.”

Lucien shook his head and let out a heartier and less humorous laugh. “So then that’s what this is really about? That you want some accolade for the things that you’ve laid aside for the Day Court? Please, y/n.” He scoffed. “The only person you can blame for that is yourself.”

You wanted to scream, wanted to tell him how he was wrong, how he didn’t understand–

He didn’t understand.

He didn’t understand.

“You don’t get it,” you whispered as you looked at the ground, your face softening with realization.

“What?”

“You don’t get it,” you said again, louder this time, your face hardening as you finally looked at him. “My entire life has been spent devoted to this court. I would do anything– I have done everything– for these people.” You could feel tears beginning to pool in your eyes, yet you continued. “But you don’t get it. You’re not from here. You don’t think the same way we do, you don’t care the same way we do–”

“I do care!” He exclaimed, and you could still see the way his shoulders tightened even with his arms crossed. “I care about this court; do you think I would be here if I didn’t?”

“I don’t think you would be here if it wasn’t convenient for you!” You replied, your voice rising.

“Oh, really? And what is it that you think, y/n?”

You didn’t see him roll his eyes but you could hear it all the same in his voice. You took a step closer to him, your temper rising.

“I think,” you began, “that when you were a young man, you fell desperately in love with a woman who desperately loved you back. I think that was the first time that anyone in your life truly saw you. And I think that when she died, and you fled to the Spring Court, that despite his flaws you still liked being Tamlin’s second in command because it meant he needed you.

“I think that when you found your mate, Elain, you were elated– as anyone would be– but you especially so. Because it meant being with someone who would be desperate for you. And I think that if she hadn’t shown such a strong disinterest, you wouldn’t have begun trying to figure out whose bastard son you were. Because she would have wanted you. She would have needed you.

“I think that if Elain hadn’t rejected the bond altogether, you would have never found your way to the Day Court and claimed your birthright. And I think you only wanted it in the first place because then, finally then, it would mean that there would be people who needed you. There would be people who looked up to you, who depended on you.

“I think, Lucien Vanserra,” you said, voice deathly quiet, “that you want to be needed, and need to be wanted.” You shook your head. “And what an unfortunate circumstance that has landed both of us in.”

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this is not for tumblr btw i just changed my pfp to giyuu on here, this is for something else and i'm just indecisive

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[allyjoe755]

water bending is english

earth bending is math

fire bending is science

air bending is the arts

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Stuff My Ravenclaw Says #4

H: Ohh, you’re calling us special!

R: You’re always special. I’m calling you different.

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Me: puts in Eris because I love him and want to give him the spotlight he deserves in this area

Also me: votes Tarquin

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#poll #acotar #high lord acotar #high lord #Eris #Tamlin #Rhysand #tarquin #acotar poll #acotar fandom

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#atla #avatar the last airbender #avatar #sokka #atla sokka #harry potter #hogwarts #gryffindor #ravenclaw #slytherin #hufflepuff #water tribe

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Stuff My Slytherin Says #17

If they start to talk imma just blow kisses at them or moan aggressively

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okay but hear me out, my thought process was, save geto and kenjaku doesn’t take over his body. kenjaku doesn’t take over, the events of shibuya or really anything else doesn’t take place, nanami doesn’t die. my goal in saving geto was to save both of them 😭

i saw this on the tok of tik and now i've got to know. reblog for a larger sample size if you wanna

#jjk #jjk poll #kento nanami #suguru geto

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i saw this on the tok of tik and now i've got to know. reblog for a larger sample size if you wanna

#jjk #jujutsu kaisen #kento nanami #nanami kento #suguru geto #geto suguru #jjk poll