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It’s so awkward when my friends ask why I don’t like certain idols and I have to say “oh idk it’s their vibe” when in reality it’s cuz I know they would severely fat shame me if we ever met irl 😭😭

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One of my friends is famous for saying the rudest shit ever in the form of a compliment. The queen of backhanded compliments.

Today she said, “Oh wow, your body looks nice today” and I literally have not stopped thinking about it since then

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White clothes really know the right way to trigger me

Sometimes I force myself to wear them and stand in front of a mirror if I’m getting off track

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In desperate need of a child to point out how fat I am so that I can get back on track 😭

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130kcal for an ENTIRE chocolate cake

If you’ve already seen this recipe on MPA, it’s because I posted it there a while back. Anyway, here it is:

Ingredients

20g all-purpose flour (72.8)

10g cocoa powder (22.8)

2 egg whites (34)

40g allulose (14)*

Total Calories: 143.6kcal

*You can, of course, use zero-calorie sweetener if you’d like. The resulting cake will be 129.6kcal.

Instructions

Beat the egg whites to soft peaks and add in the allulose in 2-3 stages, mixing well between each addition. Continue to beat to form stiff peaks.

Fold in the flour and cocoa powder, being careful not to knock out too much air from the meringue.

Put the batter into a cake tin, flatten out the surface (or don’t and get an ugly cake), and bake in a preheated, 170˚C oven for 20 minutes.

Turn off the oven but leave the cake in there for 10 more minutes.

[alpinegolf]

There’s a lot of reasons I don’t want kids, but the main reason is because I don’t want to pass on my horrific body structure. I have the classic Mexican inverted triangle shape and I would never want to curse another human being with it 😭 I can only hope that I’ll look like Lisa once I finally lose weight (if I’d stop binging haha) otherwise I will be hanging myself :]

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My biggest toxic trait: imagining the stares that they would give me if they saw me eating

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I swear my entire being is a fucking scam. How can my relationship with food be so horrendous yet I still eat a shit ton of it. I binge on the same exact foods that terrify me. I truly hate myself.

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I hate when I’m the only fat person in a group with skinny people 😭 Especially when my fat ass makes the chair cream so I just sit still 💀

Edit: autocorrect is horny, I meant creak 🤨

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Why does it have to be hair loss and brain damage ?! Just eat the damn fat already

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My friend recreated me in the sims and it’s the best meanspo I’ve gotten in months 😭

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Bro so I love wearing baggy clothes not only because it hides my bitch ass body, but like also cuz I like how I look with zero curves. Like honestly my biggest body goal is to be straight up and down, no chest, hips, thighs, or butt. I just want to be shaped in a way that screams androgyny. I can’t tell if this is because of my ED or if my ED is because of this, but either way I krave that krazy square (body shape)

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My th1nsp0 favs

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I’m fat but I still ascend when people are concerned about my eating habits. Like “you know you’re starving yourself” and I insist that I’m not, I just have a slow metabolism (which is sadly true lol). One time me and my friends went out to eat but I didn’t order anything except for a water and I still revel in the feeling of happiness that I got when the waitress looked at me concerned. I just can’t wait to finally be skinny so that people will be concerned no matter what I do.

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Ultimate Binge Prevention

10. Drink a glass of water : binging will make you gain weight

9. Grab a piece of gum : binging will make your body and face bloat

8. Get out of the kitchen : it will take you double the amount of time to get to your goal weight

7. Drink more water : your clothes will become tighter

6. Go for a walk : you will regret binging in the morning

5. Watch a TV show : wearing a bathing suit will be so much harder

4. Draw yourself at your goal weight : you will feel greasy

3. Do a YouTube workout : binging ruins your teeth and skin

2. Write down the reasons you want to lose weight : you will feel guilty

1. Drink a hot tea : control yourself for future you

[alpinegolf]

what you eat in private, you wear in public.

dont binge.

[alpinegolf]

The best thing about being a Kpop fan is using your favorite idols as thinspo or for meanspo

Like sure I want to eat these m&m’s but if I imagine Mina staring at me with a disgusted expression or calling me a fat ass I will simply not eat them

Plus the dances are so fun and they burn calories

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