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Pack Movie Night

Stiles: Why me? Derek never listens to anyone.

Lydia: Just trust me.

Stiles: Ugh fine.

*later*

Stiles, to Derek: Can we watch the Emperor's New Groove?

Derek, blushing: Yeah, fine.

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The world spins a mile a minute, but I'm stuck in slow-mo. That's my vibe lately, and let me tell you, it's a struggle.

I know there are opportunities out there, adventures waiting to be had, and some days, I'm excited, but others, just getting out of bed feels like a monumental task. Leaving the comfort of home? It might as well be climbing Everest.

It's not that I don't want to experience life; it's just that finding the motivation to do so can feel like searching for wolfsbane at a werewolf convention. The FOMO is real, yet so is the inertia.

If you're nodding along, feeling the same tug-of-war between wanting to engage with the world and wanting to cocoon yourself at home, know that you're not alone. I'm right there with you, and I got a cup of tea.

#personal #depression #anxiety #mental illness #mental health

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I went to Five Guys for the first time today. It was too overwhelming. Too many options. Too many choices. Too many customizations.

I almost started crying in line because the cashier was in a hurry, I was holding people up behind me because I didn't know what to do, or what to order. My partner was rushing me. It was too much.

I ended up going with a plain vanilla shake and a poutine because I didn't have to add anything to them or make choices.

#personal #five guys #anxiety

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I don't think people realize just how exhausting it is to fight your own mind every single day. Depression; it's a dark cloud that follows you whispering familiar lies.

There are moments when all I want is to disappear, to fade into nothingness, to not exist. It's not about wanting attention or pity; it's about wanting relief from the constant weight dragging me down.

Some days, even the simplest tasks feel like climbing mountains. But Sometimes I need to remind myself that it's okay not to be okay. But the world doesn't always allow it. Instead, I'm lazy and selfish.

How am I supposed to find acceptance in myself if society views me as a useless drain? Why do I exist?

#personal #depression #anxiety #mental health #i'm sorry

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Every day I face an invisible battle. Social anxiety, oh boy, it's like having a constant companion that loves to make everything ten times harder.

Picture this: needing help but feeling paralyzed at the thought of approaching a stranger. Ordering from a barista or waiter becomes a mental obstacle course, complete with self-doubt and second-guessing. And don't even get me started on the feeling that everyone you meet must secretly dislike you.

Crowds? They're like a whirlwind of overwhelming emotions. Sometimes, escaping to the patio is the only respite, even if it's pouring rain or freezing outside.

To anyone else fighting these battles, you're not alone. It's okay to take things one step at a time, whether it's finding small victories or seeking support. Hang in there, rain or shine.

#personal #social anxiety #mental illness #mental health #coping

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Something new has happened. Completely unrelated to everything else going on, and I don't think I can deal with it right now.

#personal

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Guys! I finally did it! I finally made it! I’ve been saying I would for ages, and I finally did!!

Here’s my Sterek vid. Finally!

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Have you ever had an anxiety attack so severe in the middle of a coffee shop that strangers panicked? Yeah. Today's been fun.

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Stiles: At what age do you just accept that your life is a piece of rotten garbage and always will be?

Derek: 22.

#sterek #derek hale #stiles stilinski #teen wolf #incorrect quotes

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Stiles: my husband and i have agreed to never go to bed angry at each other

Derek: we’ve been awake since friday

Stiles: well that wouldn’t have been the case if someone would just admit that they were wrong–

#sterek #teen wolf #stiles stilinski #derek hale

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Isn't it frustrating when people assume they're the center of the universe, especially when it comes to time and priorities? Just because I might not grasp all the nuances of social conventions doesn't mean I don't understand basic logic.

I do struggle occasionally, but I try so hard.

It's baffling how some folks think it's okay to assume someone will do something, provide something, or even attend an event without notice.

News flash: everyone's time and needs are equally important.

My god; if I don't know something is happening, I'm not coming! Why don't we take a step back here and practice a bit of empathy and consideration.

Ask, don't assume. Respect boundaries.

I'll admit, I'm not the best at this myself, but my assumptions are usually based on prior conversations. Meaning both parties are aware, even if their understanding doesn't align. If you haven't talked to me, you ain't taking up any of my brain cells.

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EDIT: this post is about my mother. funny you related

#personal #social expectations #wtf #neurodivergent

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Power of a Name (22,377) by @mindofmim Art by @eevylynn For @sterekbigbang 2023-2024, Round 6 Rating: Teen and Up Relationships & Characters: Derek/Stiles, Derek, Stiles, Scott, Sheriff, Erica, Boyd, Isaac, Allison, Chris, Peter Tags: Kidnapping, fae, ritual, spark Stiles, soulmate au, Derek and Stiles are soulmates, pack to the rescue, pinning, Derek works as a mechanic, Derek and Stiles friendship, angst Derek, happy ending

Summary: Everyone has their soulmates first name written on their wrist (some born with it. For some it comes once there's soulmate is born), Derek got his when he turned five. From the moment he met Stiles, he wished they were soulmates. But "Stiles" isn't the name encoded on his wrist. Kidnapped by Fae, Stiles knows the only way to save Derek, and buy the pack enough time to figure out a rescue plan is to make a deal with the queen. And he's only got one bargaining chip - his name; Mieczysław. Derek lost everything the day his pack died, and again when he learnt Stiles was his soulmate (only to lose him in the same breath). His last hope was that the pack could decode Stiles' clue and bring him home, so he could apologize and make things right.

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The Sterek deserved better video, yeah this is why I don't mind ignoring Teen Wolf canon. Forcing Stiles & Derek into a relationship with the nearest female character in an attempt to no homo their relationship, and then in the movie implying that Derek does have feelings for Stiles thankfully I've only interacted with the Fanfiction and ignored the movie; my only gripe is that no one ever stayed dead on that show, so Derek will come back eventually.

I don't think I've watched past season 4, and I have no interest in seeing the movie. I live in fanfiction.

#sterek #derek hale #stiles stilinski

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I've been looking into getting a binder, and I checked out a site recommended to me. The top product suggested for me; is a book on being queer and on the spectrum. And I'm like, woah, boy do they have me pegged, and then the next two were penis pumps, and okay, so maybe not 🤣

#queer #queer community #personal

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Need chest binder

Hey! Need some advice and help. There is so much information out there, and I don't know what to trust. Does anyone have any suggestions on where to get one, or what brand is good?

#chest binding #help #personal