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The feeling when you havnt had a serious depressive episode, and think yeah I’m not a fan of existential but I finally don’t wanna kill myself, only for it to appear when u least expect it.

I hate it. I hate everything really but I hate it the most. And I hate how good I am at hiding that.

#even fanfic fails to save me from this misery #the coming deadline is not helping matters #trying to clean my room in hopes I feel better #kinda wanna cry but am unable to cry #low-key wished someone noticed #but my regular chaos sounds a lot like my depression thoughts #meaningless existance #depression #seasonal depression probably #hate this fucking weather

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“Collecting junk is better than accension” yes, Xia Lian I’m sure all the gods agree 😭

#xia Lian out here being savage without meaning to #with this snark no wonder hua Cheng fell in love #heaven official's blessing #xia lian #hua cheng #hualian

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The real "mom friend" in Death Note is actually Light Yagami, unfortunately for the world

#so accurate #misa is the spoiled child #light indulges her for the sake of peace or something #probably #L is a gremlin

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Does anyone else miss the long haired Miyamura.

#horimiya #izumi miyamura #hori

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Does anyone ever wonder what happened to the villain Mustard. Cause like the UA Traitor got like no consequence(that I know of) but this 15 yr might be in a prison for life or something-

#makes me wonder if redemption is only for like the ‘hero’ like characters that got help #rest were just abandoned or something #bnha #league of villains #mustard #boku no hero acedamia #villain mustard #bnha mustard #my hero academia #aoyama yuuga #bnha aoyama #ua traitor #mha midoriya #hero society #corrupt hero society

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I’m gonna be honest, I think I hate OFA in like the concept of hero society. Like yeah it’s the only quirk that can beat AFO and all that but well it sorta reinforces what I hate about hero society ie Powerful quirks= usefulness.

While I do love quirks, there could have been more about using intellect. I mean Midoriya was a quirk analyst, that could have been used especially since AFO is like really old and must possess a lot of knowledge. Instead it focused more on the physical aspect. (And analysis of that)

(At least that’s what I think, but I tbh haven’t see the entire series)

#I can certainly appreciate how op the power is #but I like plot more so #no hate on anything #my hero acedamia #boku no hero acedamia #midoriya izuku #bakugou katsuki #todoroki shouto

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Ok I relate to this so much because memoryless light isn’t light anymore. Of course the killings change him and if he wants to be with L they should work on a compromise together. Especially since L isn’t that moral either

The entire point of that plot was for them to prove who was the “justice” and the reason I love LawLight is cause they are both childish and hate to loose. Taking light’s memories doesn’t make him the same light that challenged L anymore. They are no more two sides of the same coin.

I really enjoyed fics where Light retains his Kiraness (killings or not) and L just remains this stoic weirdo that he is.

Ranting about the Death Note amnesia trope below, if you like the No-Memories ending scroll past because this is just me expanding on why I don't like it

I think that the reason I tend to despise the Memory Loss ending is because it's framed as a happy one. I can understand it when it's written as a sad or bittersweet end, but not when it's written as a hopeful or wholly happy one.

Not just because I don't think it's happy, but also because it just seems disingenuous, especially when framed as a loving ending.

I don't know, it just—it takes away a lot of what I like about Lawlight as a ship. Enemies to Lovers at its core is about seeing the darkest parts of someone, having someone know every nasty, cruel bit of your soul, and falling in love with them anyway. Not even in spite of it—with Lawlight specifically, I see them as people that fall in love with each other BECAUSE of those parts of themselves. The parts that they hide away from the world, the parts that no one else accepts.

The memory loss trope just,,,wipes all of that away. It takes away the struggle of getting better. It's cutting out the parts of your lover that you don't like or that don't fit your narrative to "fix" them.

I think, at its core, what bothers me most is that it takes away the choice.

Without his memories, Light is stripped of his choice to decide whether or not he wants to better himself. Personally, I don't see L as someone who can redeem him (that's also another reason I dislike this trope), so for L to yoink Light's memories of being Kira and say "All fixed!" is like someone sticking a bandaid over a gaping wound. Because he's not someone who can stitch it closed, who can help it heal, because he is an intrinsic part of Kira's story. As an antagonist. An equal.

It rubs me viscerally the wrong way, especially when it's framed as the only way for them to be happy together. L isn't a good person. Light isn't a good person. If they were I wouldn't be nearly so invested in their relationship.

Don't get me wrong, I also hate it when L just,,,,magically gains a moral compass. If he wants to be a good man I need him to work for it, I don't want him OR Light to have an easy way out, to have a magic Get-Rid-Of-The-Difficult-Things-About-My-Lover-Free button.

But also, just. Let them be fucked up. They're toxic and awful and perfect for each other and I want them at each other's throats hand in hand for the rest of their lives.

I think that's my bottom line—I don't like the memory loss ending because it makes them both out to be something they're not.

L is not a good man with pure intentions. If he wants Light to give up his memories I take it to mean he wants the easy route. He wants to be with a Light that doesn't remember that he hated him or why, that doesn't remember all the bad things he's done, that's still an innocent child in a lot of ways—because it's easy. It's fast. He doesn't have to work for it. He doesn't have to work for forgiveness or try to give it because the man that he needs to forgive and be forgiven by doesn't exist anymore.

Light isn't an innocent little boy that's been corrupted by an evil entity. He's a man who's made mistakes, who's arrogant and closed-minded and stubborn and in denial, who calls himself evil but refuses to believe it, who smiled while he killed a grieving woman, who smiled while he killed a friend and held them close, who was so terribly lonely that his first friend was a monster.

And, if you're going to go that route, acknowledge that it's toxic too. Acknowledge that Light is going to struggle and he won't remember why. Acknowledge that underneath everything he's still Kira, because Kira was just a set of decisions that Light made, not a malevolent entity that possessed him. Acknowledge that Light giving up his memories is him giving up attempting to redeem himself, or attempting to exist in certain capacities completely.

An add-on—personally, I don't see L as someone who would want Light to give up his memories. Because L doesn't usually take the easy way out. It's a game between them, and he's playing to win and win completely. While he DOES play dirty, he still wants his opponent to acknowledge that he won, and he wants them to remember it. Light losing his memories would be a loss for L too, in a way, because then he's lost his playmate. He's lost his equal. He's lost the person that's going to fight him on everything that matters and yet agree with him on everything that doesn't. He's lost the person that can appreciate every move he makes.

Plus... there's something to be said for evil husbands that are on opposite sides, isn't there? ;3

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Chapter 389 MHA

The dabi storyline continues, and fuck this chapter made me so emotional. The way Touya finally felt way was it like to see all his family see him, look at him, like he always wanted. Yet Dabi knows it’s too late.

I love how broken Touya is at this point, out of control and knows that it’s his end. And realising that his family seeing him was so simple so easy, yet it’s now that it happens. When he’s basically dead. Also the visuals of his less burnt self really adds to the fact that there were points where he could still have been saved.

Given that the todoroki family has been my favourite aspect of this, I am loving these chapters.

#the eyes panel was just wow #like you can see he has no hope left #and I read an analysis of this panel vs one of toga #it was really good #mha chapter 389 #boku no hero spoilers #dabi my hero academia #dabi todoroki #todoroki touya #todoroki family #bnha 389 #endeavour

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I find that Lockwood and co. is canceled??? Like why

Now I’ll never know what was behind that door-

#fuck Netflix because Emily in paris gets 3 season?? #and riverdake gets reinstated?? #Netflix #lockwood and co #a true gem is lit because fuck Netflix #I support writers strike #y’all need the wage u deserve #and Netflix sucks if it’s not doing that #lucy carlyle #anthony bloody lockwood #lucy and lockwood #lucy and george

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Am I the only one who think L might have thought he was getting married to sweets…. Like look at him so devoted to that cake. TRUE LOVE

This also explains why Misa looks so happy and has not written in the death note (she has no pen)

yes, I am drawing them married again and noone will stop me

not to be accused of plagiarism, credit goes to @eliartum as well 😭👍 (make sure to check her blog when she actually posts something)

#ryuk in the background thinking humans celebrate cake or something #he’s entertained and that’s all that matters #HOLY SHIT MAYBE MISA POISONED THE CAKE #I mean light certainly doesn’t eat it so #death note #lawlight #marriage #misa amane #ryuk #someone has a kink with gods in dresses #lgbtq community

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Why does the Todo Sibs seem like the 4 types of attachment styles?

Avoidant - shoto clearly

Disorganised- Touya/Dabi with his obsession with his father.

Secure- Fuyumi (because she believes her parents are ‘secure’)

Ambivalent- Natsuo

#yes I’m doing this as a means to avoid studying psychology #why is studying so boring #ok psych is usually fun but #I’m unable to focus so tumbler

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Dabi’s Backstory/ Tragedy of Todoroki Touya

Honestly Dabi’s story is just so heartbreaking, every time I think about it I get sad. Honestly I first got into his character and the fandom after seeing dabi dance (which was just amazing)

I think anyone in his position would go mad, or suicidal or something. I often see people not understanding the fact he was raised with a single goal in mind. All he knew was to impress his father with his quirk and train to be a hero so that his father can be proud. That was all he knew, and it was ripped apart from him. Because of his brother, and because of his own quirk, he not didn’t even merit a glance from his father. He felt defective, useless, cast aside. We see him wondering why he was even born, because he knows that Enji wanted a tool to beat All Might, and he wasn’t that tool.

He might not have been physically abused (which doubtful, cause wouldn’t it be logical that they were trained in a similar manner) but he was certainly emotionally abused. Then when he woke up from his coma after 3 years, he still wanted to impress his father, to apologise. He certainly wasn’t a villan then. He actually couldn’t be one, as he refused to be trained by anyone but his father. But in reaching home he sees that his death changed nothing. Shoto still got trained (in his eyes that brutal training was normal) and he was left a shrine, forgotten and replaced by a better model (Shoto) This had been his last straw and what lead him to be a villain, the loss of everything he was and could have been, the thought of being replaceable, unimportant, useless in a sense.

Ah this turned way too long, I guess I just wanted to vent it out. Cause after his reveal his mother wanted Enji to fight Dabi as Shoto had finally started to forgive him and they were becoming a family. Like she didn’t even wonder what happened to her oldest son? And how that son was doing? (I didn’t read much past those chapters so idk if I am correct or not. It was just heartbreaking is all)

#yeah I have a soft spot for the villains #honestly the reason I won’t read or watch MHA properly is cause the villains never get their justice #and I just can’t see it #fanfics on the other hand #I just love mha fanfics #also I would like to say natsuo is just so chill man #In another universe dabi and natsuo would have the best relationship #also doesn’t Bakugo look awfully similar to non burnt touya #touya todoroki #dabi my hero academia #dabi is todoroki touya #shoto torodoki #enji todoroki #dabi todoroki #todoroki family #my hero acadamy #boku no hero fanfic #keigo takami

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Is it me or does everyone see an abandoned fanfic on ao3 and wonder if the creator is alive?

#cause these people are dedicated af #ao3 stuff #ao3 funny

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Death note fic idea

I want to read a fic where Light opens up to L and they are being terrible together and then ban Light gets attested. Cause L was of course planning to betray him.

I want a scene where Light is starting at L, tears in his eyes. (Perhaps like that audio- “u tricked me” “ tricked you? No I saved you”)

#light is betrayed #Kira looses his mind after that #Kira and Misa bang together #even ryuk feels bad about light #Misa is smart here #Misa and Rem are in love #l death note #light yamagi #kira death note #yagami light #lawlight #l lawliet #death note #dn headcanons #fanfic #betrayal #teru mikami #misa amane #shinigami rem #ryuk death note

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I binged watch virgin soul all day and I can’t believe Mugaro is dead. Why! Just no. He was just so pure , I can’t stand this.

#he had a hard life #still he was so nice #but then bam he died #virgin soul #rage of bahamut #Mugaro #nina drango #Azazel #El Mugaro D'Arc #jeanne d'arc #rag demon

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Outrunning Karna by Alec Benjamin seems made for Light Yagami

#light yamagi #l #outrunning karma #he’s such a charmer #ten dozen hearts in the bag #there is no escape till he dies #l death note #chase him for his lies #death note #ryuk death note #shinigami ryuk #shinigami rem #soichiro yagami #matsuda #kira task force #kira death note #alec benjamin #misa amane #misa misa #near death note #mello death note #matt death note

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DEATH NOTE HEADCANON

Ok hear me out.

Light being all original Kira and Sayu being the second Kira, but without the eyes. And we see both of them trying to idk outdo/ impress each other and on the other hand we see them being siblings. The amount of fun Ryuk would have !!

Also L so focused on Light he completely ignores Sayu and she just keeps on getting away with things. And (this is inspired by a fic I read) Light unknowingly helping Sayu not make mistakes against L.

#Sayu as second Kira #both Yagami children are smart #Light is still a genius tho #kira death note #death note #l death note #light yamagi #yagami family #sayu yagami #second Kira #Rem #L #ryuk death note #shinigami ryuk #Shinigami rem #crack #siblings #mind games #lawlight #l lawlight