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Just a no-context sentiment abt Gymrat!Roceit:

it's not gymrat!jan's fault their ro is just a stupid attractive latino himbo dork that's got them thinking w/ their dick. :I

#roman sanders #janus sanders #suggestive/ #they're both aro-allo dorks man #(the love shared is more humanistic than romantic... jan doesn't want the himbo to snuff it man) #(but those twins and their self-pres...)

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No context AU ramblings with a fellow fic writer has me amused about the phrase, "GET IN THE SOUP, REMUS."

No. I will not be elaborating here on that one. Pffft.

#sanders sides #remus sanders

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That gender poll got me thinking abt the Gymrat!Crew.

Patton - Factory default. (Cis guy.)

Roman - Mr. Hopeless with Tech would be confused as all shit. (But Factory Default, boy's cis.)

Janus - Dynamically assigned on boot. (Genderfluid.)

Logan - System Update (binary trans guy.)

Remus - Data corruption. (AFAB file sectors marked for deletion, a lot was overwritten. Loves the fucked up mangle of data on recovery.)

Virgil - Found it on a random disk. (Remus will probs describe it as a dual-boot situation there. Emo's questioning but thinking abt labels like demiguy and bigender.)

#sanders sides #patton sanders #remus sanders #roman sanders #virgil sanders #logan sanders #(mod post) #web series

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I like med/neuro/psych stuff a lot. And applying it to Sanders Sides.

Loosely connecting stuff like c!Thomas's evolving relationship with his own anxiety and we wound up here. :,D

Also also... HPA cascade refers to the hippocampus-pituitary-adrenal hormone chain that's related to that there Fight/Flight/Freeze Reflex (mostly adrenaline) + chronic stress (mostly cortisol).

I think a good basis to good anxiety management strategies is to figure out how to have a neutral/nuanced relationship with the faculty. Don't outright vilify it and hate it, meet it where its at and as the situation dictates.

It's an ooold af part of animals with brains, for a reason.

I loved how Logan brought up the Yerkes-Dodson curve - since at a baseline, during complex tasks you really want to keep things at a manageable Goldilocks Zone, yeah?

One of the main exceptions to this curve? SIMPLE, but URGENT tasks. The the stuff that you really just gotta kick your own ass to get done- no overthinking or waffling. (Frankly I think that can be the basis of june-bugging, yeah cleaning your living space can be intimidating. But this headspace usually happens when your anxiety hits at just the right time to get you to just START cleaning stuff.)

ANYWAYS. I was rambling how this latter mode VERY much highlights Virgil's role to light a fire under everyone's ass (or just shortcut centrally to c!Thomas, minimal input from others.)

This to say, I had an amusing lil exchange w/ @milkhoney531 about:

Me: just imagining the guy threatening the other sides w/ a can of body spray and a lighter or just skips the other sides - effective slamming on the HPA cascade onto c!thomas the big red Oh Fuck Button i just have mental image of pre-aa v chasing c!thomas down mercilessly w/ the improvised flame thrower now Him: Pffft! Yes. Remus absolutely gave him the idea. It was the 1st and last time Janus took a nap while those two were conscious. The real reason Virgil left the dark sides, Janus's sanity. Boy has all those arms to mainly tangle Remus, but they're too powerful together.

#(i'm assuming you have some basic understanding of the web series but i apologies if i was incorrect there~) #(might also be somewhat sleep-deprived - too... pffft)

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I think a good basis to good anxiety management strategies is to figure out how to have a neutral/nuanced relationship with the faculty. Don't outright vilify it and hate it, meet it where its at and as the situation dictates.

It's an ooold af part of animals with brains, for a reason.

I loved how Logan brought up the Yerkes-Dodson curve - since at a baseline, during complex tasks you really want to keep things at a manageable Goldilocks Zone, yeah?

One of the main exceptions to this curve? SIMPLE, but URGENT tasks. The the stuff that you really just gotta kick your own ass to get done- no overthinking or waffling. (Frankly I think that can be the basis of june-bugging, yeah cleaning your living space can be intimidating. But this headspace usually happens when your anxiety hits at just the right time to get you to just START cleaning stuff.)

ANYWAYS. I was rambling how this latter mode VERY much highlights Virgil's role to light a fire under everyone's ass (or just shortcut centrally to c!Thomas, minimal input from others.)

This to say, I had an amusing lil exchange w/ @milkhoney531 about:

Me: just imagining the guy threatening the other sides w/ a can of body spray and a lighter or just skips the other sides - effective slamming on the HPA cascade onto c!thomas the big red Oh Fuck Button i just have mental image of pre-aa v chasing c!thomas down mercilessly w/ the improvised flame thrower now Him: Pffft! Yes. Remus absolutely gave him the idea. It was the 1st and last time Janus took a nap while those two were conscious. The real reason Virgil left the dark sides, Janus's sanity. Boy has all those arms to mainly tangle Remus, but they're too powerful together.

#sanders sides #virgil sanders #remus sanders #janus sanders #(virgil can be a lil shit as a treat) #(rest of the dork sides too)

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Roman: I want to wriiite. This is SO annoying!

Logan: You didn't get a full night's sleep, therefore your brain hasn't had a timely chance to flush/filter your CSF. In other words, you've cognitively tied your hands and... as Patton would say it, whining and being mean to yourself isn't going to change matters. Your only option is to either rest or be patient.

[Roman throws tantrum anyways.]

#sanders sides #roman sanders #logan sanders #patton sanders #(me rn) #(csf = cerebrospinal fluid) #(brain's glymphatic sys is only rly active while you get some gd shut-eye)

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Never mind throwing any Unresolved Sexual Tension / Shipping into the mix...

I do just love Roman and Virgil just. Beefing and being belligerent about it.

#sanders sides #roman sanders #virgil sanders #prinxiety #(aint against that ship - but even if those two aren't A Thing. them beefing amuses me greatly) #(just thinking abt those two in gymrat and begotten AU rn) #(just tossing inane thoughts out there - pffft)

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Various Sides ships can be fun when you make them both neurotic (in IC ways).

Just all the anxiety, all the complexes, all the the baggage, all the hang-ups... just absolute messes that may or may not do right by each other in the end.

#sanders sides #remus sanders #roman sanders #virgil sanders #logan sanders #patton sanders #janus sanders #(as someone who scores on the higher side of the neuroticism scale for The Big Five Personality Traits - its wonderful) #(dysfunctional disaster dorks man)

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Wound up expanding on this, rambling at a couple people so.

co-co added that janus would run antihype for the opposing team - just roasting the SHIT out of them can hear the sizzling noises all across the track and virgil being on secondary hype-man duty will occasionally comment on how sick that burn was roman affronted Every Single Time remus just losing his shit logan NOT giving a shit pat's just wagging his finger at jan secretly roceit is totally a thing in this AU it's a secret tho - none of the rest of them know i think it'd be hilarious if remus was the last person to know jan was fucking his bro on the side again, lo has no fucks to give abt the revelation just remus having a minibreakdown over here about the BETRAYAL of this and lo's like, "are you done yet." virgil is just munching on popcorn at this just imagine jan walking in on this and immediately turning around, not wanting explain any of this shit meanwhile ro has been TRAPPED by his bro having a gd fit over this jan noeping out of defending his SO ro is UPSET and pat's just rubbing Ro's back in consolation

And just for a bit of spiciness w/ the co-co...

Me: … part of the roceit seeds is ro having a humiliation kink. there's only so many repeat instances before that boner Has A Reason i mean - jan just loved roasting this man out on the track sooo much one pissed off makeout session sealed the deal between those two Him: [Remus] Not just the last to know, the first and most frequent to catch them in intimate moments that are always explained away to him rationally. "Bro why is Jan in your lap while you're simulating driving?" "He's acting as a weighted blanket to calm my nerves." Me: fuckign dumbass behavior and i love it 😂

I'm not a Cars Person, but one of my favorite YouTube Channels is Real Mechanic Stuff.

Sandro talking about "the boys" will always make me smile.

And it just made me flit the idea of, "Okay, but what if street/drag race AU?"

Have the Dork Sides and The Others as rival teams.

The twins being the drivers (looking hella extra about it, too). Logan and Virgil being like the firstline/streetside mechanics/modders on their respective steeds. Janus and Patton being their hype men. With some blurry secondary role hand-offs for redundancy and all that (in case someone needs/wants to step into a different role in the team).

Like maybe the skillset distro would be...

Roman:

Driver

Hype (marketing/etc.)

Mechanic

Logan:

Mechanic

Driver

Hype

Patton:

Hype

Mechanic

Driver

Remus:

Driver

Mechanic

Hype (despite insisting otherwise...)

Virgil:

Mechanic

Hype

Driver

Janus:

Hype (co-co adds - Anti-Hype for the other team. Just all the Roasting.)

Driver

Mechanic

I'm not prepared to deal with all the research I would need (already got enough AUs on plate). So if anyone takes this and runs with it, please do be tagging me. Thank.

#sanders sides #roman sanders #remus sanders #logan sanders #virgil sanders #patton sanders #janus sanders

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I'm not a Cars Person, but one of my favorite YouTube Channels is Real Mechanic Stuff.

Sandro talking about "the boys" will always make me smile.

And it just made me flit the idea of, "Okay, but what if street/drag race AU?"

Have the Dork Sides and The Others as rival teams.

The twins being the drivers (looking hella extra about it, too). Logan and Virgil being like the firstline/streetside mechanics/modders on their respective steeds. Janus and Patton being their hype men. With some blurry secondary role hand-offs for redundancy and all that (in case someone needs/wants to step into a different role in the team).

Like maybe the skillset distro would be...

Roman:

Driver

Hype (marketing/etc.)

Mechanic

Logan:

Mechanic

Driver

Hype

Patton:

Hype

Mechanic

Driver

Remus:

Driver

Mechanic

Hype (despite insisting otherwise...)

Virgil:

Mechanic

Hype

Driver

Janus:

Hype (co-co adds - Anti-Hype for the other team. Just all the Roasting.)

Driver

Mechanic

I'm not prepared to deal with all the research I would need (already got enough AUs on plate). So if anyone takes this and runs with it, please do be tagging me. Thank.

#sanders sides #roman sanders #remus sanders #logan sanders #virgil sanders #patton sanders #janus sanders

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Gdi, having another of those "I wish i had music production chops" moments.

But Look. Imagine a completely obnoxious phonk-remix of "Forbidden Fruit". All the distorted cowbells and noisy, loud-ass mixing.

Imagine.

(Also would be fun to try to imagine a psytrance remix... but I'm always here for covers and remixes in very different genres from originals. And funny thinking about how Every Noise At Once puts psytrance as one of the genre inverses to musical theater.)

#sanders sides #remus sanders #(makes sense tho - psytrance tends to be lyrically sparse + a lot of production + the track lengths tend to go into the 8+ minutes range) #(vs the lyrical content basically defining showtunes + emphasis on live music performance + more radio-friendly song lengths)

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No matter the iteration, we love a Remus that is overflowing with Creature Energy™.

Even if it's a completely mundane slice of life human AU.

Creature. ALWAYS Creature.

#sanders sides #remus sanders #(mod post) #(look i love the trash goblin so much man)

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I love calling the twins and Janus "The Drama Trio".

I don't think an elaboration is necessary. Pffft. :,D

#sanders sides #roman sanders #remus sanders #janus sanders #(mod post) #(this is so inane but still) #(okay this is just me adoring how extra and dramatic their skirt looks were ok? i'll never be over it)

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I like my Creativitwins being SIMULTANEOUSLY sharp as a tack and dumb as rocks. That is all.

#sanders sides #roman sanders #remus sanders #(also full of jackass energy) #(can't forget that)

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Who's an adorable little murder hobo?

That's right! Remus is an adorable little murder hobo.

#sanders sides #remus sanders #(mod post) #(just thinking abt this shit rn and i must subject tags w/ this inanity.)

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I swear. Tom Cardy's "Mixed Messages" + "Red Flags" works for SO many Remus ships.

Just. The absolutely unhinged energy.

#sanders sides #remus sanders #(okay i'm back on thinking abt the whole 'punching your dad in the dick' thing and-)

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Okay. Just thinking about the "Integrating The Split Self" chapter / worksheet from when I was going to Seeking Safety Groups.

And I can't not think about like. The construction/conceit to Sanders Sides.

(Even though, obviously. This is just a tiny piece of therapeutic materials mostly directed at people with a dual diagnosis of PTSD and substance use disorder. This will not replace the experience of professional therapeutic rapport. I think it does pull on some through-lines in the series.)

#sanders sides #(mod post)