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Welp just fucking binged so scars are made mentally and physically… tomorrow I let ana take over

#tw ed stuff #mental health #tw ed content #sorry for being depressing #depressing post #tw anxiety #eating disoder thoughts #tw self destructive behavior #ftm ana #s3lfharm

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No food today. Having bad thoughts in my head again. So much shit is going on right now. I hate myself more than usual currently. Another night of new scars most likely

#tw ed stuff #tw ed content #mental health #depressing post #sorry for being depressing #eating disoder thoughts #tw anxiety #tw self destructive behavior #ftm ana #s3lfharm

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why is being alive so expensive. i’m not even having a good time

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oh to be skinny and just walk around doing normal things being skinny

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god i just want visable progress

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*feels nothing* mmm, don’t like that *feels something but like, too much* mmm not a fan of that either

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Just fucking struggling lately. Not complaining or anything just talking. Like between all the shit I’m doing negative and positive I’m just self destructing. I came back home because my a person very very close to us has covid and got put on a vent then ecmo and it’s a just a bumpy road and I was already struggling severely. I came here and thought you know what I can eat and try and be normal. Nope I hate “normal” for a little bit then that turned into binging then I quit eating and today I got the comment wow that’s the first time I’ve seen you actually eat and I tried to have my wife take back the food but she wanted me to eat not mad at her about this by any means because she understands and then apologized for what her brother had said because he doesn’t know about my anorexic behaviors but it just made me feel shitty that he acknowledged I was eating and it was a sandwich with bread which is a huge bad thing for me because I hate bread I refuse bread and everything associated with it so now I’ve been awake since 5 the precious day and it’s now 6 so 25 hours of being awake and I decided to sneak alcohol and may have taken a few too many pills to ease my mind. Idk anymore. I may just give up on eating altogether and just survive for as long as I have left and let that be it. At least when I die no one can comment on my weight in a negative aspect. Or talk about how much I’ve eaten or anything like that. My mind is just deteriorating rapidly I’m so fucking depressed. I hate everything my life crumbles around me. Yes I get I have a lot going for me in the money aspect of shit but I give so much of it away to people in need just hoping some decent fucking karma will come my way and just help the people around me. Like I don’t care about myself at all other than my weight and trying to keep the ones I hold dear happy. Everything else about me can just go to shit. Which it basically has already. My life is expectancy is shorter than most I’ll have health complications until I finally die and it’s just a constant up hill battle. I honestly wish I was just never born so I wouldn’t have been able to negatively effect the ones who have decided or have been forced to be around me and acknowledge my existence. Sorry for then shit post but just speaking my mind. Hope everyone else is doing well!

#tw ed stuff #tw ed content #mental health #depressing post #sorry for being depressing #eating disoder thoughts #tw anxiety #tw self destructive behavior #ftm ana #s3lfharm #fuck this #i hate my body #i hate it i hate it i hate it #i hate my brain #sad thoughts #dead inside

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Ugh it’s been a minute a lot has happened lately. A lot of medical is happening in my family which caused me to come home and I’m staying at my at my parents and my mom has been cooking and wanting me to eat and I gain like 6 pounds but feel like 600 and I’m about to go crazy. Pretty sure I’m gonna do a nice little 7 day coffee and water fast. I have to lose this weight before I go home because I’m afraid my dietician is gonna judge me and think I’m fat. I just want to lose like 40 pounds which seems like a fair amount but I know I can do it. I just hate myself. Have a great day everyone

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Men with eating disorders are real

Non-binary people with eating disorders are real

People 18+ with eating disorders are real

BIPOC with eating disorders are real

Trans men and trans women with eating disorders are real

LGBTQIA+ people with eating disorders are real

Not every ED sufferer is a Cis, Straight, White, Teenage Girl. However all deserve respect and should be taken seriously.

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I don't care that you like my body the way it is.

It's my body, I have the right to change it.

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This months choices are next months body.

This months choices are next months body.

This months choices are next months body.

This months choices are next months body.

This months choices are next months body.

This months choices are next months body.

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It’s 104% okay to come to your DM and just say, “Hi, can we be friends?” And then start asking you random questions.

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*eyes snap open at 3:47am* i’m unlovable

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me???? tired???? sleepy??? yes constantly