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Being ace is kinda crazy cause when allo people say they’re down bad I generally assume it’s about the diabolical things they would do for some dick.

When I say I’m down bad I’m thinking in terms of the number cities I would burn, the people I would kill, how I would destroy my own future in a second to what, devote my life to someone?? Cringe

#asexual

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I. May have severe attachment issues

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Oughhhhhghhh the illness

#(has a crush on someone)

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*adds a post to Close Friends Only* haha wouldn’t want to scare the hoes am I right (I’m demiromantic close friends Is the hoes)

#asexual #aromantic #demiromantic

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#good omens #good omens fanart #good omens s2 #good omens art #crowley x arizaphale

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Instagram is compressing my art to shit as of late, so I give you, Tumblr, my drawings in hopes that they will be preserved as they should be

#good omens #good omens fanart #crowley #fuck instagram

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*finishes season two*

Oh the religious trauma girlies are gonna love this one

#good omens #gos2

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Good Omens 2 thoughts (long, spoilers)

First of all just generic thoughts (so tumblr hopefully doesn’t put any blatant spoilers on display.)

Oh my god. Incredible. It’s amazing just to see Crowley and aziraphale again. Their dynamic is wonderful, as an ace person they really resonate with me in the way they express affection. Gabriel without his memory is so cute it’s wild to compare that to his awfulness in season one. The three major new characters are delightful, Muriel is so sweet, Maggie and nina obviously mirror a and c which makes for some amusing moments. The mystery is intriguing, the flashbacks add a lot of depth to everything, i feel like we get to know aziraphale a lot better in this season. Obviously they more or less go together, as always, but my first impression is that I learned a lot about him.

*spoilers start here*

More specifically, we get a lot of insight into the way heaven keeps their grip on our angel. We see Crowley deciding to ‘ask some questions’ before he falls, and aziraphale clearly already knows it’s trouble. Through the flashbacks to the time of Job, we see how brutal heaven is, playing with human lives for a bet. Az hates it but is too afraid to say anything out of line. To be totally honest he struck me as kind of annoying my first time seeing season one due to his undying loyalty to heaven, but over time rewatching that and seeing season two I realize that it’s not entirely his fault, he’s indoctrinated, heaven is like a cult, threatening terrible punishment for those who dare question authority. It’s awfully awkward since he’s paired with Crowley who has been through it with both heaven and hell and rejected taking either side because he knows how they are. The continuing theme through the flashbacks of az insisting that heaven is “the good guys” despite seeing the complexity of human morality many times makes the ending all the more painful. As soon as the metatron appears and the music changes in episode six, im filled with a sense of dread. Aziraphale never fully acknowledged that heaven is wrong with their actions or stated that he isn’t on their side. Crowley has been on his own side (“our side”) for a very long time, but he ‘goes too fast’ for aziraphale. I’ve seen a lot of people shitting on az for this, but come on we’ve spent two whole seasons watching him wrestle with inner conflict as he knows heaven isn’t what they claim to be, but he truly believes things can get better because he is purely good in a tragically naive way. Good people do bad things and hurt people they love sometimes, and both of them are horrible at communicating. Az is afraid to commit to something new, falling back into familiar ways when posed with a decision, Crowley rarely shares how he feels instead opting to be mean and make jokes (up until the end of course) anyways. You know it’s going nowhere good when there’s only ten minutes left and the music isn’t happy… I was absolutely shocked at the way it went down though. I feel sick to my stomach with the music and aziraphales interrupting Crowley trying to confess.. every word from az’s mouth makes it worse as we know there’s no hope for him to see sense at this point. My heart STOPS and I can barely register what’s happening at the moment of crowley’s “we could’ve been US” I almost question if I’m dreaming, if this is somehow a joke or fanfiction. I’m simultaneously elated and horrified at what I’m watching it’s beautiful. The entire credits rolling as a and c silently hold back tears on either side of my screen.. delightful,,heartbreaking,, unexpected. Such a bold move, A terrible terrible way to end a season but also the best thing I’ve ever seen. 10/10

#gos2 spoilers #good omens spoilers

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NEIL

#good omens

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Idk if it’s the asexual in me but does anyone else look at someone you are acquainted with and think I could probably fall in love with you if I tried to

#asexual

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“That chick has a great voice. It’s a guy? Whoah, there goes my erection. I apologise to the singer - I guess I’ll not be asking him out on a date now but he sounds real good. When I listen to his voice I feel like someone is tickling my penis with a feather.”

— Pete Steele, talking about Cave when guest reviewing it for Kerrang!, after it entered at number 53 in the national UK. (via itsdommehhoward)

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Just had the best fuckin dream y’all

Somehow I got into a second muse concert for free with a group of kids I went to high school with and also some people from the Walmart I work with were there lmao.

It was pretty similar to the concert I saw in real life except it was just Matt and kill or be killed at the end of the show was weird, there was a woman that came on and sang something during that one. At one while singing point he came right to where I was standing and took my hand, continued to sing with my hand in the air while I was trying not to pass out. Later he was throwing things at the audience and I caught a drumstick. The funny part here is that I had a suspicion it was a dream but kept saying “if this is a dream, then why do I have this drumstick in my hand rn” LOL

#dreams #muse

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In this one a guy offered me a place to stay when I needed one for some reason idk, and it was obviously implied that he “liked” me. Obviously I’m flattered bc I am starved for romantic attention but after the initial happiness it dawns on me that if I ever want a relationship with anybody, I’m going to have to go through the ordeal of explaining that I’m asexual. My heart sinks and it feels kind of hopeless :/ dream situations getting too real lately lol

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fucked up dreamst:

Some sort of lord of the flies type shit it was a war between two groups of kids including me and my brother in opposite sides- people had guns and shit I was terrified and I at one point had to stop someone on my side from killing my brother- after that while event I couldn’t stop shaking and crying (in the dream) and later it was revealed that it had something to do with like a mountain of ground meat that kids used as a play ground or something????

Second dream was my cat somehow escapes his carrier in the grocery store I work at so I kept trying to tackle him so he couldn’t get away it was very stressful. Not a good sleep that night

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Time for an asexual rant bc existing is so weird,,,

I wish i would stop meeting nice people and being like “oh I guess I could have a crush on them” when I know I don’t. I don’t need to do that, I can be friends and not try to pretend I have those feelings. I wish I knew what the heck I will do in the future because I think being ace and sex repulsed is probably unpalatable to a majority of people I might meet. I wish I knew if I can even do romance, I want to but my only experience was a weird online thing I had with a classmate in high school (but ONLY over text, in person I was almost too nervous to look at them 💀). I’m glad that in my dreams I know I’m asexual now but I wish i would also have the confidence to tell my in-dream partner that I do Not want to have sex instead of telling them it’s ok in fear of them leaving me. I wish i could say that it doesn’t have to be like that dream but I know reality is even more complicated than the scenario from my subconscious. I don’t want people to think I’m weird but I don’t want anyone who Would think I’m weird to be around me and waste my time. I want people to be attracted to me but I don’t want to be sexualized, I want to look like an adult but I don’t want to be asked why I’m not doing Adult Things like relationships. I love being ace and making jokes about it and being amused at my friends allo things but I don’t want to be isolated and confused. I might go crazy if I don’t meet some ace people irl.

#asexual #disappears from tumblr only to return when I’m too embarrassed to tell close friends my thoughts

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Love logging on to see what’s poppin in the muse fandom (I’m seeing them in march) and being jumpscared with 100000 pictures of peoples ass. Welcome back to tumblr

#muse

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Listening to “Ghosts” followed by “You Make Me Feel Like It’s Halloween”