anas-friend-2017

[anas-friend-2017]

[anas-friend-2017]

I haven’t really been on here in the past months. I just realized I have gained 20 lbs. kms. I am so done. I have let myself go and I can’t believe it is that bad. I knew I gained weight but then I read my previous bio and omg. I need to get back into the swing of things. 😭😭

#st@rving #st@rve #pro a4a #tw edd #sweetsp0 #i wanna be weightless #thin$p0

[anas-friend-2017]

[anas-friend-2017]

If only I could be like this ✨🥺✨

#st@rving #st@rve #pro a4a #tw edd #sweetsp0 #i wanna be weightless #thin$p0

[anas-friend-2017]

Is there really a difference? 💁‍♀️🤨

#aneroxia #ana #not pro just using tags #thinspo #pro anna #i dont promote anerexia #proana #thinspiration

[anas-friend-2017]

Hello all! I have been gone for awhile but I’m just not doing well recently. I feel like this is the only place that I can really talk about it all. I don’t even know why I am not doing well either. I’ve just been so exhausted mentally and physically. I am either getting to much sleep or not enough. Finals killed me 🤦‍♀️ I’ve been staying at a steady 115 and that’s good. So I know it really isn’t my weight although I have been in a bad head space with body dysmorphia. I kinda hope I get out of this exhausted rut so that I can get back on track!

#aneroxia #ana #not pro just using tags #depression #thinspo #pro anna #i dont promote anerexia #proana #thinspiration

[anas-friend-2017]

❄️ oh to fall in love ❄️

#aneroxia #eating disoder things #tw ed shit #not pro just using tags #i dont promote anerexia #pro anna #proana #thinspo #winter thinspo

[anas-friend-2017]

❄️ Christmas Magic is in the Air ❄️

#aneroxia #ana #not pro just using tags #i dont promote anerexia #pro anna #eating disoder things #tw ed shit #thinspo #thinspiration

[anas-friend-2017]

❄️ Walking in a winter wonderland ❄️

#aneroxia #anarexa #pro ana #not pro just using tags #winter thinspo #eating disoder things

[anas-friend-2017]

Snow Day Off From School

 The moment the alarm went off she realized how cold her entire body was. She had put on fleece sweats, two long sleeves and a hoodie and big fluffy socks before going to sleep last night, but it was the coldest the weather had been in ages. There was no light streaming in from the windows, as the sun did not rise for another hour or so. She stretched out each limb, breathing slowly and controlled. These days she worked hard to ensure her body was at peace and calm throughout the day, she never cheated her morning routine. Stretching and warming up her body in front of her large mirror, she could feel her tiny waist swimming in the large layers of her clothes. She looked tired, but beautiful. She brought a large sleeve up to her eye and rubbed and blinked, fully accepting the fact that she would need to bundle up very well today for her walk to the bus stop that took her to college. She lightly pranced down the stairs, preparing herself a large mug of matcha, her favorite drink. She decided to quit coffee back when she was loosing weight. She realized how it would peak her anxiety, make her brain foggy, messed with her sleep and give her the jitters. With the matcha she could now have a clear brain, which allowed her to clearly see her goals and move towards them. She knew it was her job to ensure she gave her body exactly what it needed to operate at tip top shape. She was so content with her new found control she hardly realized what was going on outside. She squinted her eyes at the street lamp across the park, and noticed white specs falling from the sky. Her eyes grew wide! It had been so long since she had seen snow. She raced back up to her room, to check her phone. Her small town usually fully shut down whenever it snowed because they so rarely experienced it. This included the buses. She could not begin to fathom walking to the college in this weather, it was a 45 minute walk. Shivering at the thought, she hopped back into her bed, pulled her covers up to her collar bones and scrolled through her emails. The only light in the room coming from her phone…  “SCHOOL CANCELLED DUE TO SNOW” the most recent email read. Yes! She thought. She was a little stressed about some upcoming projects, she could really use this time to do some extra studying. She then received a text from her S/O asking if she’d like to go for hot cocoa and snowman building later in the day. She graciously accepted.  She spent a few hours reading, did a yoga routine, drank her matcha and made a little bowl of chocolate cranberry oats for breaky. She understood now the importance of fueling her body with food. Before, she would restrict for days which always lead to horrid binges, but her new found desire to listen to her body and take the best care of it possible had took-over in recent times. This was the best thing that had ever happened to her. She now could experience the most out of life in the beautiful body she’d always desired. She got ready, adding some blush to her high cheek bones. Ever since she lost the weight, her face hollowed out in a very attractive way. She adored herself, gave herself a hug and smiled.  She made two hot chocolates with almond milk, cinnamon & a dollop of coconut whip in her favorite thermoses at home. She preferred preparing her own food now, it soothed her to know exactly what was in the drink, as she had dealt with stomach problems in the past. She liked the feeling of “a calm stomach”, so she vowed to make healthy choices at home.  She headed outside to the park, hot chocolate’s swishing in both hands. She saw her s/o waiting in the middle of the park.  “Whaaaat, you already made me one!? Thanks so much love, looks like you want to get right to the snowman building hey?” They said. She nodded with a smirk on her face. The two of them began building the snowman, she had some trouble pushing the large snowballs, but s/o offered to help.   “Put those down, I need a hug, its cold out here!” S/o scooped her up and spun her in circles. “Whoa… okay missy, you seem way too light, I thought all of your cute layers would’ve added 10 pounds on ya!” “Nope” she said, now check out this eight winged snow angel i’m about to make. “Huh??” s/o seemed confused by what she meant. She pushed s/o back a bit, and s/o fell over a previous snow man ball, onto their back. She pounced on top, now this is something she would not have dreamed doing before the weight loss! “Okay, start snow angel-ing!” she exclaimed! “OH, so this is what you meant when you said eight winged snow angel, I got it now, double the legs and arms… ha ha you think you’re a funny one don’t ya?” “Of course I am, funnier than you” she nodded and winked, assuring s/o she was right. Her new found confidence was unlike any other time in her life. She felt beautiful inside and out, and could now express herself in ways she couldn’t before. It had all been worth it. 

[anas-friend-2017]

These for fall 😩

#aneroxia #not pro just using tags #i dont promote anerexia #pro anna #proana #pro ana #anarexa #anarexia #ana #thinspo #thinspiration

[anas-friend-2017]

To be able to wear these would be ethereal 😍

#aneroxia #not pro just using tags #i dont promote anerexia #pro anna #proana #thinspo #thinspiration #anarexa #anarexia #ana

[anas-friend-2017]

[anas-friend-2017]

Leg Check 💁‍♀️

#not pro just using tags #aneroxia #pro anna #i dont promote anerexia #proana #anarexa #thinspo #thinspiration

[anas-friend-2017]

Hey y’all,

Been awhile haha. Things are going okay, lost six lbs so down to 126 which is crazy. I was feeling okay about myself at that time so I don’t even know how it happened. Awhile ago my boyfriends mom said something to me that made me feel, idk, uncomfortable?

M.I.L : Wow you were as big as I am! I really need to lose weight!

All I could think was what? I still don’t think I’m that small but then people say so much to me and I just don’t know what to think? Like a few days ago I was at my moms and she pulled at the waist band of these jeans that used to fit me perfectly and said “wow are you gonna lose anymore weight?” I just told her idk. I mean I can tell I’m smaller than I was when I started but no matter how cold I am, no matter how many times I forget to eat, I still think that I need to lose weight? Eating disorders are weird

#aneroxia #not pro just using tags #proana #anarexa #anorexa #pro anna

[anas-friend-2017]

Getting back into restricting is honestly the best feeling in the world. It makes you feel like you FINALLY have control over yourself again.

[anas-friend-2017]