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Mar 18, 2024 12:32 AM

Just on the bed and having a lot of thoughts, while I’m supposed to enjoy my vacation here in South Korea.

How can someone not understand that the “harmless” things could be the opposite to the other one? Even how we deal with arguments is too immature at this age. A lot of things have been said and it was painful to hear. Never thought I would take that. The trauma of feeling unheard and just being shut down through yelling, invalidates everything. Is transparency too hard?

Stupid, Maan.. out of e v e r y t h i n g you had to go through for ALL these years and here you are. Thinking you still deserve THIS and more. Why?

All these years you know what you deserve and how you should be treated, but then…you’re just plain stupid.

What are you fighting for when you got all these unexplored options? The world is too big to cry for situation that don’t deserve more of your tears.

Appreciate your worth.

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07/15/2023 4:41 PM

struggling to say I’m okay. felt so lost again. is this PCOS? Or just another day of finding a way to deal with anxiety? felt so wrong feeling this way, but this is how it is.

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Currently in Bali right now and I’m indeed refreshed from all the toxic encounters I had from the past months.

Definitely focused now to feel this motivated to get out of this zone and regain what I have lost.

Would care less about things that hinder my growth. There’s more to life and I’m so excited to work for it. 🤍

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anxieties are back.

10/24/2022 09:50 AM

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Love doesn’t hurt. If it’s hurting, it’s not love.

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I want to stop wondering.

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fun discovering a lot of things in the span of 2 months—bad and good.

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Ang toxic pala lalo na alam mong may mali tapos wala namang mag babago.

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@junipers-ash archive

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“So, what if, instead of thinking about solving your whole life, you just think about adding additional good things. One at a time. Just let your pile of good things grow.”

— Rainbow Rowell

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“It’s spring, you’re young, you’re lovely, you have a right to be happy. Come back into the world.”

— Shirley Jackson, We Have Always Lived in the Castle

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There are so much to improve, meet, explore, and achieve in this lifetime. 💗 It feels nice to be excited again after x number of years of questioning and being confused about myself.

Never to forget your worth and be reminded that you can do so much and be happy in God’s comfort. It’ll get better. Have faith. 💖

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It’s like I died and was just waiting to be reborn. Every thing I gave up was unconditional; thus, can’t even feel degraded for being taken for granted for x number of years. I just poured my heart sincerely because I wanted to, I chose to.

I’m currently living in this comfort from God na He’s testing and preparing me for what’s coming—it’s His best. Even if there’s no one, I know whatever’s in the near future, whether I end up being alone or not, I know it’s the best for me.

Thank you Lord for saving me, as always. Di ko man alam kelan magiging fully okay, pero I have so much love to give/share to this world. And I’m more than willing to spread it. ❤️

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This too shall pass.

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Ang hot ni Chris Evans sa Nanny Diaries. Omg. Hahaha