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//I won't explain or say I'm sorry,

I'm unashamed, I'm gonna show my scars.

Give a cheer for all the broken,

Listen here, because it's who we are.

Just a man, I'm not a hero!

Just a boy, who had to sing this song.

Just a man, I'm not a hero!

I don't care!//

My Chemical Romance/Black Parade

Happy Birthday, Dean Winchester!

45 dude, who would've thought that. I miss you deeply and hope you have everything you ever wished for.

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dare i say bucky barnes

Big fan of characters realizing they don't get to die. They have to live. And grow. And be a person. And deal with shit they thought they'd never have to. And be fucked up about it. I would like more of this. Enough dying for honor or as redemption. It ain't. You're just a corpse. There is no moral value in dirt time.

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jealousy but not in the "you're mine" kind but in the "i'm yours please only want me and need me and only have eyes for me and just consume me whole and"

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guy who says "FUCK!" to every minor inconvenience x guy who says "oopsie daisies" to earth shattering catastrophes

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"the very touch of you corrupts. when castiel first laid a hand on you in hell, he was lost" objectively insane thing to say. and they said it on cw supernatural in 2012. ben or robbie i know that was you i'm kissing you on the forehead

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reblog if you’ve read fanfictions that are more professional, better written than some actual novels. I’m trying to see something

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You know the line in atyd that's like "they'd never really understood each other" or something? Well that's always fucking crushed me cause it's true on so many levels but also because you're sort of tricked into believing it's not for so long before that? Like, with the whole sharing scars thing (literally and figuratively) and all that you think they fall in love with each other exactly because they do understand each other. Right? But it's wrong.

Cause what they've always understood was the bad parts of each other. They understood the painful, butchered bits of one another, the abandonment, the hatred, the loneliness, the anger. Remus was able to forgive Sirius for The Prank because he understood his anger. Sirius could stand Remus' snapping for the same reason. But never the fragile, kind parts.

Remus never really understood that Sirius still loved his brother, not just the idea of him, or the memory of him, but the real, present, Death Eater Regulus. He never understood that Sirius felt guilty about leaving him.

Why? Because when Remus found his own Voldemort-associated 'family' with not-so-evil members his reaction was to fight. With them and for them. To free them, even those who weren't aware they needed help, even those who hated him for it, like Livia. He put himself in the way of harm and in danger of being thought traitorous by the light-side. He did everything Sirius blamed himself for not doing.

And he did it because he was put in that position after living and learning. Older. He didn't grow up in that position. He wasn't raised by that abusive parent. He was never a child trying to take care of his siblings and being punished for it. He was never convinced that was the normal way of life, or love. He didn't exactly have the nicest childhood, but he was able to recognize Greyback for what he was right away. When standing against him he never had to remind himself he was doing the right thing. He never wished that person loved him. He never had to struggle with contrasting feelings. He could take his "siblings"' side without being afraid of losing himself in the process. He never had to make sure he wasn't turning evil.

And Sirius could never understand why Remus would even consider standing with the werewolves, because they were exactly like his family, and he could not think of standing with his family. He loved his brother, yes, but he hadn't been able to save him, and trying any harder would've meant losing himself too. He didn't even really know whether Reg was salvageable or not. He knew how much he'd struggled to get away from the position Remus was willingly putting himself into.

They never understood each other, because they were confronted with the same question in different times, and gave different answers.

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this is still insane to me btw

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live for yourself.

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— The world is cruel, therefore I won't be.

I know kindness exists!

I exist!

And I am kind!

And the gentleness that comes, not from the absence of violence, but despite the abundance of it.

— Richard Siken;

— Perhaps nothing else on Earth matters, besides the love you take in, and the love you put out.

— photos via

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teresa from the maze runner series obvi

Well ???

#teresa tmr #tmr thomas #the maze runner #the scorch trials #the death cure #newtmas

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OHHHMYOFD

Had a lot of time to kill between my last lesson of the day and a work meeting, so I made a silly “companion” portrait to that one Aziraphale repaint from September 🧍

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New Crow Time 🐦‍⬛🦊🌟

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Happy Shuhite Sunday

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There's one charity that I haven't seen shared here personally, and that's Care for Gaza.

They're shared a lot on twitter as a reputable on-the-ground relief source. You can donate to their gofundme to help their efforts here.

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lord the peasants are so loud today