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maybe part of the answer is to stop pushing away the problem. hoping for the best feels false and i know that visualization only gets you so far. did you know that in studies focused on manifestation, it was concluded that hyper-fixating on achieving your goal can trick your brain into thinking you've already achieved it, lure you into a false sense of comfort, and at worst make you lose your motivation to actually go out and do the thing? this makes so much sense to me personally. i've spent my whole life feeling like passive observer: only reading and watching content about hobbies and things that i want to do in life. now i'm 25 and sick to death of not being good at the things i'm interested in, or at least capable of doing them. i no longer receive satisfaction from watching things be done, i want to do them. i'm tired of forming my sense of identity around the validation of other people, i want to know who i am on my own. so instead of sitting on the couch and telling myself that being stagnant is okay and forcing myself to "think positive" i'm going to actually analyze myself and my negative thoughts as they arise. not very revolutionary, i know, but it seems like a step in the right direction.

#personal tag #mental health #journal entry

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It's fungi season!! Don't eat these, you'll die

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#ouch #mother tag

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Monkey (my cat) inspired tamagotchi

#art #clay

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But Love Was The Archer, 2024

Colored pencil, acrylic, and ink on bristol

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#naturecore #let's go for a walk

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You over Her [not as a body but as a steeple]

#wlw #love #this is why 'take me to church' is for lesbians <333

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enough with the wind pollination. stop releasing your microgametophytes into the air like some kind of fucking chump. grow up. either form a mutualistic relationship with some animals like the rest of us or go back to proper alternation of generations with water-mediated fertilization like a real plant

#lmao #plant memes

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A vast world of beings.

#wholesome tag #cat tag

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online ceramics

#note to self #needed to hear this

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୨ৎ˙⋆ ⊹ ࣪ ˖

#me going to my first day of work after 8 months unemployment this morning #i'm proud af of myself lol

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lola

#aes #outfit inspo

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but! we! cannot! simply! sit! and! stare! at! our! wounds! forever!

#note to self

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jess keogh

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carolyn

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2011-04-19

#cat tag #gardencore