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It's not fair that at age 14 I was writing stuff like, "Oh my midnight ocean, I'm desperate to drown in your eyes of tidal waves."

Now I be taking college writing classes, looking at the floor for 30 minutes, and writing shit like, "Oddles of noodles gonna get me spahootled, my dudel."

#smh my head #stupid #teenage years #teen angst #teenage angst #angsty teen #fandom #writing #creative writing #dear younger me #younger me #we're doomed #smh #meme #memes #face palm #class of 2020 #2020 #why tho #why am i like dis #why am i even here #why am i not surprised #like why #but why #age fourteen #writer

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@crankgameplays

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the way he immediately realized how bad that sounded

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So I got bored and decided to redownload Tumblr.

I even remembered my old email and password.

It's so odd to be back, emotional even. So much as changed. When I started this blog i was horribly depressed, I didn't see a future for myself at ALL. I attempted to end my life 4 times. I've since gotten out of a horrible abusive 2 year relationship, lost my mother almost 2 years ago, graduated high school (WhooHoo! Class of 2020!), chopped all my hair off, came out as PanSexual, and been excepted to my dream collage to study Creative Writing.

I dont know who all will see this, if any of you are still here, but I want you to know that life Can get better if you try. I didn't think it could but once I took responsibility for my life into my own hands, put on a tough face and, "I'm ready to be happy," my life got better.

It's good to be back!

#Phan #phandom #danhowell #danisnotonfire #dan and phil #phil lester #mental heath support #survivor #depression #mental health #self love #love

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Me on the outside vs. Me on the inside

i bought some polar bear cakes and accidentally stuck my thumb in one

now they look exactly like my icon vs. tagged photos

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A smile is the best accessory you can wear

😊

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This... This is the man that both destroyed and created my life.

‪this is how a danisnotonfire video is written apparently‬ ‪ (thanks phil for the creep shot of my creative process)‬

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I'm so proud

i want to block myself

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dan + looking at phil x / x

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Exact THE LONDON KNITWEAR COMPANY Pink Sweatshirt €24- (x)

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“we’ll always be friends forever, won’t we?”

“yeah, forever”

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Boop

bonus: 

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The beauty of the sea is nothing compared to the beauty of you and me

seaside walk date

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I can feel him hitting the desk in my soul

calm down

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“Phil is my bestest buddy” - DanHowell2k17

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can you believe dan howell invented being in love

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I need to find this post