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archive locked for obvious reasons but hello there tsbesg enjoyers i have updated. sort of.

#im gonna just. upload the chapters i do have written #but this is a side piece set in the near future of the fic itself #because i REALLY needed to get this idea on paper

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girl i am not looking at your tits i prommy i just hate eye contact

#spent 20 minutes trying to find this post for a shitty joke about a screenshot i have from ffxiv #bc i was nostalgia scrolling through my screenshots #lmao

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making spreadsheets about my own fanfics helps absolutely no one but now i do know that my wol is the pov character for approximately 45% of my words written, and my most written era of the game is post-endwalker with 16.15%. absolutely useless information. will not be accurate the moment i go to write again. the 2nd biggest pov is valerian with 21%. the two after that are 8.7% & 8.7%, to put all that into perspective. the total number is 199222 unless i add that one fic without any ocs that i made in a trance back in september which would make that number 199909.

to put THAT into perspective, it took me well over a year, maybe even close to 2, to reach 200k with destiny fics.

ive played ffxiv for 7 months.

#it all makes sense of course #my wol ziero is obviously the guy ive had the longest. well aside from kasumi but... #kas is doing her thing. shes. irrelevant here #valerian is 1. my dearest old man and 2. hes the one whos lived through the most #like hes what. 60 at this point? ive written shit about him starting with when he was 16. #the two after that are the guy at the head of like 2 of my aus #and my ancient oc whos at the source of multiple aus #as for post-ew its because after endwalker i had to write. approximately 18k of post-ew zenoswol. #ziero's biggest numbers are in stormblood endwalker & post-ew #valerian peaked in pre-canon #just like myron. pretty obviously. since theyre an ancient. #& i counted them & their reincarnation (miles with 5.5%) separately #i... should be reading frankenstein. #ALSO #i keep getting more unhinged with interests #like i was startled by how bad the destiny interest got at one point but. i have more hours in xiv than in destiny by now

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Girls will go "comfort character <3" and its a girl covered in blood and a guy whos in love with her

#lora & atticus #the side characters that got out of hand #made to be friends to a side character. which got out of hand

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the daily quest to be normal about the old man is even funnier considering its 7 am and i failed at like. 1 am. i havent slept. there is nothing to my brain anymore. i am nothing but a puppet. every day i log into the game to do my silly little tasks. every day i wake up and have thoughts about him. there is no end to my sweet torment. maybe i dont want there to be.

#so many thoughts. so many thoughts #one day im gonna be confident enough to post these thoughts and my follower count will change. i dont know in what way i just know it will

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And for my next trick, I will show thousands of strangers online my descent into madness.

#me liveblogging every time my autism gets its grubby little hands on a new videogame

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❗ dailyquests Follow

Be Normal about That Old Man.

#NOT THE FFXIV SCREEN #speaking of ffxiv can i tell yall about my dearly beloved gaiu-

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#good sensory feeling :/

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#i NEED to know what made them think that #im not watching the show but i need to know

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You cannot say that a top grossing artist is "feral" or making you "feral." You are listening to the Billboard Top 40. You are very domesticated.

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Ok actually genuine tip for new tumblr users: if you see a post you like and want to reblog but theres a bad/annoying added on bit in the reblog chain feel free to just reblog that post straight from op or the last person who knew how to mind their business

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My roommates boyfriend is a cis male business student who is still figuring out the whole "having a trans partner" thing. He struggles with the whole they/them thing but we don't really mind because the boy is clearly trying is heart out, and we all appreciate that.

He recently told me that he puts "nonbinary" on his insurance forms because, and I quote "they give you a lower premium if you're not a man."

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me after buying fantasia on sale for the hell of it and finding out the edens promise healer set (my healer glam) looks better on a fem character

#ziero was meant to be cis but. hm #hmmmmmmmmmmm #'fantasias arent canon' ok but consider. genderfluid fantasia user #ill probably switch back to a masc character when the update drops but after that #idk #like once im caught up on the story... #i got the 5 bc i meant to kinda fuck around with races #but then i got tired of being an au ra (didnt feel like ziero enough) switched him to a fem viera and now i have 3 fantasias left #so i could just do the msq & the aglaia stuff in 6.3 and then make him fem again #no reason (let men wear skirts square.)

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when does it go from establishing the precanon dynamic to just selfindulgent fluffy bullshit

#me writing 85 different scenes of valerian & his little family #almost made myself cry with this one with the simple 'oh. he does see me for who i am. he really doesnt secretly believe im my agab' #i started writing these oneshots because i wanted to figure out valerian's relationships with his loved ones precanon more #his backstory used to be incredibly vague #now i know his first kiss i know his friends i know his relationship with his kid before and after the Incident #i know the way his relationship with his husband fell apart not because they fell out of love but because he kept doing more heinous shit #his starting motivation used to be 'well yk they didnt really fit my morals' despite the fact that he spent. like. 30+ years in the army #now its 'idc about my morals my kid's in danger fuck you' while he TELLS everyone its about morals #silly little liar boy #he does grow as a person #enough so that eventually he gets faced with people who hate him because of who he was and he actually feels remorse #hes so shaped #favorite oc fr