20, she/he/they,
doing art, straight'nt, feel free to chat,
pwease don't steal my art without permission
( violators will be t a k e n c a r ë of ), in a perpetual state of exhaustion
i keep thinking about how we're just watching the exact plan israel has outlined proceed unimpeded by anything at all and how it has rebranded 'ethnic cleansing' into 'humanitarian corridor' even though there are still hundreds of thousands of disabled, homeless, elderly, brave, courageous gazans still in the north and east of gaza where the israeli military is now pointing snipers at convoys of people exiting a hospital waving white flags and even people inside an icu
i think recognizing it as a genocide made people accept that everyone in gaza is already dead and that terrifies me more than anything else. from day 1 it has been clear that israel (which has loudly proclaimed genocidal intent), zionists (who have loudly declared genocidal intent) and the united states (which is loudly suppressing everyone who calls it a genocide) have accepted this as a price
eleven thousand people have died but there are still people in gaza are still alive. there are millions in gaza still alive. we are in the midst of a genocide. its not a foregone conclusion that it ends in ethnic cleansing or mass death, it is a choice people are making every single minute and every single second, and we have to remind them of it every single minute and every single second that passes
i thought my laptop was on its last leg because it was running at six billion degrees and using 100% disk space* at all times and then i turned off shadows and some other windows effects and it was immediately cured. i just did the same to my roommate's computer and its performance issues were also immediately cured. okay. i guess.
so i guess if you have creaky freezy windows 10/11 try searching "advanced system settings", go to performance settings, and uncheck "show shadows under windows" and anything else you don't want. hope that helps someone else.
*yes sorry i mean usage i posted this before bed :( i do not mean the hard drive is full aaaaghhhh
me explaining to my bf that im hormonal and want a baby but not right now but i want a little baby with him but idk if id be a good mom but i want to be a mom but not right now but i want a baby. but then i start thinking about how the world is going to be burning and feel guilty about bringing a child into an underwater and simultaneously scorching hot world with probably fully automated amazon funded robot police dogs that shoot heat seeking missiles at the striking working class and supermisogyny that i would have to carefully discuss with my daughter or sternly discuss with my son so im anguished and conflicted but i want a little baby. but then remember what if i dont even live to 25 what if he dies or i die then we cant have a baby what if i have to work 5 jobs and he has to live at the amazon superfactory and shit in bottles so like is a baby even an option at that point. but i want a little baby i want to get married and have a little baby but what if im dead or hes dead before then. what the fuck then. and is it even ethical at that point or selfish