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“we did it.” kitae whispered back to him, a small giggle coming from him as he pressed their foreheads together. “oh, it’s too cute!” kitae heard jinwoo squeal from behind jaehyun, his eyes misting over. kitae laughed again and shook his head affectionately before focussing on jaehyun again. “we’re married!” kitae was beaming again, getting himself ready to let people take a few photos of them.

he stood up straighter and offered his arm to him, hearing music starting again. “shall we?” he asked with a nod of his head towards to exit, ready to take their walk out of the room together.

“we are!” he grinned, his smile being the widest it has ever been. jaehyun’s heart was racing as he linked his arm with kitae’s, turning to face the crowd in the room. and now that he could really see how everyone was looking at them and supporting them that his shyness returned. he nodded happily in response and walked alongside his now husband to leave the room. 

once he was alone with him and the door was closed, jaehyun turned to kitae with wide eyes and a big smile. “we... we did that!!” he whisper screamed, walking closer to him to wrap his arms around him. “i can’t believe it, i really cant!! i love you!” 

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kitae breathed out a pretend sigh of relief when jaehyun said i do, acting like he’d been worried he’d say other wise. his smile was impossible to wipe away, and he’d feel a little goofy for it if it wasn’t such a perfect moment. it was he turn to be asked the question and he gave a strong nod. “hell yeah, i do.” he answered confidently, sure he heard mina’s classic scoff laugh somewhere nearby. it was then a certain someone had an important job, kitae’s nephew coming up to hand kitae a ring, after jinwoo had given one to jaehyun. with shaky hands, he slipped the ring onto jaehyun’s finger, being as delicate as he could.

“i am happy to pronounce you, husbands. you may now,” the officiator took a pause, and kitae was bouncing on the spot, making a few of their friends laugh again. “kiss each other.” and like that, kitae was leaning in to gently kiss his now husband, for once not so shy in front of friends and family.

jaehyun’s smile got wider with the way kitae answered the question. seeing him excited to marry him was making his heart do insane flips that even a gymnast would be intimidated by. he excitedly turned to jinwoo to take the ring from him, his hands just as shaky when he slipped in on kitae’s finger. he couldn’t believe this was real life. 

the little pause made him laugh a little, seeing how much kitae was bouncing out of excitement. for once, jaehyun forgot about the crowd in the room. he kissed him back, and it was like a giant weight was lifted off of his shoulders. it was the most relief he’s ever felt in his life and he didn’t know if he was ever going to feel it again. surely with kitae he will. right when kitae pulled away, jaehyun smiled widely at him and hugged him tightly, not being able to hold back anymore. “we did it.” he whispered, trying to keep himself together from getting emotional. 

#kitae #jaetaewedding

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kitae couldn’t keep his eyes off jaehyun, and seeing his hands shake made him want to just reach over and hug him. everything he said was exactly what he felt, and he was nodding his head in agreement now and then. he laughed along with everyone else at his jokes, feeling so proud of him in that moment. he placed a hand over his heart, mouthing ‘i love you too’ back to him. “gosh, that’s way better than what i’ve got.” he muttered as he took the paper he’d given to taeil, glancing over it for a moment. 

“if i loved you less, i might be able to talk about it more.” kitae started, folding up his note and looking into his soon-to-be husband’s eyes. “i think that quote fits perfectly for here and now. i tried to write these vows for weeks, and nothing was right. nothing was grand enough, or accurate enough, or gentle enough. i think it’s true, that if i loved you any less, the words could be enough. but i simply adore you more than any language can express.” he chuckled, shrugging his shoulders. he reached out take jaehyun’s hands, smiling softly at him. “we weren’t so young when we started talking, but i hadn’t experienced much. i never really knew what love was, in any capacity. and i definitely didn’t know what to expect from relationships. but i knew that whenever i spoke to you i got butterflies, and whenever i heard you laugh on the other end of the line, it was like nothing bad in my week mattered. you were always on my mind, and i think you had a piece of my heart from the moment we met. you’ve taught be what it is to love, and to be loved. it’s laughter, it’s being brave when you’re scared, it’s loyalty and honesty. and it’s about growing together, and never holding each other back. i learn new things about you all the time, and i love it. i want to learn about you for the rest of my life. i want to see you develop and thrive and change your mind. i will love every version of you.” it was hard to speak like this in front of others, and kitae knew his cheeks were pink, and he wished he was some of poet for a change. “loving you is the best thing i’ve ever done. you’re the best friend i’ve ever had, and i get to kiss you, which is pretty neat.” he laughed. “all i want is a lifetime of crying with laughter until 3am, and cuddling on the sofa the next morning with our coffee feeling the regret of no sleep. i want our deep conversations, i want picnics in the spring and our family christmas. i want forever. my little artist, i hope you know you’re the most beautiful work of art i could ever lay eyes on. you’re the real masterpiece.” he let out a heavy breath, eyes brimming. “so, yes. of course i vow to love you and cherish you until death do us part and long, long after.”

jaehyun couldn’t lie, the quote confused him at first. he didn’t understand what he meant until he explained it in his speech, and that’s when his smile appeared and his heart started to race. it was different this time. he wasn’t nervous. he was just so excited to hear what kitae would say. he held his hands, squeezing a little as he smiled softly, head nodding every now and then. he didn’t realize just how red his cheeks were. and if he were to look behind kitae, he would see taeil cringing with a little smile on. if they weren’t having a ceremony now in front of so many of their friends and family, jaehyun would’ve kissed him already. but he knew he had to wait for a little longer. and before he knew it, the officiator was asking him if he would take kitae as his husband. “i-i do.” he said simply with a wide smile, stuttering out of excitement. 

#kitae #jaetaewedding

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it was like every movie kitae had ever watched, the nerves he felt rolling off his back once he saw jaehyun smiling at him. he knew he’d look beautiful, he always thought he did anyway, but in the light of the venue and the suit he was wearing, it was breathtaking. he was so locked on him that he tripped up the first step to where jaehyun was, which five minutes ago was his worst case scenario. but he stood up straight and laughed it off, noticing jinwoo was misty eyed already behind fiance as he looked around. “alright. let’s pretend that didn’t happen.” he laughed, cheeks red as he resisted the urge to smack his forehead with his palm. he mouthed a ‘sorry’ to jaehyun as the officiator started the ceremony, reaching his hand out to squeeze jaehyun’s just for a second. 

his eyes were so stuck on his fiance that his brain didn’t register that he tripped on the stairs. jaehyun was about to help him when he had gotten up and laughed, and he was relieved to see that he was okay. “you’re cute.” he mouthed back, his smile wide as he took kitae’s hand. 

before he knew it, he was told to say his vows, and the anxiety started to rise. jaehyun took a deep breath and tried to keep himself together as he took a small piece of paper out of his jacket’s pocket, which was visibly showing how shaky he was. “kitae park, m– my best friend... i can’t even begin to describe how– how much i love you and how thankful i am that you slid into my life. literally. sliding into my messages on one lonely night and telling me i was cute.” he smiled a little wider at the memory, glancing up at him for a moment. “i thought someone was pulling a joke on me. this attractive guy was talking to me and he’s real? fast forward a few months of chats and calls, and i was in love. i know every kid’s parents tell them not to talk to strangers on the internet, but who cares? i met someone who truly was my best friend.” he took a deep breath, trying his best to get through this with a smile. he hated how awkward his voice was coming out; he wasn’t the best at public speaking. “and now i’m– i’m marrying my best friend. my beautiful and funny best friend who made all of my days so much brighter, who would listen to me rant about my favorite things with interest, who would talk to me through the night about our troubles. i love you, and i promise to give you the future that you deserve, and  the family we’ve always wanted to have together. i promise to be your best friend, to have your back no matter what, to let you fight your own battles, but i’ll tap in when you need help. i promise to experience new things with you, as long as it doesn’t include cheese.” he chuckled, having decided to add a little humor to ease his own nerves. “and i promise to hold your hand every chance i get, to believe you when you compliment me, and to not hog the covers again. but most importantly, i vow to be by your side for the rest of our lives because, kitae park, you own my heart. i love you.” 

#jaetaewedding #kitae

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“it’s fine? you promise? it looks good?” kitae was pestering his brother as he checked his hair for the 50th time, making sure he was getting every strand just perfect. “oh god, i’m sweating.” he laughed nervously, palms clapping together just for something to do. he was really wishing he’d decided to stand in the room first now, not sure he was liking have a grand entrance. he was excited, sure, but the realisation this all involved public speaking and all eyes on him when he really didn’t want to mess up was taking over everything right now.

someone called for him and everyone got into their place, kitae behind the rest of the wedding party. “i think i’m gonna pass out.”

“it’s fine! you look great, gosh, stop being like this.” taeil sighed, already tired of his brother but dealing with it anyway since it was his wedding day. it was understandable that he was so nervous. “kit, listen. you’re gonna do well. don’t think too much about it.” he smiled at him as he stood there with him, ready to go out soon after jaehyun’s party walks in. “you’re not gonna pass out, shush.” 

meanwhile, jaehyun felt all eyes on him as he walked to the front of the room, and that made him afraid to make any mistake. he kept thinking about worst case scenarios, picturing how he could trip on his way and everyone would see it. thankfully, that didn’t happen. jaehyun got to the front of the room safely, and took a deep breath as he stood in his designated spot. he took a look at his friends, and he smiled nervously when he spotted his family members sitting nearby. he finally looked at the door where kitae would be coming out of, nervously swallowing when he saw his friends come out with kitae coming in at the end. he didn’t know what he was expecting since kitae was still unpredictable to him sometimes, but he did not expect to see him coming out in traditional clothing. it’s such a kitae thing to do on his own wedding day, and jaehyun couldn’t help but smile widely as he watched him walk up to the front, his heart racing at the sight of his beautiful husband-to-be. 

#kitae #jaetaewedding

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jaehyun had just come back home, expecting to see his fiance tipsy off of wine and probably having the time of his life at the moment. and he was very correct. “did you miss me?” he asked jokingly, taking off his shoes and hanging his jacket by the door. “i hope you left some wine for me.” he laughed, walking into the living room where kitae was. 

#closed for; kitae #kitae

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kitae’s biggest fear in this moment was that this was all going to end up being a car crash, where jaehyun kept talking and his dad only rejected him more. but as he heard the man on the other line, it hit him that maybe he was simply projecting his feelings over what had happened between him and his own mother. he lent over to kiss jaehyun’s cheek before wiping the tears on his skin, smiling wide as he looked at his fiancé. he knew how much this meant to him. “we’ll get that right over to you!” kitae sing-songed into the phone, flashing jaehyun an apologetic smile right after, not able to help himself from saying something.

jaehyun smiled back at kitae through the happy tears, still not believing this had just happened. he really thought the worst out of his father simply out of fear and feeling like he didn’t matter to him. but it seemed like the other way around. “who-... is that him?” his dad asked, sounding confused. “yeah, that’s- that’s kitae, dad. kitae park.” jaehyun was looking right at his fiance as he said it, feeling so proud of himself for finally introducing him to his family. “oh, hi!” his father spoke again. “i hope to get to meet you in person someday.” 

#kitae

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kitae didn’t know how exactly to feel as he listened to the phone ring, waiting for jaehyun’s dad to pick up. he was nervous that jaehyun wouldn’t get the reaction he wanted, he wanted to spare him the heartache that would cause him. 

he smiled reassuringly at him as he explained things, but when silence feel he felt his own stomach drop. it didn’t feel good, and he was regretting ever encouraging this, even though he knew it was the right thing regardless of the response. he squeezed jaehyun’s thigh, nudging him gently with his shoulder. “tell him more.” he whispered, not wanting to let the silence drag on for longer.

jaehyun didn’t know what to do in the silence. he really didn’t know what to say even when kitae encouraged him to tell him more. he was trying hard not to panic. “we-... we met a few years ago online... a-and then we started to d-date when i moved here... dad, i-... i really love him.” he spoke up, trying to keep himself together as he spoke, even though he sounded so shaky when he spot. 

“hey, it’s okay.” his dad suddenly spoke again, calming his son down. “are you happy?” jaehyun nodded in response, forgetting that he was on the phone. “yes... so happy.” “then i’m happy for you. and send me that wedding invite, will ya?” jaehyun couldn’t believe what he was hearing all of a sudden. he couldn’t hold back his emotions and the tears started to appear. “i will.”

#kitae

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jaehyun had texted sarah, his step sister, earlier, asking her where their father was and if he was around their family. he asked her to stay close to him when he called, just to back him up in case things went south. jaehyun couldn’t believe it’s really been a few years since he’s moved to london and started dating kitae, and he still haven’t come out to anyone in his family except for his sister. and now was the time. he had to tell them. he couldn’t get married without doing so. “dad?” he spoke up when the man answered the phone on speaker, trying so hard not to sound shaky. he even held kitae’s hand tighter. his father talked to him, catching up a little with basic questions. he sounded so nice and caring for a dad who didn’t give him as much attention as he should’ve. for a dad who had left him and his mother behind when he’s found a better life. 

“well, uh...” jaehyun trailed off when he was asked what he was calling for, and he looked at his fiance with panic. “things... a lot of things happened s-since i moved here. uh... i’m... kind of... getting married?” he heard his father congratulate him happily with a little laugh, now expecting that kind of news. “and... and i’m gay.” he broke it down before he could back out, and his breathing stopped for the moment of silence that suddenly took over. jaehyun couldn’t help but scoot closer to kitae, expecting the worst from his dad.

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@jngjae: my fiance is really the best man on earth 🥺💛

#❝ to be soft is to be powerful. –– ( ✦ sns.

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@jngjae replied: i’ve had the best birthday ever, i love you 💛💛

@prkkitae tweeted: happy birthday, baby. you’re the most precious thing in my little life, i’m so grateful to know you 💛

#❝ to be soft is to be powerful. –– ( ✦ sns.

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kitae watched in what was almost disbelief as jaehyun fumbled for his glasses, though it quickly made him laugh out of endearment instead. seeing him being so adorably awkward was exactly what made kitae love him so much, amongst the other reasons. watching him stammer in surprise did nothing to calm kitae’s nerves, but he wanted to do what he’d planned, he wanted to give him a perfect moment, and he wasn’t going to go back on it now. he got down onto one knee, the ornaments and the ring in front of him. “jaehyun, i have a confession. i was meant to do this four months ago.” he was smiling, embarrassed and amused over himself. “i kept getting nervous, because i want everything to be perfect. i wanted you to have a special moment. but i’ve realised what matters is that it’s sincere, and it’s personal to us. i tried to connect chicago and new york here, by a little red string of fate. because we have to be fated, right? how else could it be possible that i found you despite all that distance?” he met jaehyun’s eyes now. “being far from you was so hard, but i’d do it again if i had to. you’re my best friend, and my soulmate. i never thought i’d be so lucky as to end up in love with someone like you. i want the chance to spend forever loving you, and making you happy.” he breathed out heavily, pushing away the anxieties he had. “so, would you do me the honour of marrying me?” 

kitae knew his boyfriend was emotional, yet he had to go and be sentimental like that and make jaehyun tear up over his words. it was always like an immediate reaction to things like this, and he hated that a lot. but despite all of that, he couldn’t stop smiling, and his heart has never beaten this fast before. jaehyun couldn’t take his eyes off of him as he spoke, only glancing down at the ornaments and the ring when he talked about them. “oh my god-” he had to put his hands over his face for a moment to get himself together, but then realized that wouldn’t work. he looked at his boyfriend again, his smile so wide despite the few tears. “i-i’d... i’d love to.”

#kitae

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kitae waited as jaehyun looked at everything, wondering if he’d catch what he was up to, worried he’d moved the sweatshirt. but he didn’t, which meant it was time for kitae to do it. his heart was beating so hard he swore he could hear it, but he tried his best to ignore that. he got up like he was moving to turn on the tv, but instead he stopped, pointing at his sweatshirt like he’d just noticed it. “oh, hey, what’s that doing there?” he was smiling a little. he picked it up, revealing the set up beneath, red string sitting between the ornaments, a ring sitting delicately in the middle of it, waiting to be slid off.

jaehyun didn’t think much of anything. the way his boyfriend pointed at the sweatshirt made him think he only had forgotten it thrown there. however, when he picked it up, jaehyun struggled to see what was exactly in front of him due to his bad vision. he couldn’t recognize the thing under the sweatshirt, and it looked lilke kitae was waiting for a response from him. he felt stupid as he fumbled for his glasses that hung from his shirt and put them on, squinting at the objects in front of him. once his eyes recognized the monuments and the ring hanging between them, he looked between them and kitae in confusion, his heart starting to beat faster. “is... is that...” he stammered. “what-”

#kitae

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“i promised you a date, didn’t i?” kitae’s stomach felt like it was experiencing something new entirely with all the nerves he was feeling. he was sweating underneat his shirt, for sure. “it’s a special night.” he smiled, patting the spot next to him. “come cuddle so i can spoil you then!”

“you did, yeah.” he nodded, already feeling so flustered just by the idea of kitae doing something like this for him. his smile was wide as his eyes wandered over the food and snacks on their table, and he sat beside kitae, scooting closer to him. “this is... cute. i don’t know what to do.” he laughed. 

#kitae

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kitae felt like he was in a rush, and like maybe he should’ve taken this moment slower, even though he’d been planning it for months. he had the souviners from each of their cities left on the coffee table under a worn out new york sweatshirt he often lended to jaehyun, letting it look casually thrown there instead of purposefully placed there to hide something. the pizza had just arrived, and he’d managed to run out to the store nearby to grab candy and drinks before jaehyun could come home. there were some redvines and other candy tied up like a bouquet in front of the sweatshirt, with hersey’s kisses left nearby beside bottles of soda too. the pizza sat in the middle, a pretend candle turned on top of it, the one kitae liked to use to “set the mood” without being scared of a fire. 

“date night!” kitae sing-songed when jaehyun got home, walking over to kiss his cheek, trying to be as casual as he could. he was a button up and some nice trousers, but that kind of look was common enough on him to not seem odd. “i ordered pizza, if that’s okay?”

jaehyun could’ve gotten home much earlier if it wasn’t for him running into minho in the supermarket and talking for more than necessary. he eventually got the things kitae asked for and managed to say goodbye to minho and go home. “date night?” he asked in confusion, but his smile widened the more he looked at his boyfriend. “that’s very okay, yeah.” he nodded, laughing softly as he put his things down and took the few groceries he bought to the kitchen. “alright, spoil me.” he joked, turning back to look at kitae.

#kitae

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kitae looked back at jaehyun for a few seconds, chewing his lip as he tried his best not to start crying. but it quivered anyway and he dropped his hand suddenly, knowing he wasn’t convincing, especially not with jaehyun. the boy knew him better than anyone. he looked down at his thighs, avoiding jaehyun’s gaze as he finally spoke again. “please don’t make me say it.”

jaehyun couldn’t sit there and not do anything. he sat up, and pulled kitae closer in his lap as he wrapped his arms around him in a hug. “shh, it’s okay.” he whispered. “i was worried about you, but- but i didn’t know it was like this...” he sighed, pulling away to look at him, his arms still around him. “please- kit, please talk to me, okay? you don’t have to now, but... gosh, i don’t like being so in the dark about things like this...” 

#kitae