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Being heartbroken sucks.

#not if related

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Hi guys, bet you thought you wouldn't see me again! 

Lol its been a terrible couple of months and I have already written this post at least 3 times but I've never been able to fully get across what is truly going on and how to articulate it.

I'm gonna try to keep it short and to the point however, cause I know some of you all don't really care about theatrics.

 ATOH is still in production. Yes, you heard right, I am still working on it. I am just going through a slump. And it's not necessarily that I am in writer's block. I wish it was writer's block honestly, that would be so much easier to deal with…

Under the cut is more details. A little personal, I suppose 👉🏿👈🏿

 I'm extremely depressed currently, and for a while, I hadn't even known I was depressed! This has truly threw me for a loop yall 🥴🥴. I honestly have no idea when I will be able to fully get myself out of this but I've been trying for a very very long time and it just doesn't seem like it's coming to an end. 

During this time, I've managed to gain some energy to work on edits given to me by beta readers but I cannot say for certain that this project is something I can turn my full attention towards anymor. I'm not putting a ATOH on hiatus because I hate that. And I'd hate to put my game on hiatus for fear that ill completely forget about it. Instead, I'll sayil that production, ie., editing, writing, etc., is going to be extremely slow. The good thing is and I keep saying this over and over is that this new chapter or i should say the new portion of the game is ready for drop. I just need to go ahead and finish adding suggestions but again I just need to gain the energy to do so.

Thank you, everyone who has stood by a trial of horro and it's slow slow production and who has continued to stand Bambi I really appreciate it and you guys are honestly like my light right now if you have any questions please don't hesitate to ask send a while for me to respond but I am seeing most of your messages and I do appreciate your guys caring and you're reaching out. 

Well, that's it for me guys byeee!

#a trial of horror #if wip #twine game #twine #quick update #atoh #horror if #horror games #wip if #cyoa game #interact if #if games #interactive game

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A wild Kohaku appears!

*Throw pokèball!*

#sike dont do that #the man is a menace #a trial of horror #little writing snippet #if wip #twine game #twine #youll see this scene in the update. #whenever i get it out 🥴🥴🥴

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even as a shadow, as a dream...

Euripides (tr by Anne Carson), Anne Magill, John Berger and Jean Mohr, Anna Akhmatova, Madeline Miller

buy me a coffee

#web weavings #parallels #dream #quotes #literature #art #the girlies who know 👀👀👀 #char: yue tu

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I have no idea why this gargoyle sex scene is so hard to write but I will prevail ☝🏿☝🏿☝🏿☝🏿!!

Don't clink your pebbles about it, I'm sure you will come up with something rock solid!

(I'm sorry I was possessed by a Dad)

Its ok!! I definitely needed to hear this 🤎🤎

This year has been A LOT for me in terms of work (I've taken a new position at my job and am GOING CRAZY)

I've been so drained for the past couple of months. I'm taking a vacation in December so I'm hoping that my brain will reset enough to where I can come back better.

#summi rambles #have i ever mentioned working in local government sucks? 'cause it does! 🙃🙃 #not if related

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The Moon by Alice Blake

#ooo Magdalene vibez #if wip #atoh #yues mama?? #aestheitcs inspo

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Alvarez, Moore, and Khalid would 100% wear the acclaimed "hoochie daddy" shorts.

That is all.

#saw something on pintrest that made me go #yah thats the holy thotty trinities go to #char: felix alvarez #char: micah moore #char: khalid #out here tantalizing the masses #summi rambles #twine game #twine

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Iris van Herpen 'Architectonics' Fall 2023 Haute Couture Collection

#yue would rock the shit outta the first one... #char: yue tu #fashion

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Don't know what happened but I had a moment and got something down...

All I ask is that y'all don't judge me!! 😭🥴

I have no idea why this gargoyle sex scene is so hard to write but I will prevail ☝🏿☝🏿☝🏿☝🏿!!

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I have no idea why this gargoyle sex scene is so hard to write but I will prevail ☝🏿☝🏿☝🏿☝🏿!!

#maybes its the anatomy part thats difficult? #or maybe im jus not in a sexy mood??? #i feel like ripping my hair out! #nsfwish? #summi rambles #a trial of horror #atoh #if wip #twine game

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BAEEE IVE MISSED UUU 😭🥺❤️❤️ how r u doing? I hope ur doing amazing 🫶🏻🫶🏻 dont forget ti take care of urself much lovee

- Side

Side!! My love, I missed you too 🤎😩😩

I hope you've been doing well and that life has been treating you well~

I'm feeling much better now, at least better enough to interact with the IF community again 😗😗 I promise not to go ghost for that long ago. Honestly I thought I wasn't gonna come back for a while.

#side my love #i really missed yall so much #yall have no idea

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Someone asked me about the Levels of Angst for each RO awhile back (WAYBACK) but I never could answer cause it always fluctuated.

But I've figured it out and listed below!

Yue Tu: 100/10

🐉🦊 what happens when a fox and the embodiment of death mate? A litter of hot messes(PLEASE DONT ROMANCE THIS MAN YALL)

Adakai Normal Route: 5/10

Adakai Low Sanity Route: 9/10

High-key depressing honestly 😭😭. I'm still trying to wrap my head around how I'm gonna write this 💀☠.

Faizan Normal Route: 6/10

Faizan Low Sanity Route: 10/10

Depends on how you view this one. I give it 10/10 for... obvious reasons 👹👺

Alvarez Normal Route: 3/10

Alvarez Low Sanity Route: 5/10

Fairly mid. You could say that this whole route is about them accepting their TRUE nature 🙃🙃. Which is totally bad for MC

Moore Normal Route: 7/10

Moore Low Sanity Route: 8/10

When you live long enough, fighting the force thats oppressed you for so long. you'll find yourself becoming the villain 🥴🥴🗡🗡🗡🗡

Lemme know if you want the One Night Stands/SOs.

#a trial of horror #if wip #a trial of love #twine game #twine #interactive game #only moores low sanity #leads to an instant game over. #atoh #horror if #interact if #if game

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So... Hi?

Lol! It's been a while hasn't it guys? Definitely too long. I won't lie, I was meaning to update you guys in the beginning of July to announce that I was still kicking and alive. But time just got away from me and well--

So this is gonna be a rough, quick and dirty update while I still have the mental energy:

Overall updates to the Game

The Prelude has went from 93k words to 131k+ words.

UI has changed [again].

I'm hoping the saves will still work but im having the testers try it out to make sure it'll transpose.

If the saves are broken ill look into ways to try and patch them so no one has to start over.

Episode 1-Part 1 of the update is around 88k words (im rough-balling cause I don't remember where its at.)

I'm not gonna go fully into the additions and changes, I'll leave that for the changelog. But I have added some additional choices and am still doing so.

I just hope that there's enough content for you all to enjoy.

Clerical Updates

Incorporating beta testers comments into the game.

I've been working with the beta testers and they've pointed out a LOT of bugs for me and even some places where I could expand the stories plot.

Let me tell you guys, they have truly been a boon in this process and I really have to thank them from the bottom of my heart for their help.

Just working with different designs and trying to find ATOH 's 'face' if you will.

I think that's it.

#a trial of horror #if wip #twine game #twine #atoh #horror if #devlog update #monthly update #i came back from a self-induced isolation just to drop this off #am i fully back? #absolutely not. but i still love yall.

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we really devolved as a society when we stopped using fully painted pictures on romance novels and started using cheap photoshop instead 

#i need this with a pic of yue and mc stat! #ooorrrr a pic of baylon and mc #👀👀👀

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—longing for love

what i could never confess without some bravado by emily palermo // nickie zimov // homosexuality by frank o’hara // normal people (2020) // the unabridged journal by sylvia plath // holly warburton

#char: faizan #words #web weavings #web weaving <3

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Jihyun Yun, from Some Are Always Hungry; “Reversal”

[Text ID: “I so want to survive this. Please lead me whole into another season so I may dare begin again.”]

#oof #all the players at this point 🥴🥴🥴 #especially khalid right now 👀👀

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IT'S ALL ABOUT THE DIFFERENCE; BETWEEN BEING LONELY & BEING ALONE.

jennifer s. cheng // @camojacketfag // heather havrilesky // @camojacketfag // carol lee // @twinsfawn // jenny slate.

#web weaving <3 #char: faizan #being alone/forced isolation #to let one in only to push them back