so apparently tumblr is once again not showing my new posts in the tags/ search.. i hate it here
imagine that whenever you turn 13, you get an appointment with some all-knowing being (deity, artificial intelligence, whatever..) and you get to ask three questions, two yes-no-questions and one open-ended question, about your future. it’s said that the prophecies are always true and whenever someone purposely does the contrary of what the all-knowing being predicted, extremely bad things happen to them which will lead to the prophecy being true in the end nevertheless.
so when kageyama turns 13 and gets to ask his three questions, he does it more or less by the book. it’s recommended to ask one question about your career, one about your love life, and the last question can be used to clarify something about one of the answers or just to ask something miscellaneous you’re interested in. so he asks:
1) will i become a professional volleyball player? - yes
2) will i marry the love of my life? - no
3) who is the love of my life? - oikawa tooru
he is immensely confused by that because yes, oikawa is amazing and fascinating and all and he can’t deny that he’s a tiny bit obsessed with him, but these feelings.. that’s love? well, it must be, and now that he really thinks about it, he thinks about him a lot.. and thinking about him makes him feel somehow weird, but good? so yeah, love, but apparently it’s unrequited. but he decides that the all-knowing being sucks and that he wants to change his future and try to be with oikawa nevertheless because why not try and see what happens? all the stories that bad things happen if you go against your prophecy don’t scare him, it’s probably not even true anyways.
he doesn’t see oikawa for quite a while, but once he’s in high school and meets oikawa again, he tries to get in touch. after a game they get to talk and kageyama asks him whether or not he believes in the prophecies. oikawa says that he does and asks if kageyama doesn’t believes in them. kageyama says that he doesnt and that oikawa must like the answers he’s been given if he really believes in them. oikawa retorts that this must mean that kageyama doesn’t like his answers.
they tell each other about the questions they had asked and the answers to them, but they both lie to each other about it. they both make up things that sound good and normal so that the other can’t suspect the lie. there’s just no way kageyama could’ve disclosed that oikawa is supposedly the love of his life, that would’ve been way too embarrassing after all. but he decides to give it a go and asks oikawa to have dinner with him some day. of course oikawa refuses. when kageyama insists and says it’s his treat, oikawa agrees.
so they have dinner one day. it’s surprisingly easy and comfortable and nice and fun. oikawa tells him about his plans to go to argentina after graduation and kageyama feels that he needs to shoot his shot now or never, he can’t let him leave the country without ever trying his luck. so he asks oikawa if he’s into guys. he just shrugs and says he doesn’t know, he might be, he’s never tried. kageyama asks him if he’d like to try. it’s supposed to be a general question, but the moment he says it he realises that it sounds a lot like a suggestion. oikawa seems a little taken aback, but after a moment he asks whether kageyama’s parents are home tonight. they’re not. they barely are. so oikawa suggests to watch a movie after dinner and see what happens. they never actually even turn on the tv.
afterwards (after whatever they just did, could be anything from just making out to sex, if i’d actually write this i’d probably go for the latter to make it more dramatic lol) oikawa gets up immediately and gets dressed and ready to leave. kageyama asks him if it wouldn’t be the normal thing to lie next to each other and cuddle, at least for a bit. oikawa says that he doesn’t want to and kageyama asks why but oikawa doesn’t want to answer. kageyama says that oikawa might’ve had a lot of girlfriends before, but that he didn’t have any experience until today. this just now had been his first kiss/ time/ whatever. and that he’d thought that even if oikawa didn’t like him, he’d be decent enough to stay put for five minutes, but since he isn’t, he at least owes him an explanation.
oikawa sighs and says that he doesn’t want to stay because cuddling and sleeping next to each other and stuff like that makes you feel attached and he can’t have that, not mere months before he leaves the country to live on the other side of the world, but if kageyama would like to have an evening like this again with him, he’d be up for it. so kageyama nods and agrees. it’s a little disappointing, but to be fair, it makes sense that oikawa doens’t want any new attachments, but he hopes that if they keep seeing each other, he might fall for him nevertheless.
so they keep seeing each other for months, but they never cross the line from just casual to something more, so when oikawa leaves, kageyama accepts his defeat. of course they will probably see each other again at some point in their lives, but it seems like the prophecy must be correct after all. oikawa asks to keep in touch as friends, and they do. they talk regularly at first, but it gets less and less over time. eventually, kageyama starts dating someone else (my choice for a fic would be miya atsumu just because, but anyone else works just fine too) and that’s the point when they stop talking altogether.
fast forward to 2021, when they meet again almost a decade later at the olympics. they talk after a game, for old times sake or whatever, not because they really have to say anything to each other but because it feels wrong not to do it considering the’ve been sort of friends or maybe more at some point in time. it’s been so long, it doesn’t even really matter anymore, right? their conversation consists entirely of small talk and within minutes they run out of things to say and there’s awkward silence.
just when kageyama wants to excuse himself, oikawa says that he had lied to him. kageyama asks when and about what and oikawa says that he had lied about two of the questions and the answers, the real ones are:
1) who is the love of my life? - kageyama tobio
2) will the love of my life ever love me back? - no
and then he explains that that had been the actual reason he’d tried not to get too close to him, even though he’d been in love with him ever since high school. he couldn’t actually say no when kageyama had asked him out because a part of him had hoped that the prophecy would be wrong, but he also didn’t want to get his hopes up too much and get hurt even more than necessary. still, he kept hoping for a little while that kageyama would miss him after he’d left, but he’d never said anything like that and once kageyama had started dating someone else, oikawa had decided that keeping in touch would only hurt him and do him no good and broke off contact.
naturally kageyama’s head spins at the revelation because it just doesn’t make any sense??? so he tells him that his questions and answers had been a lie too and what he’d actually asked and about his answers and that he had thought that oikawa wasn’t into him. so now they’re both very confused, but after a while oikawa realises what’s up.
he asks kageyama since when he’d been in love with him and kageyama says since middle school probably. oikawa nods and then explains: kageyama’s mistake had been to ask if they’d ever get married because getting married doesn’t equal being in love and together. and his own mistake had been to ask if kageyama would ever love him back instead of just asking if he’d ever love him because kageyama had loved him first and the all-knowing being had interpreted the question differently compared to what oikawa had wanted to ask. the prophecy had been about when they had started to have feelings about each other, not about whether or not the love was requited.
so they realise that they should’ve just talked about this years ago. and that the prophecies are stupid and self-fulfilling. if they hadn’t known about any of this, they probably just would’ve started to date normally at some point and it could’ve worked out. but it’s not too late, right? they’ve lost a lot of time they could’ve spend together, so to make up for it kageyama decides to move to argentina as soon as possible because why not? he’s achieved everything he’s ever dreamed of in his career, he doesn’t really care if he plays in japan or europe or south america after all.
at this point they either live happily ever after or, my preferred ending because i love angsty shit, they get engaged even though kageyama’s prophecy said that they wouldn’t ever get married and then either of them dies right before the wedding because just as said in the beginning, the prophecies are always true and if purposely ignored, something really bad happens to make sure they stay correct.
this could be either because the prophecies are made by some deity who can manipulate people’s fates or because they’re made by some artificial intelligence that monitors all people’s lives and will hack into something and cause a car accident or something like that to rectify things. i think i like the AI story better because then the one who didn’t die could be angry and try to get revenge by destroying the AI and make life better for generations to come because honestly, knowing three things about your future that are set in stone from the moment you hear them whether you like it or not kinda sucks and hasn’t really helped anyone ever.
i'm guessing you've seen the newest chapter? >uo
yeah, and i really liked it tbh! i think it was pretty cute and wholesome and gives us a lot of “closure” in different ways for different characters.. and it makes me excited for the next chapter, but it also makes me super sad of course, so mixed feelings…
okay but imagine iwaoi getting together because they match on a dating app like tinder or whatever, and oikawa messages iwaizumi first saying “aww, iwa-chan, i think this means we have to date now~“ and then he immediately regrets it so he adds “i’m joking haha” but then he decides that maybe he should shoot his shot because they did match after all and adds “(unless you’re up for it)” and iwaizumi simply replies with “i’m up for it” and that’s it. that’s how they started dating. the end.
okay but hear me out.... IwaUshiOi
one word.. three letters… YES
Oikawa is sleeping next to iwa-chan
I DIDN'T KNOW THAT YOU SHIP IWAOI AHHHHHHHHHHHHH
YES I SHIP IWAOI!!! i love their relationship so so sooo much… mostly as a friendship, but i also sort of ship them! it’s honestly the only popular ship i actually like and while i’m not super passionate about it, i occasionally really enjoy reading iwaoi fics (there are some true masterpieces on ao3 holy shit) and i just love that there’s pretty much endless content for them which is really, really nice considering i usually only ship rare pairs haha
california is way closer to argentina than japan.. if you know what i’m saying….. just saying….
HEAVY SPOILERS GO READ HAIKYUU CHAPTER 395 FIRST !!!
USHIJIMA IS ON THE NATIONAL TEAM
TENDOU!!!! WITHOUT HAIR?!?! BUT TENDOU!!!! I MISSED HIS CUTE FACE
ALSO USHITEN FEELINGS BECAUSE PHONE CALL
TENDOU’S CALLER ID PIC IN USHIJIMA’S PHONE I CAN’T EVEN
ALSO USHIJIMA TALKING TO HIS FATHER ASHDJKASF
SO DID HE EVER PLAY ON A FOREIGN TEAM ???? I NEED TO KNOW ASAP BECAUSE NOW HE’S OBVIOUSLY PLAYING IN JAPAN
IWAIZUMI OH GOSH I HAVE MISSED HIM SO MUCH AHHHHH AND HE’S IN THE US AND STUDYING SPORTS SCIENCE!!!!!! AMAZING
IWAIZUMI MEETING USHIJIMA LIKE WHAT’S WITH THESE COINCIDENCES ASDHJKSDFJKSD REALLY WTF THE WORLD IS A BIG PLACE OKAY
IWAIZUMI BEING A FANBOY OF USHIJIMA’S FATHER
AND BEING ALL FLUSTERED AND CUTE AND AHHHHH
ALSO THE BOOK TITLE LMAO AND THE WAY HE ASKS USHIJIMA IF HE KNOWS HIM ASDHJKSFKSFL PEAK COMEDY
IWAIZUMI GEEKING OUT ABOUT SPORTS SCIENCE SO IMPORTANT
ALSO THEM SENDING A SELFIE TO OIKAWA !!!! HIS EVIL FACE ASDHJKASFK I WANNA SEE THAT SELFIE SO BAD PLEASE SOMONE DRAW THIS ?!?!? AND I NEED OIKAWA’S REACTION AHHHHH
THIS IS A PSA USHIJIMA AND IWAIZUMI GOT COFFEE TOGETHER I REPEAT USHIJIMA AND IWA-
ALSO SUCH AN INTERESTING CHOICE TO LET IWAIZUMI AND USHIJIMA MEET HONESTLY ASDHJSDFJKLSF LOOK AT HIS GENUINE SMILE WHEN HE REALISES HE CAN HELP HIM - A FORMER RIVAL AND TOP ATHLETE !!! AHHHH
USHIJIMA’S NEW FORM ASDFJLSKDFJL AMAZING SUCH POWER MUCH WOW CAN’T WAIT TO SEE THAT ONE ANIMATED HOLY SHIT
USHIJIMA’S DAD WATCHING HIM PROUDLY EVEN THOUGH IT’S IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT IN CALIFORNIA I’M NOT CRYING YOU’RE CRYING
ALSO.. THIS IS SUPPOSED TO BE IWA-CHAN, RIGHT?? SO… HE’S STILL IN THE US I GUESS !!!
USHIJIMA THANKING HIS DAD MADE ME LEGIT CRY OH GOSH
THANK YOU FOR COMING TO MY TED TALK PLS SCREAM WITH ME I AM LOSING MY MIND OVER HAIKYUU
okay so about haikyuu chapter 395: now we know that ushijima made the national team too. i mean, yeah, we all expected that, but it wasn’t confirmed. but most importantly, he wasn’t exactly successful…. let me just say, haikyuu really hits different compared to all the other sports manga and anime i’ve read and seen because it’s so fucking realistic. it doesn’t give us super powers and in the end the main characters don’t just win and no, not everyone is successful and happy and it’s not easy. everything, every step of the way is really damn hard. and even after victory, it doesn’t end. haikyuu is all about cold harsh truths which you don’t see often in this genre. it’s about personal growth and how it can mean something entirely different for different people. it’s about ambitions, hopes, and dreams. it’s about blessings, luck, talent (or that fact that “talent” doesn’t necessarily exist). it’s about overcoming shortcomings and making the most out of the hand you’ve been dealt. and in this chapter it once again shows us, that even if you’re lucky and you have great opportunities and you work hard and make the absolute most out of it, if you do everything the way you’re supposed to, it still doesn’t mean you’ll succeed. you might sometimes, but you won’t always. sometimes you fail. that’s just how it is because that’s the way life works. and making ushijima struggle sends exactly this powerful message, and i’m once again in awe.. haikyuu is a god damn masterpiece.
as of today I have officially died for the 25379502036485th time because of haikyuu because what the fuck whAT THE ACTUAL FUCK IS CHAPTER 395 EVEN I CAN’T HANDLE THAT MUCH AT ONCE SEND HELP
tagged by @kakkoweeb thank you so much!! ♥️
Favourite comfort food: chocolate.. or if it has to be a real meal, definitely sushi… i always order sushi when i’m sad and/ or exhausted (but also when i feel like treating myself lol)
Favourite alcohol (or hot drink): i like drinking beer (i am german after all lmao), but other than that i really like vodka mixed with some energy drink or gin with sprite
Favourite relaxing activity: watching soccer calms me down as long as my favourite team isn’t playing lmao, other than that it’s probably taking a shower and then taking a nap i love sleeping :’)
Favourite calming scent: not to be too cliché but either the smell when it rains/ right after it or my boyfriend’s scent ahsfjhasjkdl
Favourite relaxing (or uplifting) song: my favourite relaxing song is “comforting sounds” by birdy, it always calms me down when i feel overwhelmed and anxious! and my (current) favourite uplifting song is “juice” by lizzo
Favourite white noise: rain/ thunderstorm or beach sounds/ ocean waves
Favourite book to get lost in: if it has to be a book i guess i’ll go with the “all for the game” series by nora sakavic, but usually when i want to get lost in reading something for a while i go with the haikyuu manga and/ or re-read some of my favourite fanfics
Favourite chill out tv show: some shows i rewatch when i just want to relax and not pay too much attention to what i’m actually watching are modern family, friends, b99, gilmore girls, and of course, haikyuu and some of my other favourite anime haha
Best advice you’ve ever heard: “a jack of all trades is a master of none, but oftentimes better than a master of one” - it’s not really advice but an old saying, but it means a lot to me. i’m quite a bit of a perfectionist and trying to do absolutely everything perfectly is extremely tiring and also impossible, so i always try to remember that often it’s better to be (sort of) good at a lot of things than pouring all my energy into trying to be the best at one thing.. if that makes sense? asdhjkasfk
does anyone know how to use their motivation to write for their bachelor thesis instead of fanfics? asking for a friend :’)
whenever you open commissions, i'll gladly commission you to write oikage to the song play date. 😊💖
asdhajsdfak oh gosh, thank you!!! 💕i did not expect that at all and it always makes me extremely happy to know that there are people who enjoy my writing enough to commission me and also there’s absolutely nothing i love more than writing oikage 😍
i’m currently finishing up a commission and some time after that, i plan on re-opening! if you want to (and anyone else who might want to commission me asdhjasfl), you can read all the info here and already fill out the form that’s on the bottom! and then i’ll just get back to you once i actually have time again. it’s absolutely non-binding, so if you can’t or don’t want to commission me anymore once i’m ready, that’s absolutely no problem at all!! or you can just wait until i “officially” open commissions again of course 😊
anyways, this ask absolutely made my day, thank you!! 💕and it totally makes me want to write more oikage and less bachelor thesis haha fml
thoughts on kuroo x daichi?
i guess i can see it? i like that they have some sort of rivalry, i’m a always a sucker for that, but until just now i haven’t particularly thought about it before… i can see it, it’s cute, but it’s none of the ships i personally ship. but i have absolutely nothing against it!! if i’ll ever come across great art of them, i’m sure i could enjoy it :)
thoughts on this edit (youtube (.) com/watch?v=suM_RNznJy4&list=LLyksQvdYkZbCYOWum20Y2Hw&index=8&t=0s)? as short as it was, it fueled my love for oikage and makes me want a fic to this song too!
it’s short, but i like it nevertheless!! the transitions are nice and i’m always a sucker for oikage so ashdkjsdfjkls and i think the song is a very good choice for oikage. i know you barely hear any of the lyrics because the edit is just a few seconds long, but i know the song and yeah, fits perfectly in my opinion (and could definitely inspire a fic.. who knows.. maybe you can write one, or someone else? maybe i’ll even do it one day :D)
anyone who wants to watch it and not have to copy the link, click here :)
when i first learned that oikawa went abroad pretty much right after graduation and definitely stayed for a while, he might even still be in argentina or god knows where, i was really unsure whether i liked it. on one hand i was proud and like that’s my boy, go chase your dreams, be brave!! but on the other hand i found it incredibly sad that he wasn’t around all the other characters anymore.. of course i say that from a somewhat shippy perspective, but i’m also thinking about all his friendships, teammates, his family.. anyways, my point is, by now i’ve come to terms with it and decided i will focus on the happy reunions he’ll have! so what that this means any college/ university AUs aren’t canon compliant anymore, doesn’t mean we can’t still like those. and now we get break ups, and long distance, and finally the whole “meeting the one true love again after years of being separated” trope and if that doesn’t scream angst with a happy ending.. i’ve decided to love and embrace it.
what do u think abt sakukomo and the whole discourse going on rn?
what a question asdjklsfjklsdf… so first of all, for those who don’t know what this is about, sakusa and komori were revealed to be cousins in chapter 394 and all hell broke lose because of that and the people who ship(ped) them are getting death threats and harassed and bullied into taking art and fics down etc., so basically the haikyuu fandom is once again at its worst.
what i personally think? people should learn to chill and most importantly, respect each other.
everyone who shipped saku//komo prior to this reveal didn’t do anything wrong. we didn’t know that they’re related. so no, absolutely nothing wrong with that because THEY DIDN’T KNOW.
everyone who refuses to take their saku//komo art or fics down because of this isn’t doing anything wrong either in my opinion. it’s okay to distance yourself from your work, tag it with incest, but still keep it online because you worked hard on it and people enjoy(ed) it. totally valid in my opinion.
everyone who is now uncomfortable with saku//komo and doesn’t want to see or hear anything about it, absolutely valid too of course! it’s okay to unfollow and block people who keep posting about it and blacklist tags. everyone should just do do whatever they need to do to.
and most people who continue to ship them and/ or create content aren’t harming others with it.. of course, incest is illegal for reasons, so it’s definitely not something that should be romanticised and portrayed as okay and normal, but as long as they’re not doing that and tagging their work accordingly so that people who are uncomfortable with it can avoid it, they’re not really doing something that hurts others.
the people who still ship saku//komo are people who ship it not because they like incest, but because they like those two characters together. they didn’t know they were related until just now, so none of them are actually romanticising incest or something like that. i think most of them are probably just going to ignore it from now on and pretend they aren’t cousins and that’s it.
so yes, shipping incest is highly controversial (and it’s grossing me out a lot and i don’t want that anywhere near me), but it’s honestly not my (or really anyone’s) place to judge anyone for it. i’m not saying shipping incest is absolutely and completely okay, but the way this “discourse” is going is actually way worse.
i think that everyone who goes on the internet and consumes content and interacts with people etc. is responsible for what they see. of course, when someone actively sends you things you don’t want to see (e.g. dick picks), that’s wrong on so many different levels, but if you see something because you’re following a person who posts about it, it’s not their fault.
my favourite example: people who post nsfw stuff aren’t responsible if minors see it and feel uncomfortable as long as the posts are tagged as nsfw and/ or the account states that they’re posting nsfw/ only allow followers 18+. what people see, is their own responsibility and never the creator’s. and that doesn’t just go for nsfw, but also incest and lots of other things like abuse, non-con etc.
the internet is not a safe space and never will be. everyone is responsible for themselves and what they see and the experience they have. if you don’t like saku//komo, don’t follow people who post about it, it’s simple as that.
the people who’re actually doing harm right now are all the bullies who harass and attack others… i mean, are you completely insane???? sending death threats to real people, human beings with actual feelings and lives, over fictional characters???? jesus fucking christ…