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Family dinners are a flippin'minefield.

My family is so cruel about little things. They joke, they tease, they poke fun at. I know that some people show affection with jabs like these, but they don't feel affectionate. I'm certain that I'm not the only one who hates it, but so many of them participate in it.

One of my brothers had a girl over for dinner today, and mom made sure she left with a bunch of leftover mother's day cake. She also made a joke at my brothers expense in front of this girl. Lots to unpack.

Little glimpses into why I'm ashamed of so much, why I'm ashamed of wanting too much. It's no wonder I was too embarrassed to tell anyone about my childhood crushes.

My sister was ridiculed for being "the favorite" when we were younger, and now she has a bit of a complex about it. She's told us all about this, but the comments are still made.

I just want to be happy, I want us to ACTUALLY be a close family, but I don't know how to get there. I feel like anything I try will just make things worse.

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This man…

#oh god he's perfect. #i'm obsessed #Pedrito

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#Javi Gutierrez I will die for you

#*long sigh* #love his face #Pedrito

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#oh god OH GOD #*long sigh* #*fans self* #r.i.p me #oh god he's perfect #Pedrito #*unintelligible noises*

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#H O T #a bastard #a sexy sexy bastard man #Pero Tovar #Pedrito

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instagram | mimosaboston

#pretty

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#for science

#LORD #*fans self* #A MAN #end me sir just END ME

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阿里山水山線 | Alishan Shuishan Trail

#i want to go to there

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What’s your typical day like?

i wake up. i malfunction. i call it a day

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This is my favorite photo of all time. Look at him

#too perfect #he deserves all good things

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Hello I am still alive

My car is still falling apart, my body is still falling apart, and my brain is barely holding itself together while my life is happening around me

Things are bad. Things are good. I don't want to be here anymore.

I'm stuck and I don't really care enough to do anything about it. I'm just gonna wallow about it for several (more) months.

*Dabs pathetically, and not even in an ironic way*

#i hope you are all doing well you all genuinely deserve the world #i miss you

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(see you space cowboy)

#EZRA #Prospect #I gotta watch this again #Pedrito

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Brain empty, only lok stuffed appa

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#we've got this stuff in Utah called “fry sauce” #it's not ONLY in Utah but it is here and we love it #1:1 ketchup & mayonnaise with a spash of pickle juice if your're fancy

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#daisies #daisies are the friendliest flower

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