awholebunchesofnothings

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bravery

if the physical space they create for themselves makes you uncomfortable, leave. their home and body should be as much a sanctuary to you as your own.

if the way they speak to you makes you feel like a lesser person, no matter if this is true or not, leave. equality lies on the basis of reasonable interests. you have a reasonable interest in feeling respected.

leave.

leave.

leave.

it doesn’t matter what their intentions are. everyone has good intentions.

it is how you perceive them that matters. how you feel about the actions they take.

if you don’t feel loved, leave.

if you don’t feel safe, leave.

if you don’t feel filled with joy, leave.

if you don’t think, at some point, “i could stay here forever”, leave.

you are not worth compensating for.

if you settle for less than happiness, you will forever live a life drenched in regret. regret nothing, my friend.

be brave.

take chances.

explore.

and most importantly,

leave.

.

thank you.

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look, you did good, girl. you did good. you spoke up today and asked a question you were petrified to ask. good job. i’m proud of you. always.

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damn. this has been a good release. the empty void of tumblr is my new favourite counsellor. 

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i’m now very interested in the ethics of politics and the environment. i absolutely want to become a professional musician (at least on the side) someday. i have lost my interest in working as an animator for a big studio (even on the side). i’m not interested in making art for projects i’m not personally invested in. that is a waste of time.

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japan’s got cheap houses. anyone wanna move w/ me

im poor and sad

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i understand now that people don’t replace other people. people have similar qualities but they are still a distinct person. i need to stop comparing people immediately, because this will lead to me trusting the wrong person.

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how much should you blame conditions in you and around you and how much should you blame yourself? maybe you shouldn’t blame anything or anyone at all. blame doesn’t grow much. understanding grows much. but can i understand without blame?

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i left, that was a while ago now, but i guess when i left it wasn’t even significant enough to post about? huh. that’s saying something. leaving was the right choice. that doesn’t mean i’m not sad, though. i’m very sad. over everything other than the person i left.

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i’m crying about hugs again. i think i understand paul better now. good hugs really are more valuable than anything. they represent a strong, unshakable bond. the kind that take years to grow. the kind that, if eternity was tangible, that’s what i’d imagine it to feel like.

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sometimes i hug myself when there’s nobody around to do it for me.

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i think i’m ready to let go

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november 9th, friday; to november 11th, sunday

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if i don’t love us like i love him, we don’t deserve each other

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i miss you already

i didn’t miss you until i met you

when i met you, suddenly words weren’t enough

i liked you too much

i miss your hugs

they were the best hugs i’ve ever gotten

i will treasure every one of them forever

even if we’re not the ones for each other

you’re a perfect standard for me to follow

i don’t wanna be anyone less or love anyone less

but you’re still unique

and i will still wait for our next hug

because our last hug wasn’t actually the last, it was just a hug with a longer space between it and the next

as long as we’re ok

we’ll be ok

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“I want”

i’m so pissed

i want a clean tattoo

i wanna smoke a joint with cheerful buds

i want an edgy buzz cut

i want a straight back and a gay pride badge

i want to rename myself Iona

i want to wear tight pants with no muffin top

i want to drive a car with confidence

i want to go places on a whim

more than ready to interact with whoever resides there

i want to smile and be open without shivering and shaking

i want to keep warm without looking like my mom

i want to know what i want

i want to do what i want

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i want to leave, he wants to leave, we want each other, we don’t want our other

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i’m crying a lot but don’t feel sad, what this