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dark academic YA + adult books, for the reader who doesn’t enjoy the old classics:

the raven cycle — maggie stiefvater (YA)

welsh kings, magic forests, obsessive research, private schools.

wilder girls — rory power (YA)

lord of the flies retelling, all-girls boarding school, remote island.

six of crows — leigh bardugo (YA)

murder, crime, heists, magic.

truly devious — maureen johnson (YA)

murder mystery, eccentric students, elite boarding school, 1900s

the night circus — erin morgenstern (A)

magical circus, mysterious psychics, mind games, star crossed love.

the diviners — libba bray (YA)

1920s new york city, wlw + mlm rep, ace rep, occult magic, mysterious museums

vicious — v.e. schwab (A)

an experiment gone wrong, blackout poetry, rivals, strange powers

the cruel prince — holly black (YA)

FAERIES, enemies to lovers, political power struggles, another magic forest

station eleven — emily st. john mandel (A)

shakespeare, thespians, post-apocalyptic wasteland

serpent & dove — shelby mahurin (YA)

witches, french backdrop, 1880s, enemies to lovers, WITCHES

feel free to add on!

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This is heaven.

Source: goddessprovisions

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I am a prisoner of fear, theres no reason for me to be scared now. But how come my brain has confined me to my house? People are hounding me with the question why? those three letters can set my body on fire and crush me. why? why? why? a sentence with three letters can flud my senses with fear. don't i know the answer? dont i know why im like this? "its all in your head theres nothing to fear!" what usually is a comfort is like poision in my lungs. my head is what scares me. the fear of fearing is killimg me. knowing, not knowing. Not knowing is not a crime. why am i exspected to know why my legs give out when i leave my house? why the simple sight of door way can bring a tsunami of tears to my eyes? It's because the knowledge that I am not able to live up to my dreams or to even atleast walk down the street with out fearing I will die if i do not listen to the voice screaming in my head to go back! run now! theres still time to leave! the fear of staying home wildilling away when i could be meeting my future wife, or studying at uni or even just doing something by myself without my hand clasped in my mothers. I am simply a prisoner of fear.

So I actually came on here to look at cute girls and ducks but i guess my mind is going to fast haha, it needed to scream or atleast try to. Anyway sorry for the neagitive post -3- Oh but tomorrow im getting anouther frog! so yay haha anyway see you around doves x

#my thoughts #anxeity #agoraphobia #i tried to write

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Hi lovelys lets try and save lives,yeah?xx

I’ve seen a lot of posts on my dash tonight about users who are threatening suicide, with other Tumblr members posting in effort to try to get ahold of them. I think you all should see this:

IF THERE IS EVER A TUMBLR USER WHO HAS POSTED A GOOD-BYE MESSAGE, SUICIDE NOTE, VIDEO, OR ANYTHING OF THE SORT, PLEASE FOLLOW THIS POST.

1. Scroll to the top of your dashboard.

2. See the circular question mark icon at the top? It’s the third one over from your home symbol. Click on that, and a screen similar to the one in the picture will come up.

3. Where you can type in questions, the box with the magnifying glass at the top, type in the word “suicide.”

4. Click on the first link that shows up. It should say, “Pass the URL of the blog on to us.”

5. Type in the user’s URL and tell Tumblr admin that the user is contemplating suicide and has posted a message indicating that they are going through with it or will be attempting. Hit send! Tumblr administration will perform a number of actions to contact the user and take the necessary steps to prevent the suicide.

TUMBLR: THIS COULD SAVE A USER’S LIFE. PLEASE DO NOT IGNORE SUICIDE THREATS.

Reblog this to keep other users aware. Suicide isn’t a joke, and neither is someone’s life. If you didn’t know this, someone else may not, either. Pass it on.

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Over the years I have relised im gay, well i mean mostly..kinda? yeah totally gay. anddd i fall for straight girls soo much :{ Iv'e been inlove with my straight best friend for 3 years.. she has been giving me mixed messages for about a year and suddenly got real close... when she was staying with me she got really jelous when i talked about girls to the point she would grab me by the waist and growled in my ear that i was hers...ahhhhhh and i yester day i was upset after a panic attack so she made me a cozy nest and tea and started cuddleing me, which is normal for us but then i started falling asleep and i think she thought i was asleep, because she kissed my kneck and said goodnght beutiful!!!! she says that shes my straight gf and were gonna get married... Should i confront her? am I being an oblivious idiot or am i just kidding my self???

i myself am floating in a sea of emotion and confusion- me!

#my photgraphy #my writing #girl problems #ahhhh #send help

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THIS MAN FLEW TO JAPAN TO SING ABBA IN A BIG COLD RIVER - Austin Weber -..

this gives me falling for a stait girl/boy/nb friend vibes...

#send help #is she gay #falling for her #oblivious

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i had a dream about fucking… vampire discourse on tumblr like;

“reminder that blood sucker is a slur”

“vamp-born-vamps are valid if u got bitten later in life you’re not part of the vamp community” 

“support vamps who drink human blood, support vamps who drink animal blood, support vamps who drink animal and human blood”

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Aw tiny tiny bunnies …

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I'm sitting outside in the remanding sunlight of the day, the birds are chirping and i'm doing some english work. lifting my head to the sky i see the gaps in the trees the light seeps through. isnt it amzing how light can find its way through the tinyest pinpricks of gaps to illuminate even the littlest of spaces? sometimes i think that maybe i am the little space in amoungst the trees leaves, yes it makes me feel small and insnifigant but in a comforting way that you can never really explain no matter how hard you try.

#I'm bad at writting but im trying #writting #sunny days #i myself am small

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reblog if you agree

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happy lesbian visibility day to all my fellow gay gals!!!! i love you all and know that you’re valid no matter what. if your family doesn’t support you then i’ll be your new family :)) ily

yours truly, a raging lesbian

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Baby steps are better than no steps at all. Keep going. You’ll get there.” — Nicole Addison

I find this increadibly when I feel a little wear for worse. for all the wonderfull people out there suffering with Mentle illnes, gender identity, sexuslity or lack of it, trying times at school, family ishues,social distancing,health ishues and many more problems in your life, remember that baby steps are better than none :) I'm always hear for a chat and yummy recipes if you need them.. although i might be a little awkward at first but please dont let that discourage you :)

#baby steps #it's okay to not be okay #i'm here for you:)

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Hufflepuff head canons #6

In the common room, there is a corner just filled with pillows for anyone who needs comfort. They just sit on the pillows and a passing Hufflepuff will sit with them and chat until they feel better or fall asleep.

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I'M MAKING CHAMAMILE ROLLS AGAIN!! IM SO EXCITED!!!! UHSFOYBAFLUAHZP

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someone please dance to the jets with me :{