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happy autism acceptance day!

i had my first on-record focal impaired awareness seizures this saturday and upon researching a little i've realised i've been having focal aware seizures a lot for quite the while, with them being particularly intense the past six months (you might recall me becoming catholic all of a sudden. that was not a bit. focal epilepsy just does that to you sometimes).

did you know that roughly half of all autistic people are diagnosed with epilepsy? i didn't know either, but turns out both me and my brother probably have autism-adhd-epilepsy trifecta. fun.

i just found it a timely opportunity to announce i'm making more long haul elaborate art like that tied up geats you all like so much! how fun~ and since i kinda really need to save up to become independent and safe in my daily life with focal epilepsy* i was thinking of opening a print shop for these sorts of pieces!

if you have any particular pieces you would like to be able to put on your wall, feel free to reply to this here post or send an ask!

[*main thing i would like is to live on my own and have a seizure assistance dog, as i was yelled at and pushed around a lot during my impaired awareness seizures this weekend and it was very distressing and i cannot convince my mother to treat me better about it.]

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happy autism acceptance day!

i had my first on-record focal impaired awareness seizures this saturday and upon researching a little i've realised i've been having focal aware seizures a lot for quite the while, with them being particularly intense the past six months (you might recall me becoming catholic all of a sudden. that was not a bit. focal epilepsy just does that to you sometimes).

did you know that roughly half of all autistic people are diagnosed with epilepsy? i didn't know either, but turns out both me and my brother probably have autism-adhd-epilepsy trifecta. fun.

i just found it a timely opportunity to announce i'm making more long haul elaborate art like that tied up geats you all like so much! how fun~ and since i kinda really need to save up to become independent and safe in my daily life with focal epilepsy* i was thinking of opening a print shop for these sorts of pieces!

if you have any particular pieces you would like to be able to put on your wall, feel free to reply to this here post or send an ask!

[*main thing i would like is to live on my own and have a seizure assistance dog, as i was yelled at and pushed around a lot during my impaired awareness seizures this weekend and it was very distressing and i cannot convince my mother to treat me better about it.]

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Forgot I did a Kaiju design two years ago, complete with references for the sake of commissions, and then never posted it despite the amount of effort/detail put in. Fixing that now! Kind of wish I had a better name for her than 'Ultra' (because she took more than a few influences from Ultraman along with Pacific Rim). Ultra Wavewalker is a secondary name at the moment, but not exactly applicable to this version of the character, but it can all get polished and improved with time.

A few of the inspirations on Ultra's design (along with moissanite, since moissanite is very rainbow/pretty).

#commission catalogue #others' ocs #this was a good time!!

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long time no lobi! since i've been fully palette-shifted to red irl here's lobi's strength form, ultra-romantique 💋

#original character #bluesart #ultraman #oritra

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reblogging from my main bc life is a nightmare etc and posting on this account will not resume until i am no longer overcome with the overwhelming sense that i am just waiting around to die!

hate to do this right now but i'm running out of money to feed me and my brother considering that our mother has ramped up her attempts to starve us (we didn't get a single meal several days this week and she's been stealing any food items we buy and don't immediately eat so we can't stock up. cooking has also been impossible bc of harassment and also her taking the majority of the food and claiming the leftovers). can someone throw a little help my way? i've been feeling hopeless with this situation and it's been very difficult doing anything because i am not sure how much longer we can last like this

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THOUGHT AND MEMORY! KAMEN RIDER KJALAR

so, here's a fun little rider form for tsumuri from me that i've been cooking in my mind for a bit.

navigator riders use lesser vision drivers (don't have admin permissions for behind the scenes stuff, but when a navigator rider is required they have full permissions for the game area only) and serve as "bridges" between admin and players, so their looks are intermediary from admin riders and player riders and are styled after psychopomp figures as in the situations in which the navigator is required to transform she must play the role of leading the players through the depths of hell

tsumuri's navigator rider form, kjalar, receives one of the names of odin, which doubles as a play on "karasu". she is styled after valkyries, odin, and ravens.

#self reblog #gonna start doing these in my quest to become less ashamed of existing

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THOUGHT AND MEMORY! KAMEN RIDER KJALAR

so, here's a fun little rider form for tsumuri from me that i've been cooking in my mind for a bit.

navigator riders use lesser vision drivers (don't have admin permissions for behind the scenes stuff, but when a navigator rider is required they have full permissions for the game area only) and serve as "bridges" between admin and players, so their looks are intermediary from admin riders and player riders and are styled after psychopomp figures as in the situations in which the navigator is required to transform she must play the role of leading the players through the depths of hell

tsumuri's navigator rider form, kjalar, receives one of the names of odin, which doubles as a play on "karasu". she is styled after valkyries, odin, and ravens.

#i hadn't intended for this to be a booby design it's just that oh these early valkyries are naked naked #anyway! nice to be back :3 #bluesart #kamen rider #kamen rider geats #tsumuri

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hey, here's an update post after over 2 months of silence.

i've been. horrible. i've been extremely sick most of this year (you might remember the commissions suspension post from before, i've actually gotten worse) and i did not get better at all after starting to treat my pcos earlier this year and after further investigation it turns out it's. not really my body poisoning me that's doing the whole horrible sick thing. i'm just living in an untenable abusive situation where i'm starved and psychologically tortured to the point my body can't keep me alert and functioning anymore. my entire allowance is spent on meds (and doesn't cover all of them) so i can't just feed myself as i'd like, even if i enjoy cooking for myself. i hate living like this. i haven't had energy to do a single thing i like for months and yet i'm still told i just want to be sick so i can avoid doing anything useful.

i guess i just wanted. to let that out a bit because it's been really rough for me coming to terms with all of this. and i guess maybe if you've appreciated what i've done over the years and would like to send a cheer for that, i decided to stop being ashamed and put my ko-fi link in the pinned (global north currencies go a REALLY long way here so like. don't worry).

i've been working on stuff again and maybe i should have art to post within the week, but don't hold me on it as you know things are... difficult. anyway, lots of love, i hope to be posting regularly again at some point

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darktober 1: technorganic

#bluesart #darktober #beroba #kamen rider #kamen rider geats #premium beroba #kamen rider beroba #don't mind how long it'll take me to actually go thru the prompts

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what if we kissed in our tacky pink rider suits and we're both bats

#everyone knows bats are gay but did you know they're also lesbian? really makes you think #kamen rider #kamen rider revice #kamen rider live #kamen rider evil #igarashi daiji #kagerou #bluesart

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send your regards to the chained goddess inside your tv

#bluesart #kamen rider #kamen rider geats #ukiyo ace #i've been working on this for almost two months...

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lil last minute prompt list cobbled together from looking at existing lists and some personal insights on what i want to draw/write

feel free to use it too and remix it as it suits you

#very fun to be in an evil mood at 35°C ngl #will i be able to keep to it? who knows! mostly i just want to draw more #bc if i don't then my arm gets fucky #october art challenge #prompt list #darktober 2023 #blueposts

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i am BORED and currently working on art that's taking me a little too long despite being rewarding so pls gimme toku suits to draw some stress relief pinups of

#the standard warning of i will girl your guy applies #blueposts

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rider girl live

just bc i've been obsessed with rider girl designs lately

#probably not a very good design lol but it's a first pass #kamen rider #kamen rider revice #kamen rider live #magical girl #bluesart

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machine uprising chic

#bluesart #there was a second part but i'm ironically suffering from heat exhaustion and can't finish it #ultraman #alien cannan

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red mammal main rider insane transfem swag crack ship just because i got the urge. you're welcome (?)

#things that appeal to me only i suppose. but imagine #kamen rider #kamen rider kiva #kamen rider geats #ukiyo ace #kurenai wataru #ace ukiyo #wataru kurenai #bluesart

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mixed type monster girl poll winner: sononi

#this one is sfw so it goes on this blog #sononi #avataro sentai donbrothers #donbrothers #super sentai #bluesart