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barnie11 · 2 years
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I want to be me again. I want to feel right. But being a person is an ever moving place and time. And every place I get to, the older I get, the more I feel crushed and nothing like me. I want to be me. But is that the me I was when I was with them? Not knowing that they were hurting me. They probably didn’t know they were hurting me. Molding my brain so it were dependent on them. The me before them is so alien and distant now. But they took my sweetness I had then. They took my care free willingness to love and be loved. I feel robbed of a part of me.
But what is me? Is it what they want me to be? Or what I am now?
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barnie11 · 2 years
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New Blog!
Hello everyone… very long time since I’ve seen you all!
But, those who miss my daily stims or a place to share their own, I have new blog for just that!
https://goodstimoftheday.tumblr.com/
I hope to get to know all of you again and meet some new people too!
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barnie11 · 2 years
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PLEASE REBLOG!
My food has been restricted since September 2021 and I have not had regular income since 2018, when the government stopped my PIP and I was let go from my job for being trans. Please help me have food regularly and be able to buy a binder as my current one has broken!
https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/barnie22
https://ko-fi.com/idontevenlikecoffee
Please please reblog and donate if you can!
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barnie11 · 2 years
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Please Reblog!
Hey everyone, just some blog tidying:
If you want to follow a stimmy blog by me, try @goodstimoftheday​
If you want to help me afford food (my food is being restricted and has been since September) and my hormones, I have an Etsy and a Ko-fi
I no longer use this blog, but it isn’t going anywhere, in case there is a day I am at peace and can use it again <3
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barnie11 · 3 years
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Hey everyone
I don’t think I am going to return to tumblr after all. I’ve been doing a bit better since taking my break and I think its best if I don’t really come back.
I’m thinking of carrying on the odd fun side blog I have but I don’t know.
I hope you all understand, I’m not going to be deleting anything, I just think this is the best thing for my mental health.
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barnie11 · 3 years
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Hey everyone, I’ve decided I’m going to be taking a break from here and instagram. I don’t know how long for, but I hope to get back to writing my stories more, working on my grimoire again and just generally having more time in the day when I’m not using or thinking about social media, I think it will be healthy.
I don’t know exactly when I will be back but I will BE BACK, hopefully before June, but we’ll see. ‘Till then, stay safe, stay magical, stay stimmy <3
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barnie11 · 3 years
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Please draw a purple frog! Its a species of frog that has the cutest derpy face
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day 449
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barnie11 · 3 years
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Today’s Beautiful Sleeping Pobblebonk (holding on tightly to her Special Rock) is Bonk!
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barnie11 · 3 years
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This morning I finally got a very shitty letter from the gender clinic, going back on everything that was said previously.
I am tired. So tired.
They broke their promise like the GP did, they deem investigating whether I have NCAH unnecessary and they are pushing back when I’ll get on hormones.
I feel like I have nowhere to turn to, I want to leave tumblr, instagram, my etsy shop, everything and just hide. I feel so ashamed, I’m so sorry 18 year old me, I’m so sorry we won’t get on hormones to post 23, I know we have been on list as long as you’ve been out, its not fair, I know.
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barnie11 · 3 years
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femme4fem and butch4masc sapphic couples <3
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barnie11 · 3 years
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i want bi women in lgbt spaces.
yes, even the ones with boyfriends. yes, even the ones who’ve never been with a woman.
yes, i’d love to hear them gush about their boyfriends! i want them to be able to talk freely and feel safe!! even if i can’t relate i want to support my sisters!!!!
excluding bis because you don’t want “het” relationships in your spaces just isolates them and puts them at risk for abuse!!!!
they deserve support and resources and acceptance no matter what.
bisexual women belong in lgbt spaces!!!
terfs/transmeds/biphobes choke
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barnie11 · 3 years
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hey i know this is late bc holocaust remembrance day was yesterday and i frgot to post but fuck it i need money really bad. can y’all pls help a jew out i’m unemployed and need to move out of an abusive home for the sake of my mental health and for a safe transition
if u donate more than $10 i’ll probably draw something for u just dm me proof that u sent it and we can work out some details
paypal
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venmo
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barnie11 · 3 years
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Chameleon
[ Patreon / twitter / insta / galaxy themes / shop ]
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barnie11 · 3 years
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Only one more day!
I haven’t sold anything unforunately which is a shame :/
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Stock Clearance Sale NOW ON!
40% off selected items! Only until 31st January so get shopping!
🐚 The Hermit Crab Junk Journal was £20, now £12 🍰 Vintage Cookery Junk Journal was £20, now £12 💜 Purple Crystal scrap pack was 75p, now 45p 💎 Crystals and Rocks Junk journal was £19.75, now £11.85 🦆 Bird Junk Journal was £25, now £15 �� Plant Illustrations (Primrose, Wood Sorrel and Butterwort) was £1, now 60p 🌼 Flower-y Mushroom badge was £4.50, now £2.70 🍄 Tawny Top Mushroom badge was £4.50, now £2.70
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barnie11 · 3 years
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barnie11 · 3 years
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might just mess around and reclaim my human worth as intrinsic instead of defined by my productivity
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barnie11 · 3 years
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Tiny enjoys a very relaxing Eyeball and Jaw massage from Gumby on the hand!
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