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@crowsung​ said: “Who did this?” miguel & cristobal ii

cristobal is sitting in the car, his face toward the window. he doesn’t want to look at his father. he doesn’t want to explain the blooming bruise around his right eye. the metallic taste of blood in his mouth from the busted lip he’s also sported. he doesn’t want to answer, in truth he wants to go home so that he can put peas from the fridge onto his eye and lay in bed. but instead, his dad was asking questions. ‘ it doesn’t matter, ‘ he almost whispers to the other in the front seat. he knew his father might think the reason for the fight was childish. sure, two men getting into a fight over a girl wasn’t new but his father wouldn’t approve. he’s sure of it. sure, cristobal himself thought it was a chivalrous act, but his father would have probably thought it foolish instead. ‘ i just wanna forget it. it isn’t a big deal. it was just a dumb fight. ’ teeth clench, he'll get that asshole back. he just doesn't need his dad to know he's already planning his own form of revenge.

#mryellowraincoat #crowsung #; don’t you know i’m only trying to disappear (cristobal ii + interactions)

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  @crowsung​  said: i sure fucked those up, didn’t i? /angel & felipe

a tired sigh leaves his mouth. sure, often times he’s blunt. perhaps even harsh. but today he’s tired. tired, and perhaps realized that being harsh wasn’t going to help the situation with angel. so instead, he reaches a hand out. a hand to pat his sons back. ‘ yeah, but don’t we all sometimes..fuck things up. ’ a new tactic. felipe was trying to learn to give his kid the support he needed. to talk to him, less like a stranger and more like a son. ‘ mi hijo, mistakes are a part of life but the sacrifices you make to fix those mistakes are also, of course, a part of life as well. ’ a small circular motion begins as he speaks. ‘ now it’s your responsibility to fix the things you fucked up. no matter how hard that might be. you’ll always have your family here, even if it’s harder than you imagined. ’

#; here’s my ticket and i want to go home (felipe + interactions) #[ angel reyes —— bitteredpast. ] #i UH think i tagged that right #papa reyes being? sweet ish #bitteredpast #i tagged it that way too

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So I'm making a post i never wanted to. But be warned before reading further that abuse will be mentioned.

Today, my father phsyically assaulted me. For the second time. He proceeded to attack me from behind, tried to throw me in the floor. When i turned around, he began hitting me in the face. I, of course, struggles back out of panic and he ended up choking me into a corner where i lost my footing and ended up on the floor. Someone called the cops, probably my neighbors who could hear him screaming at me. The cops came but my mother made me lie and pretend i was okay.

This is whrte the post becomes what i wish i didnt have to talk about. Covid forced closed the place i worked and it still isnt open again. I have NO money to get out of my abusive home and i have three cats. I'll need to rent somewhere that's pet friendly and of course search for a new job because my town is small and i dont feel safe moving into another place in my hometown. I intend to move to another town without my fathers knowledge of where i am.

For once, im asking for help. If anyone could im if they want to donate to my escape fun, please feel free. Ill give you my paypal or cashapp. I dont feel safe here, he's threatened to kill me multiple times and im afraid. I'm horribly afraid, even though it makes me feel ashamed to admit that. I am. Anything would help. Even friends who might just let me ramble about what im going through. Please know its hard for me to reach out for help and talk about this but i have no options. I love all of you guys i follow, and i just needed to reach out this time.

#abuse tw #tw abuse #this is my other account #today has been so hard

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if anyone in the soa rp community needs screencaps of any character, from any season, lemme know. i have screencaps from all the seasons so i can legit compile a zip file for you.

#; no shiz sherlock (ooc) #soa rp

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*chants* SHIP WITH ME SHIP WITH ME SHIP WITH ME

#; no shiz sherlock (ooc)

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nsfw prompts that don’t sound like a bad porno

i’m always tired of seeing the cringiest sentence starters for smut so i’m back at it again kids. feel free to adjust sentences or specify who does the action. 

ACTIONS: 1. for one muse to give the other oral 2. to skinny dip with my muse 3. to shower with my muse 4. to take a hot bath with my muse 5. for sex in public 6. for sex in the car 7. to catch my muse naked 8. to undress my muse 9. for sparring to turn into sex 10. for an argument to turn into sex 11. for make up sex 12. for friends with benefits sex 13. to tie up my muse 14. to blindfold my muse 16. to make one muse watch the other masturbate 17. for a threesome (specify muses) 18. for one muse to wake the other by fingering them/giving a handjob 19. for one muse to deny the other orgasm 20. for angry sex  21. for break up sex 22. for sex after a near death experience  23. for after battle sex 24. for sex to get revenge on an ex 25. for one muse to give the other a lap dance or strip tease  26. to make my muse whimper 27. for one muse to take the other from behind 28. for sex against the wall 29. for sex on a table/counter/desk 30. for sex in a pool/hot tub 31. for one muse to choke the other 32. for rough sex  33. for our muses to try a new position 34. for our muses to try a new kink together 35. for one muse to use a toy on the other 36. for one muse to sit on the other’s face

WORDS:  “touch me.” “kiss me here.” “you have to be quiet if you want to cum.” “say my name.”  “oh fuck-” “i need you so bad.” “i’m so wet right now.”  “i want you to touch yourself for me.”  “let me hear you, baby.”  “come for me.” “i want to hear you cum.” “harder.” “i need to feel you.” “i want you.” “you’re so hot.” “can i come yet?” “please, baby—” “i’m so close.” “i told you to be quiet.” “i told you to stay still.” “are you gonna be good for me?” “i promise i’ll be good.” “i’m not done with you yet.” “i’ve been waiting all day…” “you’re all i want.” “just kiss me, i can’t take this anymore.” “just shut up and fuck me.”  “i’m gonna fuck you until you beg me to stop.”  “say please.” “i could’t stop thinking about you all day.” “your fingers feel so good.” “your mouth feels so good.” “i want your fingers inside me.” “i want it to hurt.” “more—” “i want you to forget everything and everyone else but me.” “make me forget.” “i just want to feel something.”  “make me.” “be quiet.”  “they’re gonna catch us—” “yes— right there.” “that feels so good.” “does that feel good?” 

#; one of you will betray me (memes) #uh i dont have any real ships yet #but plz Send me some of these

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#; i don’t even sleep yeah i’m wide awake (thomas ii + visage)

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I'm on mobile, about to take a nap but i have a question

How do people look at all of the male characters in sons of anarchy and go ' oh yeah these guys are STRAIGHT ' bitch where???? WHERE

Half of them are At least bisexual dont even Play me like that? They are Not straight and i said what i said

#; no shiz sherlock (ooc)

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❥     𝐕𝐈𝐎𝐋𝐄𝐍𝐓  𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄   𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍   𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒   .

another meme inspired by devotedecay’s format !     tw  for  violence, blood, mature themes. send  in  one  of  these  for  my  muse’s  reaction  to  … (  add  ❝  reverse  ❞   if  you’d  like  to  see  how  my  muse  would  preform  the  action  !  )

[ deck ]   your muse decking mine in the face.

[ punch ]   your muse punching mine anywhere / or specify.

[ pin ]   your muse forcibly pinning my muse beneath them.

[ straddle ]   your muse forcing mine to the ground and straddling them.

[ scratch ]   your muse raking mine with their nails / claws.

[ bite ]   your muse biting mine.

[ turn ]   your muse rolling from beneath to atop my muse.

[ wall ]   your muse pinning mine against a wall.

[ snarl ]   your muse snarling / growling at mine.

[ curse ]   your muse cursing at / cursing mine out.

[ tug ]   your muse gripping mine’s hair.

[ kick ]   your muse kicking mine anywhere / or specify.

[ point + gun ]   your muse holding mine at gun point.

[ point + knife ]   your muse holding mine at knife point.

[ mock ]   your muse mocking mine.

[ sweep ]   your muse knocking mine off their feet.

[ grab ]   your muse grabbing mine forcibly.

[ shoot ]   your muse shooting my muse anywhere / or specify.

[ stab ]   your muse stabbing my muse anywhere / or specify.

[ break ]   your muse breaking any of mine’s bones / or specify.

[ strangle ]   your muse choking mine out.

[ shove ]   your muse shoving mine forcibly.

[ bruise ]   your muse making mine bruise.

[ under ]   your muse shoving mine underwater.

[ attempt ]   your muse attempting to kill mine.

[ bare ]   your muse baring their teeth at mine.

[ threaten ]   your muse threatening mine.

[ spit ]   your muse making mine spit blood.

[ bleed ]   your muse making mine bleed.

[ burn ]   your muse burning mine.

[ corner ]   your muse cornering mine.

[ throat ]   your muse wrapping a hand around mine’s throat.

[ challenge ]   your muse challenging mine.

[ cut ]   your muse cutting mine.

#; one of you will betray me (memes)

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Send “Who did this?” for your muse to discover my muse with a black eye or a busted lip

#; one of you will betray me (memes)

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            FEMALE MUSES ARE VALID TOO.           just a little psa to let all of you know that          if you don’t even bother replying to a female muse’s starter       or are only interested in writing with         male muses           then you honestly need to check yourself.          for muns with a multi - muse who’s female muses get ignored       ,     it’s discouraging.         female muses deserve good and awesome plots just like male muses.       female muses deserve emotional plots like male muses do.          female muses aren’t just here to fill up a void.         female muses are valid too          and it’s time for people to realise and respect that.

#; no shiz sherlock (ooc) #i Love female muses please give me all your female muses

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PERMANENT STARTER CALL FOR SEMI-CANON CHARACTER, CRISTOBAL GALINDO II, FROM MAYANS MC.

if you have a multi please specify which muse you would like the starter for.

#; no shiz sherlock (ooc)

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PERMANENT STARTER CALL FOR CANON CHARACTER, FELIPE REYES, FROM MAYANS MC.

if you have a multi please specify which muse you would like the starter for.

#; no shiz sherlock (ooc)

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PERMANENT STARTER CALL FOR CANON CHARACTER, ERIC MILES , FROM SONS OF ANARCHY UNIVERSE

if you have a multi please specify which muse you would like the starter for.

#; no shiz sherlock (ooc)

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charmingkat·:

Oddly enough, the throwback vibe didn’t really phase her. But then she had grown up with John Teller. Hippie extraordinaire. To the point where, one of her last real memories of her dad was him sitting up with her during that first “moon cycle” – offering her pot and talking about the great mysteries of life and the passage of time. So needless to say, Zeppelin was always a welcome choice for music around the garage and/or clubhouse. 

“If he busts anyone’s chops, it’s gonna be mine. And if that happens I’ll just sic my mother on him. We all need to eat, after all…” Can’t deprive his favorite (okay, only) stepdaughter of food now can he?

Reaching out for the pad and the menu, she prepared to call their order in. 

in the background, atticus is busy tapping his fingers on the filing cabinet in something akin to happy energy. food. one of atticus’ favorite things. food, his lizard, peace and quiet. all the essentials he needed to enjoy his life. and the last one was a constant source of arguments with his brother. who needed to have a party every other night? don’t get atticus wrong. an occasional basher wasn’t a horrible idea but he did need sleep. asher was always fueled by something. drugs maybe or coffee or both.

‘ listen, everyone's afraid of your mom so that just might work.’ gemma was always pretty kind to him and asher but he’d seen her get pissed off at many a man in the sons. and atticus knew he didn’t want to be on the receiving end of that rage ever. fingers slide into his back pocket, double checking that his stash hasn’t disappeared. ‘ after lunch, wanna take a little smoke break? ’

#charmingkat #; burnt so many bridges got nowhere to go (atticus + interactions) #drug mention tw #tw drug mention

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atticus is my actual son okay. no one will ever know how much i love him and asher ah. my sweet dumpster fire sons.

#; no shiz sherlock (ooc)

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@crowsung​ said: do what makes you happy. /i forgot marisol & felipe oops

felipe wasn’t entirely sure if this counted as a fight or not. but the tone in marisol’s voice told him her word were laced with some passive aggressiveness. the familiar background noise of angel playing with his toys on the living room floor innocently mirrored the conversation between the two. however, he know marisol was pregnant and hormones are, for a lack of a better word, a bitch. perhaps he’d just caught her in a bad mood. he sits the fruit he’d bought from the local market down, shuffling across the kitchen. ‘ come on mi amor, let’s not think about plans right now. lets just enjoy our evening..’ sure, he’s procrastinating on decisions. but that doesn’t mean his idea isn’t valid. marisol could use a little relaxation, plus whatever she had in the pot on the stove smelled amazing. he wouldn’t risk looking though, only for her to get annoyed at him for messing with her dinner. he however, did sidle up behind her. a hand moving slowly to her stomach, only to feel for the occasional kick she told him had started lately. ‘ i make my choices to keep all of us happy, especially you. ‘

#; here’s my ticket and i want to go home (felipe + interactions) #mamasdearest