beyondwordsandworlds

[beyondwordsandworlds]

Steadily approaching dreams, you are loved with every step I take

[beyondwordsandworlds]

These last few days, you have crossed my mind many times over. Be well angel and know I will always love you. I am still progressing on my path, progressing I am as well. Slowly surly, I’ve have been fine tuning the man I will end up as. Even I notice a great change from within myself. Or rather a return to stature. Time is a funny concept, but so is life for that matter. But my grasp and balance between everything is much more present. That’s the best feeling these days, being rational and calm enough to approach everything with a solution. I’ve always been a problem solver, never was one to give up. I’d find the solution till it drove me mad. Maybe looking until I go mad wasn’t the best. But that dogged determination was, many things have been restored. But there is more I still have to reclaim before I am will be that man. Ever closer though. Ever closer .. ♾

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I’ll love you for infinity

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If anyone deserve soft things and happy days, it’s you. I hope those days have found you fairy 💛☀️ no need for concern, just a passing thought. I hope you’re in a safe place sweetheart. (My mind is healthier than it’s ever been, still) let’s hope that’s the same for you. You are what is amazing is

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it’s been awhile .. but I love you and that’ll never change 💛 I’m sure you have a lot of love in your life, you’re so wonderful triple b. But you will always have mine as well

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Life’s still moving .. the days pass by and I’m happy with life. That’s a bit strange to accept still. But I’m okay, I love you obviously. So much. But life is well, I’m well. I guess I came on today cause I got some exciting news. Starting in November I might be the assistant coach of the local youth basketball team here. Ages 9-12 kinda. Will go for my background check and everything soon. So just hoping the role pans on. Been thinking a lot lately .. been doing a lot. Just things are starting to makes sense. Life is starting to make more sense. My new motto in life; Assess, dissect and then interject. You look at a situation, you break down the components and then when you’ve spotted the mark. You swoop in and remove the cause of the issue and implant a new pattern or cycle. It’s very rare you get these moments. For everyone they happen many times, but to locate to precise time when you can actually interject the change. It’s a hard process .. and then even if you are able to safely interject, there is follow ups. Positive plans to put into place to keep the new habit growing. Anyways … I’ve been thinking a lot. I’ve been doing a lot. And my moral compass has brought me to the kids once again. I think I can have great success with them. To kids, I’m like the coolest ever they idolize me. And if I can teach them some great core values and train them to be better athletes are the same time. Well sign me up. It’ll be 2 days a week. Probably Tuesday and Thursdays after school. I’m excited hehehe I love you 💛 of course a day never goes by where I don’t think of you

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Thinking about you sweetheart .. 💛 I’ll love you for eternity

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Alive/reborn/living; take your pick. I am ending cycles just like I dreamed of doing with you. Just because we are apart doesn’t mean we can’t still share that dream sweetheart. I hope you are ending cycles as well, and growing.. hard to believe you could grow into someone more beautiful than you already are. But, I wouldn’t put that level of growth past you. You define amazing. Some things transcend time.. I love you always 💛

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Life keeps moving, days pass by and I grow. Tonight you’re on my mind.. I just hope your well. That’s what matter more than anything is that you’re well. That life is kind and gentle to you. I love you 💛 sunshine ☀️

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Slowly I’ve been gaining my own respect .. I look myself in the eyes everyday now. Then soul me and I have a little chuckle and smile and go about our day. My love for you never fades. I say your name every day. And that’s not a hindrance on my life. You are who you are to me. It is a strength to have known you and to always know you. I’m doing well.. you’re always in my mind and close at heart. 💛

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I loooooovvee youuuu!! 💛 sweet dreams little fairy baby

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Hiiiii!! Little life update, I love you so much sweetheart!!! 💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛 

I ended up catching Covid from nonna, and we were both pretty sick there for awhile. I’ve been pretty much better for 4 days now. Just needed a little me time after that to recover and get back on track. My mind turned against me a bit while I was sick. But I’m back.. and better than ever honestly. Nonna is still recovering. It was a bit touch and go. She just needed to get back home to my cooking hehe. But yeah, no need to worry there. I love you !! Like a lot. I’m done upgrading for the summer now. No more school.. in the fall I will start courses again hehe. But yeah, going to take a couple weeks to relax and work some part time shifts here and there are the “chemist” hehe. 

But yeah, things are getting better again. My mind has improved so much it’s crazy. Almost 1pm and I’ve already been out to climb a mountain with the poochy hehehe. But yeah. That’s why you haven’t heard from me. Just was very sick and busy and then needed to take a little me time. You always stressed that. And I’ve been doing that much more often. My mind is fresh and awake.. I’m awake. But still. No matter how good things are. You are always on my mind little. My baby. Rest easy tonight, I am okay. I love you more than words and worlds could ever explain. Around every fucking one of Jupiter’s moons and back again. My triple b. I love youuuuuuuuuuuu!! 💛

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One of my new favourite hobbies is definitely bird watching, I just find it so peaceful. Someday I’ll take my lunch and pack a lunch for the birds as well. I’ll just sit there in the park bench eating my sandwich and drinking my iced tea hehe. I’ll give the birds some bread and seeds. It’s the cutest when they come and eat right next to me on the bench with me. Whittle birdies and whittle B. Would be perfect 🥺 but really, it’s so fascinating watching these birds. You relent start to learn about their social dynamic and infrastructure they work around. Which birds have power .. which follow and avoid others. I don’t let them get feisty though or they don’t get food. Lunch time we all share ☺️ I love you my girl, to all of Jupiter’s moons and back 

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I love you so much.. sweet beautiful little baby 💛 you’re always my favourite. Always you hehe. Have an amazing day My sunshine ☀️

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Manifest manifest manifest manifest 

Finally it’s coming back.. I dreamed last night. Of a place I’ve yet to be, but a place I know I will end up at. A glimpse .. a glimpse into the future or a possible future. A remind. A compass. A peak at what’s to be. Visions return .. I’m alive once again. I’m alive. Voices, faces. Scenery and memories. Awake with it all again. Closer to peace. Closer to reach. It’s we who decide choices with our hands. I will forge ahead. Always. Hehehe I’m alive. I love you, so dearly. Everyday I am thankful to love you. Sorry it took me so long to rise. There will always be a time. A time for everything. I’ll make the time I’m looking for 

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just got home from footyball heheh. Early was out with my nephews again, we went out to play some frisbee golf. Might have broken my knuckle hahaha. on the follow throw I smacked the back on my hand so hard into the tree. Its all swollen and me popped blood vessels 😶‍🌫️😶‍🌫️ anyways, I love you!! im healthier all around. I got this and no ones resolve is stronger than mine at this point. There will be the right time for everything. “The shift” except this time Im not just waiting for it. ive watched; now ill make my mark. I love love love you ! only you will truly know what i mean and i like it thay way. im going to get a little ride in before bed. Baby B 💛

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Huge day out today, phew!! I am actually so exhausted. Took my nephews out to the lake and we went kayaking! Atlas was so happy to be in the same kayak as me. He honestly was stuck to my like glue the entire day. At one point I had like 8 random kids playing down at the beach with me. They seem to just flock to me like they have known me forever. Bunch of parents and such asked if it was fine and I said yeah it’s cool hahah. Basically was like my own daycare at the beach. Got some really nice photos of the mountains as well. It was a really awesome day. I wish you could have been there with us my love. I love you more than anything or anyone. You’re my favourite ever. I am completely in love with you 💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛