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"how can you like this objectively bad thing!" because i have bad taste. move on.

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I am obSESSed with maximus. because he's like a good guy and a bad guy all at once?

he's a victim he's a murderer he believes people in power should hold themselves accountable he's out for himself, but he's selfless, he's a cynic he's a believer he knows how to deal with cannibals he can survive the wasteland, he fundamentally doesn't seem to understand what sex is

#fallout

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im noticing that for a lot of americans “free palestine” has been an ideological motto and symbol rather than them actually believing in their heart that freedom is attainable and necessary

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finished fallout show!!

#(: #need s2 expiditiously

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rise, lesbians!

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things people have done to help me during a psychoses episode

i was on the buss and i hallucinated bugs crawling all over my hands, so my friend pulled my hoodie sleeves over them with permission and held my hands through the sleeves to "keep them off". they used the logic you would in a real bug situation.

i went nonverbal in a bad one in class, so my friend wrote me a note to give to the nurse since the teacher wouldn't let her go with me.

i often am very paranoid about the delusion that meat is actually rotten, so my dad will sometimes eat a bit of it before me

instead of telling me my delusions arent real, they help me through it using logic like it was real. they dont tell me that nothings going to hurt me in my sleep, they stay with me to keep me safe. then when it passes i can realize its not real

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Chappell Roan - Coachella 2024

#she hit the mother plane into the world serve center and hit the cuntagon #chappell roan

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#free palestine

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can we just have, like, any feminist movement whatsoever. did everyone just stop caring?

#!!!!

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sharp objects is legitimately one of the most devastating and ugly things i’ve ever read/seen. i think about it all the time. it changed my brain chemistry. i love it. it’s so viscerally violently girl. we need more grimdoomtradgedy media that explores female pain and trauma and violence that gets passed down from mother to daughter without it revolving around men. i don’t really remember any book/show that i’ve read/seen that has gone as far as this one did, and been so unapologetic about it without holding back for fear or being controversial or disturbing or having female characters, specifically protagonists, that are unlikeable and not heroic and still make you root for them and feel all the ugly awful things they feel.

#!! #sharp objects

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The straight woman is unsatisfied with straight studio porn. She wants to get off to something in which the actors actually emote and show passion beyond canned moans from the women and, at best, vacant grunts from the men. She turns to gay porn. She knows it's not "for her," but neither was the straight porn, and at least the actors look like they're enjoying themselves. And for a short while she is satiated by Sean Cody et al, but she runs into the same problems she had to begin with. She was not looking at sex but a simulacrum of sex, trapped in Plato's cave. Unsatisfied, she turned to vintage gay porn, harkening to a time when most gay bars still had darkrooms and reliably smelled of piss and Amyl Nitrite. Here was the real thing, in all its animalistic passion. But she still couldn't immerse herself in the fantasy. She wanted the media to engage with her own imagination and meet her half-way, rather than having it spoonfed to her onscreen. She turned to yaoi, with its elongated figures reminiscent of mannerist portraiture, then bara, including hardcore BDSM scenes. But the tactile sensations depicted in the pages didn't do justice to their real life counterparts. She turned deeper into her own imagination, this time reading erotica. No, not the poolside paperbacks sold at Barnes and Noble. The good shit. Why then, was she still not satisfied? She dug deeper, searching for the true meaning of eroticism. She studied the psychoanalysis of Freud, the cultural criticism of Susan Sontag, the feminist poetry of Audre Lorde. She took vacation time and flew to Europe, starting at the caves of Lascaux to explore the human urge to create, then traversed the Camino de Santiago on foot, along the way meeting a 56 year old carpenter from Burgos named Andrés, with whom she had an explosive affair. They both knew it couldn't last, which made them cherish each other's touch all the more. Upon flying home, she gave up. If her search for true eroticism never bore fruit this whole time, why would it now? It would take years before she stumbled upon the answer by pure happenstance: dubstep.

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If I was unemployed I would be doing things like this allllllllllllllllllllllllll of the time

#employed and i still do this

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i love being a hater of media that i’ve never seen or listened to. no i will not give it a chance. it’s called listening to my heart

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We ask your questions so you don’t have to! Submit your questions to have them posted anonymously as polls.

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Cinematography by Jack Cardiff Black Narcissus (1947) A Matter of Life and Death (1946) The Red Shoes (1948) Pandora and the Flying Dutchman (1951)

#hot

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television history

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#size and genre