bishopknight0517

[bishopknight0517]

Hellbound

To the bitch that acted like she loved me and pretended she was grateful to be my first love just to scam me out of my money. Congrats, there’s a fiery place deep inside of Hell that awaits both of us. I’ll gladly sell my soul to whichever Devil you desire, to be your tormentor for the rest of eternity. You’ve robbed me not only of my money but any hope of finding true love in this god forsaken world. Fuck you bitch. I’ll be seeing you later when we both end up in Hell. You’ve successfully tainted my soul

#tired of this shit #hellbound #yes #i am going insane #you will pay #for all of your crimes #I’ll make sure of it #even if it kills me #and I have to give up on everything #including any happiness #that I might find after this life

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I can’t tell if it’s night or day

It’ll get better, or at least that’s what they say

They…

They don’t know that I’m at my wits end and beginning to fray

They don’t know that my wrist cry into the sink

I’m a man but if I tell them how I feel, my gender changes and my genitals turn pink

I can’t see the future, only the past

Those thoughts will probably be my last

Plagued with voices

The trauma that I had to endure without any choices

I need help

But all I find is a continuous hell

#original poems #original poetry #poems by me #poemsbyme #short poetry #sad poetry #sad poem #short poems #dark poems #mens mental health

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My Friend

Where did you go

I thought we were bros

Helping each other out

Living in the same house

Our traumas brought us closer

We always talked about wanting closure

After we said goodbye with a smile

We kept in contact for a while

Always wanting to catch up

Plans always got snagged and hung up

I’m sorry if it feels like I abandoned you

Like a love one not responding after you told them what you’ve been through

I’m truly sorry for not being there

Just give me a sign that you’re here somewhere

I can’t sleep at night because I wake up to tears running like a waterfall onto my sheets

I’m on my knees

I feel so weak

I feel like I could’ve been the help that you needed to seek

Like we used to do on the floor

For an hour or four

So many awesome memories flood my head

And it kills me to think that you might be dead

If God exists

why does he punish people like this

I just want to hear from my friend again

It’s been 8 months and the last 2 has been constantly trying to contact him

I just want to see my friend again

(Fuck I cried three separate times writing this. So many fond memories. I just hope he’s alive)

#original poems #original poetry #poems by me #poemsbyme #short poetry #poetry #sad poem #sad poetry #i just hope #he’s alive #poets of tumblr

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When one heart stops

A string snaps apart and another heart drops

#original poems #original poetry #poems by me #poemsbyme #short poetry #short poems #dark poems #dark poetry

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Falling

I continue to fall with no parachute

There’s nothing I can do

I look around and I don’t see anyone

Just the voices in my head in a singular tone

You can’t stop what’s coming it’s inevitable

You’re like a piece of food under the couch, inedible

Nobody wants you and everyone treats you like trash

The only joy you get is when you’re high of the hash

Fantasies quickly turn to torture

Knowing that fantasies are too high in the clouds and you’ll constantly falling lower

Mind games with demons

Fallin’ and Screamin’

Reaching out

Hoping the someone will be there to erase all of your doubt

When you realize that there’s no way to cushion your demise

The earth moves six feet down and a stone starts to rise

It’s strange

Maybe I’m just deranged

But when I slammed into the ground

It sounded like a hammer hitting a casing of a round

#original poems #original poetry #poems by me #poemsbyme #short poetry #short poems #dark poems #dark poetry #new poets society

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I just want to blow out my fucking brain

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Deepest part of my hell

Like a piece is missing from a dust covered puzzle on a shelf

You’ll be ignored and see others around you find love but you won’t, not even in yourself

Cold and lonely is your fate

The next day is your only date

Intertwined by fate and while destiny leaves you confused

A stamp in your mind “used and abused”

You’ll have friends but no connections

You’ll avoid any deep reflections

Seeing that there’s only more and more of the same

A body without a name

#original poems #original poetry #poems by me #poemsbyme #short poetry #short poems #dark poems #dark poetry #my head is splitting into two

[bishopknight0517]

Alone life cycle

Empty

Empty and alone

Alone and cold

Cold and angry

Angry and jealous

Jealous and spiteful

Spiteful and sad

Sad and confused

Confused and angry

Angry and cold

Cold and alone

Alone and empty

#original poems #original poetry #poems by me #poemsbyme #short poetry #short poems #dark poems #dark poetry #sad poetry #sad poems

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Abuse

As the gator snaps at the turtle

The turtle hides in its shell

Scared and shaking, all the turtle can do is hope and pray

All the gator can think about is the prey

The gators strong grip surrounds the turtle

The turtle feels it’s shell start to crack as the pressure increases

The turtle cries and shouts in pain

But it falls on deaf ears as the gator shatters the protective shell of the turtle

#original poems #original poetry #poems by me #poemsbyme #short poetry #short poems #dark poems #dark poetry #tw abuse

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My (un)fair trade

Life: here’s your happiness, just sign here

Young and dumb me: sure thing

Life: you fool

Depression: you expected happiness in your life, but it was me… Depression!

Me: fuck

#but i hope this helps someone with depression #Dio meme #memes #meme #I’m out of control #depression memes

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A shot of poison

You can’t

You shan’t

I won’t allow it

I’m the wolf of this house little rabbit

You do what I say

You don’t get your way

Here take this shot

Why are you scared, it’s not a lot

I know what’s best for you

It’s not poison, remember I love you

You go away only to come running back into my claws

Adding more shots to your already codependent halls

The dark and narrow mind-set

Any opportunity that arises is locked away and forgotten about in a shed

Now seeing other options besides the poison

My codependent mind wants to stay safe but repent

Developing a personality

That hates family

I swear “I’m doing this because I love you”

Is the worst because I can’t tell if it’s true

#original poems #original poetry #poems by me #poemsbyme #short poetry #short poems #dark poems #dark poetry

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The dying tree

Another mark in the bark

Another reminder

Four short perfectly spaced cuts taking up the entirety of the block going from top to bottom

The tree looks unhappy as the block cries out in pain

Seeing the lively past be torn apart by the horrible present

However

The tree is nothing but one leaf

Clinging onto life but secretly hoping for death

As one last long slice from the blade connecting all four cuts

The vein of the tree was struck

The wind blows one last time

Taking a single dying leaf with it

With nothing left to offer

The tree cries

But no one listens

#original poems #original poetry #poems by me #poemsbyme #short poetry #short poems #dark poems #dark poetry #tw self harm #depression #tw suicide

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Florida’s Scientific Journal Titles

Is dressing up for a BDSM session in front of the family, weird?

Does a rat get PTSD after being inside of a launching tube rocket?

Is there such a thing as too much cocaine?

How well do gators and meth mix?

Is diving into the Bass Pro Shop’s aquarium and grabbing fish by hand to eat, ethically allowed if I’m starving?

Is going to Petco and gathering animals to eat, considered hunting or stealing?

Does a firecracker really have enough force to blow my hand up?

#countryhumans #statehumans #funny #florida statehumans #statehuman florida #usa #Florida #for science

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Experiment and Experience

Florida lights up a firecracker

Florida: hmmm… I wonder…

Florida closes his hand and the firecracker goes off

Florida *chuckling at the mess he just made* : haha… firecracker, go boom

Florida’s head starts to swim, his vision also starts to blur, and he begins to stumble. He just lost most of his hand and is currently losing blood

Florida: I should probably go to the hospital…

#countryhumans #statehumans #florida statehumans #statehuman florida #florida #funny #loosely based on headline #florida man

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The Sun

We often look up in the sky

Wondering if we matter in the grand scheme of things

We find ourselves nothing but a speck on a floating rock

In a universe that has countless other solar systems and unfound life

It makes us feel small and insignificant when everything is considered

However

When we look at ourselves

We don’t consider that there’s a world that revolves around us

In a relationship or in a simple friendship

We are the sun that brings life to others

Or perhaps we are that little bit of shine that pushes away the clouds of a bad day

Sometimes though a supernova can happen without warning

That’s why people should check on each other

Because a supernova is devastating to witness and will have an effect on the planets around it

But it wouldn’t know

#original poems #original poetry #poems by me #poemsbyme #short poetry #short poems #happy poetry #happy poem #mental heath awareness #check up #on your friends

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A Friend

The moment was a surprise

A seed of your demise

Watering it with your own lies

As the tree grows

The shade starts to block the love of your life and the shine of your kids

Casting shade of doubt

Depression raining and weighing down on your mind like a never ending hurricane

Soon the loving house wouldn’t be the same

A cold wind blew late at night

Taking your soul but leaving your body on the ground after losing a prolonged fight

(A poem for my friend in my basic training flight 170. After six years, he lost his battle with depression. Leaving a wife and three young children behind)

#original poems #original poetry #poems by me #poemsbyme #short poetry #short poems #dark poems #dark poetry #miss you #bud #even though we didn’t talk much

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Living like the dead

The way that I live is the same as being dead

Suicide thoughts mixed with self hatred constantly swirl around in my head

When did I lose the sunlight

The shadows on the walls are impossible to continuously fight

Every night they dance around my room and sing

“For he is not who he claims to be, not complete”

Voices from the other side

Claiming that they know what I hide

As the fog rolls and blinds my eyes

I smile as my soul begins to rise

#original poems #original poetry #poems by me #poemsbyme #short poetry #short poems #dark poems #dark poetry