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bitchhhwithbpd · 5 hours ago
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if the effort isn’t there, neither am I
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bitchhhwithbpd · 5 hours ago
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"Hey why are you always quiet? "
I don't know... Maybe it's cause I have to rethink everything that comes out of my mouth so that my BPD won't be seen.
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bitchhhwithbpd · 4 days ago
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I want to peel out of my skin and mend all my torn pieces
Then maybe I'll love myself
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bitchhhwithbpd · 4 days ago
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I just one constant person, so that me and my BPD can base my entire life around
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bitchhhwithbpd · 4 days ago
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I want to kill myself
Not like death
But kill my past self and start a fresh. I want to erase my existence before now. I want a new slate, a new me without past traumas, baggage, past mistakes, past memories, past everything.
I want it to seem like I just came into existence
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bitchhhwithbpd · 6 days ago
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“When I say, I love you, it’s not because I want you or because I can’t have you. It has nothing to do with me. I love what you are, what you do, how you try. I’ve seen your kindness and your strength. I’ve seen the best and the worst of you. And I understand with perfect clarity exactly what you are.”
— Joss Whedon
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bitchhhwithbpd · 26 days ago
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Everything I do is for all of them. Nothing is for me, the person I fucking hate. Without their approval, I'll continue to destroy myself. If I'm going to continue disappointing them, I'm going to continue hurting myself.
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bitchhhwithbpd · 27 days ago
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i hope u find someone that mindlessly plays with your hands and lightly strokes your legs and massages your back and plays with your hair and i hope that u feel like you’re home when u look at them
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bitchhhwithbpd · 27 days ago
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I wished I never had abandonment issues, I tell all my friends and my wife that I am AFRAID to be abandoned. Everyone gets tired of the whole "Oh do you guys hate me." because I've been so mentally FUCKED!!! and TRAUMATIZED THAT IT MAKES ME SO MAD THAT I CRY!!!! And then? it all comes down to being empty again.
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bitchhhwithbpd · 27 days ago
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FUCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKK
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bitchhhwithbpd · 27 days ago
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I think the best part about having internet friends is when the person you're talking to goes suddenly quiet then reappears in the chat with either the single greatest or single most cursed image youve ever seen that they made themselves in 5 to 10 minutes
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bitchhhwithbpd · 27 days ago
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One thing about me
I'll always have my mini concerts
ALWAYS
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bitchhhwithbpd · a month ago
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bitchhhwithbpd · a month ago
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“Deep in my heart I know I am a loner. I have tried to blend in with the world and be sociable, but the more people I meet the more disappointed I am. So, I’ve learned to enjoy myself, my family, and a few good friends.”
— Steven Aitchison
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bitchhhwithbpd · a month ago
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Me logging onto tumblr dot com to check my trash little blog and post my trash little posts about my trash little interests
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bitchhhwithbpd · a month ago
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I wanna be someone’s favorite person to talk to
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bitchhhwithbpd · a month ago
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So 10th is my birthday and Im not really excited cause I'm not happy about existing.
I look at how other people celebrate their birthdays with friends and family and I sort of get jealous. It looks so normal that it hurts.
I crave that.
That normalcy of having friends, and family who care, of loving yourself to the point you celebrate your birth, to having a simple dinner with people who care about you from time time to time, to not have social anxiety just so that I can go out and walk around.
I want to not cry on my birthday this year, but its impossible since I have already started crying and going into birthday depression (if that sort of thing exists)
I hate myself so much it physically hurts.
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