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Kiki's Delivery Service | 魔女の宅急便 (1989) dir. Hayao Miyazaki

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daydreaming about having enough energy to do things

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I love Digimon. The final bosses of the minor arcs, in order, are

The devil

A monkey popstar

Dracula

Dracula Reloaded: Giant Spider Edition

A giant metal sea dragon

A puppet

Monkey Popstar, but he's metal now

A machinegun dragon

A clown

The personified Apocalypse

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"this too shall pass" well can it fucking get on with it

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NEKO ATSUME 2

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'Cus you know, it's biology.

My new sticker designs :)

Available on: Burboi's shop (redbubble.com)

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THIS IS OLD BUT I APPARENTLY DIDNT POST IT??

Discarded Magical Blue Grundo Plushie makes me sad so I redrew that one pic

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Do you love the colour of the sturgeon?

Which one?

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Bluh. Life man. Have you ever seen those videos where the camera is above a blender, and it's actively blending a white smoothie and then they add a bunch of colored powders to it and they slowly blend together? That's how my brain feels. Like all the time.

I did finally get an appointment with a therapist though, woot. I wonder how that will go. Wonder what's gonna be the biggest thing. We call it "the event" when talking in front of the kids, will that be a big topic? Or my childhood? Or my half-assed understanding of myself? Or maybe all of it just like the blender videos.

I hate my hair. I wish I knew what to do to fix it. I don't think it's my hairs fault. It could look perfect and I'd still hate it. But I still don't know where to go.

We keep talking about how we feel like we're in limbo. And we are. We have been for like a year and a half. It's almost over...right? I don't know. I feel like my own personal limbo is gonna keep going. In my head, I imagine myself on a tightrope, wabbling back and forth. Catching myself a half second before it's too late. I'm getting so tired and the end is so far away. But then I look over and everyone else who is also walking the tightrope is like a few steps away from the end. How did I get so far behind? How did my tightrope get so long? How am I in my 30s and I'm still confused about myself? Shouldn't I know ME?

We're adopting two kittens soon. I love them so much already. I miss Alvis everyday.

#rambling #life #journaling #nonbinary #grief #therapy #who knows

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⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡(๑ᵔ⤙ᵔ๑)

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12"x12"

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she has a girlfriend

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something old from my journal that i like

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REBLOG THIS POST IF YOU FEEL SAFER WHEN QUEER SPACES ARE OPENLY ACCEPTING OF AMAB NONBINARY PEOPLE

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Sparkling off in space

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moments before disaster