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10 QUESTIONS FOR U - valentines edition

favorite color of roses?

favorite flowers?

you can send a love letter to anyone. fictional/idols/celebs. who?

which idols have the best rizz?

most rizzful mutual?

favorite petnames/nicknames? giving or recieving?

fictional characters you're in love with?

have you ever had an online crush?

songs that you want to play at your wedding?

fav breakup songs?

fav love-themed kpop song?

mutual with beautiful themes?

pink vs red ? coquette vs old money / preppy?

favorite sweets?

DRINK WATER + YOU ARE LOVED <3

aww thank you!! you're super lovely and loved too :((

blue roses, but i really really like light pink ones as well. the flower shop i used to work at had a bunch of colours hehe

i really really really like carnations and freesias and also there's a magnolia tree close by and its pink flowers are to die for

girl bye im way ahead of you im sending one to yoshinori lmao but like not in a romantic sense like i have never thought of him that way but i really do want to send him a love letter of sorts to express how much he means to me!! platonically!!

rizz... i would have to say for me personally heejake, jiwoong, jimin bc he's an actual people magnet, sunwoo omfg sunwoo goodbye?????? but the thing is san imo too?? i also kind of wanna add ningning too bc i would fold in point two seconds... also yunjin bc as much as i have always been a loyal chaewon ult, i would quite literally pass out if she looked at me like she looks at the girlies she's effortlessly rizzed

none of y'all have rizz goodness gracious bye in my head all of you are either cute or scary gremlins

i get called a bajillion nicknames irl idek atp?? but here i really really like it when ria calls me enna i just find it so so cute but i also like it when people call me vie!! it's short and simple and also kind of humorous bc c'est la vie. ps. i die of joy when ppl still call me vera from time to time tyvm it's like being reminded of my roots AS FOR PET NAMES!! i once got called kitten and it made me promptly hurl it was insane just insane it felt like an out of body exp. i love it when my friends call me girlie tho it makes me feel like such a girly pop. one of my friends calls me her honey and it's saur heartwarming. as for giving....... i like to call people my child lmao they could be older than me idc all of my friends are first and foremost my children. other than that i can't really call anyone anything else it's so awkward for me to give any sort of affection lol

im in love with natsume hyuga from gakuen alice idk if y'all know but me personally oof that black cat oof oof i used to burn with a passion for him. also chat noir from miraculous... im sensing a theme here. also jeong guwon bc he's an ass babygirl that i find super duper annoying but also sth about him being so big and protective like GIRLIESSSSS. although im always ALWAYS reserved for han seojun and han seojun only.

i never had a real online crush so no. really admired? yeah lots

never thought about that yet hold on i feel so ashamed as a self proclaimed the most hopeless romantic!! canon in D— just kidding. probably soft piano versions to romantic iu songs hehe

never felt it, but probably ending scene by iu bc i cry every time

SAURRRR MANY i have to create a list bc im an avid romantic genre listener omgomg

i haven't seen them in a while im sorry i can't pick ;-; @atrirose @boyfhee @yrhome @niningz @blueprint-han @cotccotc off the top of my head?? love your mobile themes muah muah i haven't seen your webs so i can't say much about them but im sure they're great!!

always a sucker for deep red and the old money aes. even had individual themes for both!! and i love when ppl dress preppy but i can't pull it off :(

I LOVE ANYTHING CHOCOLATE !! AND COFFEE !! opera cake, tiramisu, brownies, profiteroles, etc etc!!

#huh ur telling me people remember me??? even after my 1+ year hiatus?? whoa #thanks there <3333 TT im so out of tumblr lmao #reblogs

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Dead Men Don't Speak | Series Masterlist

— The story of a mafia, a green sky, and a girl in a burgundy coat.

[All the works under the cut are mine. Do not copy, repost, or translate my work.]

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Series Information

Summary: The life of a mafia member and the eight boys who cross her path, for better or for worse. Alternatively — Your partner is dead, or so you've been told.

General Disclaimers: Female reader insert. Mafia au. Angst and dark themes. Graphic depictions of blood, violence, and death. Usage of vulgar language. Specific disclaimers will be written on each part. Chapters not in the chronological sequence of the story's events.

Schedule: Updates every two weeks on Saturdays, 8:00 PM KST. Dates specified on each part.

Chapters

⭓ The Sky is Green | Seo Changbin

— The one-eyed brute and the girl in the burgundy coat.

⭓ Dead Men Don't Speak | Lee Felix (27.1.24)

— The detective's assistant and the Shadow Front's left claw.

⭓ Cross My Heart, | Hwang Hyunjin (10.2.24)

— The boy who wanted to become a god and his new friend.

⭓ And Hope to Die | Han Jisung (24.2.24)

— The living ghost and his purpose.

⭓ The Altar of Angels | Lee Minho (9.3.24)

— The mafia prince and the jester.

⭓ The Undoing of Gods | Yang Jeongin (23.3.24)

— The fugitive and the god of chaos.

⭓ The Waltz of Devils | Bang Chan (6.4.24)

— The detective and the black iris.

⭓ Of the Un-Blue Sky | Kim Seungmin (20.4.24)

— The liar and his neighbors.

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#POP OFF QUEEN #Blowing the dust off my acc just for this #oh lord #what even are my tags #dawn.rb

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Ik I'm never on here anymore but sometimes I just wish i was able to stop my heart from feeling for every guy who just happens to be nice to me, cuz it's tiring 🥴

#and then i find out that theyre either a shitty person or dont care or consider me as much as i do them #painful really #dawn.txt

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Always, always remember fellas. If you ask someone to date you, and you want to be their partner, and they say yes, they expect your commitment. You can't say "I can't promise anything". You can't say that you can't commit because you have more important things than her, because when you asked to date her, you agreed to make her a priority. So really. Think twice, before asking someone. Think if you can truly make time for this person. Think if you can provide them with your support, think if you can handle communicating with them and sharing the deeper parts of you when things get rough. If you're answer is that you can't, don't ask them. Don't loop them into the "potential" of something that could have been more. Give it everything you have.

#dawn.txt

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awww well i hope those issues get resolved soon!!! and omg ew, i hope it goes by fast <3333 we rlly havent talked in so long its insane

yeah i hope so too ;-; also i really want it to go by fast cuz i absolutely despise my roommates and cannot tolerate a while longer with the loudest people on the planet 😭 also ikr! it's been so busy for me cuz college absolutely sucks the soul out of you, first time I've come to Tumblr in a while actually

#dawn.replies #2h0gi #blue 💙

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i'm good!!!! school is out for summer now <3 hru??

I'm doing alright too :") just some general life issues but nothing that can't be dealt with aksnksn also man ur so lucky!!! College doesn't leave us for 2 more months sadly ;-;

#its also like 45 degrees here #celsius #its so hot #also aaah blue its been so long since weve spoken #dawn.replies #2h0gi #blue 💙

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HI DAWNIE

HIII BLUEEEE

#how are you omg <33333 #dawn.replies #2h0gi #blue 💙

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did i make a mistake?

#........................................................................................................................................... #so he like introduced me to his close friends and everything. that means he likes me right? or why would he put up with someone #whos not conventionally attractive in any norm. and i dont mean that in a self demeaning way. ik im not pretty in the standard norm so it #as alr a surprise to know he liked me back yk? why am i worried so much? #he introduced me to his friends. whenever we go on dates we do well together albeit were a bit awkward which is TOTALLY normal for a first #relationship. we both dont know what to do and since its exam season we cant see each other enough. i guess its even more painful cuz #ik hes at a distance where i can see him if i wanted to but stupid rules and timings dont allow me #ok so speaking her has given me some clarity which is nice im glad i came back to good ol tumblr #*here #i have been quite harsh on him with my expectations (ive mever said anything to him tho. just all in my head) and even his friends have #said he generally speaks in a very toneless manner when he's texting #so its not just ne #yeah #this is kk #everything will be fine #it will right? god wont screw one more thing i care about dearly right? #dawn.txt

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did i make a mistake?

#sigh dawnie crush issues in the tags #so yeah fair warning #........................................................................................................................................... #idk man I just. i feel like instead of getting closer weve grown more distant ever since he asked me out and its killing me man #i dont wanna be hurt. im so fragile rn and just starting to heal from the years of trauma i faced in my family. when i try to talk #about any issue i have to him he just. ignores the text #or gives me a very dry response which hey. im not trying to say u should listen to my issues all the time. i get that some people dont want #to. but i would just much rather have someone tell me that directly yk? just a hey i dont do well with rants. but the thing is he said hes #fine with them. but then when i get nothing to address it i just. i feel hurt. like... ive started to wonder if hes just keeping the #relation for namesake at this point but ik that isnt true. weve only been dating 2 weeks or so i shouldnt judge so soon. but man its hard #to not overthink ive always been conditioned to do that. ive always been super excited when he plans a date (which he doesnt even call #a date) but when i try to plan smth its always that he has some other plan to attend to which again i get it im not the jealous date who #asks her s/o to be for her every waking moment but yk it does hurt and i feel instead of just letting it bottle up its better to admit it. #i tried to ask him to get cotton candy once and he said wed go the next day and then he forgot. never asked me a time or anything. i didnt #think of it much cuz hed gone to meet a friend outside the city and he mustve been tired. yesterday i asked him again and he said he was #again going outside the city to meet his 12th grader friend. man am i jealous of that girl who gets to spend more time with the guy #who asked me out than ive collectively spent with him #and no i dont mean this in a toxic way like “oh hes meeting other girls he shouldnt do that” i just. man i pictured so much out of my first #relationship. and i got nothing. not one thing out of it. i guess it makes sense cuz my love language is mostly physical touch and u cant #really do that in a campus in India. and its also wrong of me to hold him to such high standards of a perfect relationship when the guy #himself has been in one for the first time (i assume?) but like i said id rather not try to hide my emotions and express them out openly. #theres still so much more about this that i feel wrong but the thing is its confusing cuz i feel like the two years of torture in my house #has made it so that the trauma from never hearing i love you wnd words of affirmation from my parents has been reflecting off this place. #its wrong of me to do this but i expected everything that i couldnt recieve to be fulfilled in a relationship and i now realise how stupid #i was yk? cuz its wrong of me to put such harsh expectations on him like that. i feel like such a shallow person for getting depressed over #a relationship that has just been going for 1 week #theres also the thing where he generally seemed more excited to talk to me before? and now i just get the dryest responses ever out of #which no conversation can be built. and again im not expecting him to be online and respond immediately but a thoughtful response goes a #long way. again ik im being so harsh on him cuz its his first time too and he must be facing the same awkwardness im facing but jesus. i #ok my tags are over im continuing in a reblog

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sigh

#like any major decision in life #u tend to question if u made the right choice #i mean #ive been hurt so many times already #by my family #by people I thought were friends #... i dont wanna be hurt again #it took me a lot of fucking time to get out of that toxic space of a home and rebuild my relationship with my mothrr #i dont want to #go through that again #what if im making the wrong choice #dawn.txt

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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

#HE SAID HE LIKES ME 😭😭😭 #IM GOING TO S O B #omg im literally blushing so hard rn #crying sobbing throwing up #my stomach literally has butterflies #this is the best day ever #dawn.txt

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What are the first three tags that come up when you type in ‘fucking’?

#no fucking way lol #rb

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Fuck I think I have a major crush

#god ive never felt so happy about someone before #today i was depressed and self conscious and he made me forget in 2 seconds #he's so sweet #also i finally met him and hes adorable help #whenever we text each other good night i wanna say love u but like im p sure that crosses the line 😭 #really sucks tho im very out of league i doubt this will ever be more than a crush #but hey i can dream for now #dawn.txt #also his personality is so sweet my heart pains when i talk to him

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I have a question

#how do u know if you have a crush on someone #cuz im experiencing some feelings and idk how to sort them #ughh this is why i hate feelings #dawn.txt

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You ever see a take so utterly ridiculous you just wanna jump off a cliff cuz you've lost hope in humanity

#i just heard my roommate say. “there are no indians in this world that dont know english and the ones who dont know are just pretending” #like honey. #sweetie. #are u chronically ill?? #are u mentally stable? #is everything ok? #dawn.txt

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food poisoning is not fun

3 am pukes are not fun

#gosh yesterday was horrible #vommitted three more times after that lmao #im better now though but im still very tired #dawn.txt

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3 am pukes are not fun

#gosh I've vommitted thrice since 3 am and its about to be 6 am now #when is it gonna stop pls 😭 #i get it ill never eat out again just pls </3 #dawn.txt #tbd #vomitting tw #vomit tw #puking tw #puke tw