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what kdrama is this 

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“Just because you don’t say much doesn’t mean people don’t notice you. It’s actually the quiet ones who often draw the most attention. There’s this constant whirlwind of motion and sound all around, and then there’s the quiet one, the eye of the storm.”

— Amy Efaw

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To my professor,

Today we had recap on one of our courses. You seemed nice at first. You told us various ways of how to find books online and acrticles for our BA paper, but then again...at the end you changed. You made me think you’re biased( but the other way around, like...when you don’t want to deal with someone kinda). Am I analyzing too much? I hope so, because the thought of having one of my professors just dislike me as a person( without even knowing me) makes me nauseous. I always feel a difference in the way you speak to the others. Am I right, or are you just moody? I thought of that too. Being busy with academic stuff plus a kid is always hard. BUT again, why me, and why her? We were in that room, you, me and her. You told her right to her face while I was still there just listening. You told her you didn’t like how she managed stuff and how you two didn’t quite get along these past few months. You told her you called and that she didn’t answer. I knew, and she knew: you didn’t call at all. While you were criticizing her in the most shadiest way possible, I stood there and just listened. And all I could think was: “Again, she’s doing it again. Everytime I think she’s nice she does something to ruin that image.Why...why...WHY??”. When you stopped speaking I looked at her. She didn’t react and seemed as if she ignored everything. Her expression blank. Still doing some papers. I swallowed my spit and just waited. You didn’t say anything more. It was complete silence. She finished, we greeted goodbye and left. In that moment, while I was slowly closing the door as to not disturb the silence- in that moment, the door became a wall between us and you. I felt it. I felt every inch of disgust and rejection that was coming from you. I felt it stay in my throat till I couldn’t swollow anymore. And all I could think was “why”.

*I’m really scared to ask this professor for allowing me to make my ba paper on a certain subject i like and of course it has to be with her bc she’s the only one centered on literature when it comes to my major ;-;

#disappointed #sad #professor #i thought i could do my ba paper with you but you scare me ;-; #do you really dislike me? #overanalyzing #ba paper #keep hopeful or find another professor? #today #story #shortstory #i still don’t know how hashtags work here #teacher #faculty #college #university #scared #afraid

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festa 2019 family portrait: kim taehyung & kim seokjin

#taejin #visuals slaying as always #kim seokjin #kim taehyung #festa19

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grape jin’s flying kiss at wembley

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“My whole life I’ve been telling myself, ‘don’t be afraid’. And it is only now that I’m realizing how stupid that is. Don’t be afraid. Like saying, ‘don’t move out of the way when someone tries to punch you’ or ‘don’t flinch at the heat of fire’ or ‘don’t blink’. Don’t be human. I’m afraid and you’re afraid and we’re all always going to be afraid, because that’s the point. What I should be telling myself is ‘be afraid, but do it anyway’. Live anyway.”

— Unknown

#Unknown #quotes #quote #literature #lit

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Today one of my mutuals on Instagram died in a car accident ;-;

We didn’t even know each other but she was a year younger than me and studied Korean like me, so I guess we followed each other just because of the similarities. Her mom posted stories and the footage of the accident, I’m sad...

#instagram #mutual #sad #rip #she was so young and cute whyy;-;

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Day by day, I love them even more💜

“I want them to be gender neutral. I don’t want them to be classified into two gender groups.” -Min Yoongi

“Yeah same, me too. Sure.”

- Jimin, Namjoon & Jhope.

In conclusion, stan Bangtan fucking sonyeondan.

My woke kings. Ugh, THE RESPECT.

#bts #bangtan boys #kim seokjin #bangtan #kim namjoon #kim taehyung #min yoongi #jeon jungkook #jhope #bt21 #chimmy #bt21net #mang #shooky #tata #kookie #koya #rj #kpop

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I love Hermann Hesse’s thinking. Can’t wait to have some free time and read something else by him. I’ve only red ‘Demian’ and I loved it.

“We are sun and moon, dear friend; we are sea and land. It is not our purpose to become each other; it is to recognize each other, to learn to see the other and honor him for what he is: each the other’s opposite and complement.”

— Hermann Hesse

#Hermann Hesse #literature #quotes #quote #lit #german

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The Good Side

1. Today I found two beautiful paintings on Instagram:

2. I found my cute pencil case which I had though I lost forever~

3. I’ve just ordered ramen, and I’ve been craving it these days so I can’t wait for it to arrive @.@

+ It’s not my turn to open the door for the delivery guy hehe

4. I have officially finished my treatment for something I had with my tooth😤✊

#goodvibes #goodday #noteverythingisshitty #thegoodpart #am i supposed to put space in hashtags on tumblr? #because on the bird app I couldn’t #paintings #purple #instagram #art

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Today was kinda crappy. I felt a little bit sad because I couldn’t find something my mom gave me(❗️spoiler: which I eventually found).

But the thing is, there’s this friend who keeps getting angry whenever I’m sad because I “fuck up” their day. And they tell me stuff like that quite often, whichmakes me get even more sad and it honestly sucks. Like, I don’t have the right to be sad? It’s not like I like it and do it on purpose. I asked them that, about the ‘having the right’ thing. And they sad that they also have the right to be angry. But I see these situations so different. Being sad doesn’t make me actively hurt people, shout at them or whatever. It just makes me laugh less, maybe sob a little and not really talk. When this friend is angry though, they call me names, shout at me, they get frustrated easily and scoff often. And to be honest, all I do is stay sad in my little bubble until I feel better...

Today, at some point, I got a little frustrated. I told them this is a matter of respect. And they immediately shut me down with a “cut the bullshit”-type of line. I guess this is the problem that bugs me. I don’t feel respected as a friend by this person and that makes me feel a litte bit down...

ANYWAYS, I plan on also writing about the good things of today so I won’t make people only feel like shit😅

#sad #respect #friendship #friend #sorry about the hashtags they are so cringey #story #today #day

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I saw your post about your internal struggles and I just wanted to tell you that even the fact you can address your problem accurately is a huge step. You're definitely going somewhere if you can do that. And I understand how hard it is to feel stuck at one place but I hope eventually things sort out for you. Even though getting through is and being at peace with the outcomes are tough, I believe you can do it. If you want to talk about it please know that you always have someone. Love, N.

Thank you, N.

I didn’t really think someone would actually write to me about that and seeing your response made me feel better. Like I was heard. I usually have this thing with having my words misunderstood and I hate it sometimes. But you got them. As of talking about it with anybody, I don’t think that’s for me. At least right now. I like getting my thoughts out there but I don’t do it so people would talk to me. I guess it’s just a way to ease my heart a little and to show others that they are not alone, I also struggle, everyone struggles at some point. I prefer dealing with stuff on my own when it comes to individual development. Thank you though, people like me need words like yours.

-💜

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I’ve been waiting for these thank you gkfkgk

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Ep. 108 of Boruto was shit

If I see one more episode about Mirai I’m gonna flip. There’s 0 story progression and as much as I like Tenten, Kakashi and Guy, ep 108 was boring af😫

I’m not a Mirai hater but they should know when too much is too much...

#nohate #boruto #boruto108 #mirai #tenten #guy #kakashi #opinion #episode #108 #anime #boring

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I feel so tired, I can’t do anything. Today I had a breakdown and started crying. The thing is These days I really thought I was getting somewhere and I’d finally stop being...the me that I am now. I’m so exhausted with the situation and I really want to change but it’s like I’m going in circles and I can’t stop. This irrational fear of people...just makes me feel dumb tbh. I want to feel good about myself but right now I really can’t find a way to do so. I feel that I’m rude to people that are nice to me...and that I’m nice to other people just to keep a mask on, to seem normal. But everytime I do that I can see it on their faces. They look at me with the same expeession of disgust or confusion and sometimes anger. As if I’ve done something by just being “me”. Or at least trying to find a “me” that is normal. Everything passes by so fast and I feel stuck in one place with no way to interfere anywhere. I feel like a ghost that people don’t see. I try to touch them by being the definition of nice but the truth is...people don’t want “nice”. They want something unpredictable, something with an impact, something that just screms “I’m here and I do that and that and I’ll prove it”. But I don’t want to prove shit.

#sad #tired #not even bts can help me #i feel useless #i feel alone #like shit #im so done #i have so much to do #and i cant do shit #mood #sorry #i used mood ironically #whatever #im just lazy af i guess #yep #lazy

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T-the visuals...KIM SEOKJIN U DANGEROUS MAN