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//unedited but long overdue

maybe if my dad ever loved me I would've turned out different.

maybe if I didn't have to be the mother my own couldn't step up to be, I would've turned out different.

maybe if I had received affection and support instead of violence and blame I wouldn't have this crawling beneath my skin.

the urge to be loved.

unfortunately, I didn't turn out different, my love. I, too, wish I was softer and gentle but instead I'm way too rough around the edges and bloodthirsty like a hound from biting my tongue and chewing ny wrists so I could keep the pretense of the perfect daughter.

wanting to be loved may not be a weakness, but to be loved has been my biggest desire and biggest humiliation, so don't blame me too much. all I ever wanted was to know what to do.

would I still feel this empty, so longing, if I had grown up loved? god forbid I find out, or else I'd choke that other version of me with my bare hands, crying that she doesn't deserve it, but I didn't deserve this either. I'd crawl into her skin just to know what it's like to have a place under the sun.

my heart is heavy with all the "me I could've been" and if it weren't for the way it beats whenever I'm with you, I would've thought myself dead a long time ago.

so, forgive me for loving you too much. and for the restrains I've put on myself to make sure you never find out.

#is this poetry?

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“how could you be so stupid” well you know what. its really not that hard

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they should've seen the dangers that come with eating fast food

Vampires when they sip on your blood and catch extra strength Tylenol, at least two psychiatric meds, two cups of coffee, weed, and microplastics 

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thinking about the time that was approximately an year and a half ago when I didn't have to work to afford an education and living conditions, when I was happily doing art, writing fluffy BNHA fanfics, able to support my hobbies WITH MY TIME

now I have the money I need and none of the time to spend on what made me happy, and I look back at the person I was not so long ago wishing she didn't have to turn out to be like this

and the comparison between the 'Me' now and the 'Me' not even two years ago is striking me right in the heart: from a happy, fulfilled teen-age girl to a depressed little fucking bitch who feels this weird emptiness

and I can finally explain it to myself, after opening Tumblr I had abandoned for nearly 6 months, looking through my feed and understanding

the moral of the story is to choose the simple things that fill your emptiness (unless your conditions don't allow you to, which I'm so fucking sorry about) unless you wanna be like darn old cerebral Lis :')

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I dont care what gender you are. I dont care what sexual preference you have. I dont care what country you live in. I dont care if this isn’t your “blog theme”. If you dont reblog this, I will judge you. Forever.

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my oh my don't I DESPISE WORKING but having to so I can afford college :')

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A HUG AND A FUCKING PENGUIN LET'S GO

For every reblog a trans woman gets a hug and a penguin

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Absolutely losing it at this Reddit post

And the update

She buttered Jorts

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LOVELY MID-DAY IF I CAN SAY SO

Familiar Cerulean Eyes - Finale (Part 23)

Click here for the Masterlist. 

The Finale is finally here! So sorry it took for freaking ever. There may or may not be a spin off and there may or may not be a sequel but I am not promising either of those things right now, because ya girl can’t stick to deadlines. I hope you guys enjoy this and thank you so much for getting me to nearly 1k followers! Maybe we can hit it by the end of the night! 

Want to show your support? Buy me a coffee!

Warnings: Depictions of violence, blood, injuries, head trauma, fighting, you know the drill by now. 

Word Count: 5.4 K

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And I waited for you - at work, at home, at class. Every breath felt like a punch to the guts, and my heart was crippled with anxiety. And I waited, I still am waiting, as I pour my heart out into art - art inspired by you, perhaps. I draw and I move because it feels as if I'd die; I'd suffocate if I stop, because then all thoughts will be filled with you, and I don't know if I can survive that.

#quotes #love quotes #2am things #late night #heartbreak #heartbreak quotes #tumblr quotes #writing #art

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when oscar wilde said “i’m tired of myself tonight, i should like to be someone else’ and when sylvia plath said ’‘i wish i knew what to do with my life, what to do with my heart” and when rilke said “this heavy humanness” .

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Title: unperturbed (prelude) Pairing: emperor!tyrant!gojo satoru x f!queen-consort!reader  genre: drama, smut, mystery, angst, and tragedy (royalty/curses/japanese-european au) Summary: you find yourself offered up to the emperor as his wife yet hatred and malice only fills your heart for Gojo Satoru’s hands are tainted with your sister’s blood. WARNINGS FOR THE CHAPTER: suicide, character death, mentions of someone being gutted, brief mentions of a guillotine, insecurities, and one-sided love.

Notes; this story was the original plot line of minazuki. i took some important parts in the drafts and just added it here and turned it to a four part series. either ways, i hope u enjoy it (if im not as scared to release a fuller version one day, i would but i highly doubt it. I tend to be hesitant with my DC works esp this one thats why it ended up scrapped HSHSSH u will see why it did bye) au masterlist . 

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will you watch the stars with me?

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my kink is closing doors so that i am in complete solitude

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Tigers, tigers!

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nobody:

me: dilf toji 🥵

I don't belong in horny jail, horny jail belongs in me

#jjk #jujutsu kaisen #fushiguro toji