bpd-diary-confessions

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BPD math: they said I can come "if I want" instead of "you should come" so that means they hate me and they wish I was dead.

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god

please just end this fuckery

i don't have the strength anymore, nor the guts to end it

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it's endless

this shit is endless... unbelieveable.

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dear diary 109

i can't stand being in my skin or my home or any other place. I just want to live alone where i can do what i want and make all the noise i want without housemates being around. i can't stand it anymore, being poor

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dear diary 108

i'm still here

unfortunately

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.

god help me, i don't know how much longer I can stick this out

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dear diary 107

i feel like i'm made of poison or something - why do i have to be a scoprio and a bpd bitch - blood should be dripping from my nails at this point

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so

is lucky girl syndrome a real thing or something to hyperfixate on

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i don’t think i’ll ever not be suicidal. and i don’t think that’s a bad thing.

i hope i die at my happiest. at my most complete.

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i just wanna die

trapped in this skin organ suitcase

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when u disassociate

your body goes numb, right?

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not lonely when you have bpd

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i'm so in love with you

but i can't keep up the "cool girl" facade

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who here has gone off their medication cold turkey

i did for 3 weeks, but couldn't handle it

how was it for you?

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dear diary 106

i turn 29 tomorrow

still fucked and depressed - it feels like i'm heading towards the bad end again, but without actually ending

is 29 going to be yet another vortex?

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dear diary 105

went off my meds for 2 weeks and counting

crying never felt so good

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