bpd-italy

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So how long until you wish you'd never met me, until you take back every kind word, until you call me evil just because I'm no longer what you wanted?

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I love to see you jealous! Please, remind me who I belong to!

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me: i deserve love and happiness also me: abuse me abuse me abuse me abuse me abuse me abuse me

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imagine suicide baiting an autistic trauma victim with a history of suicide attempts LMFAO

if you condone this disgusting ass behavior, get your gross ass away from me. you are actual scum. period. i cannot put into words how despicable you are.

my kin is the only identity i’ve had for years of enduring trauma and abuse. it’s the only thing i had to cling to as a sense of self that gave me a reason to stay alive when my reality was nothing but pain and more pain. it’s the only reason i could wake up every day without immediately trying to slit my wrists. just say you’re a shitty human being and go <3

#i may hate myself but at least i'm not this specimen lmfao #tw suicide #tw self harm

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can you like/reblog this if youre a DID/OSDD system?

i really want to follow and meet more ppl!

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anyone else fucking exhausted of people telling them your coping mechanisms are “bad?” but by bad they just mean it doesn’t make you pass as neurotypical

yanderecore helps me cope. i have no desire to appear neurotypical on tumblr dot com of all places. i’d rather bask in the melancholy sadness that is yanderecore than actually act out on my obsessive, violent urges in real life. i’d rather get out my sick twisted obsessions via the harmless sanctuary that is fiction than to harm real people in the real world

if you don’t like it? not my problem. never asked for your opinion period. you’re not my therapist honey so put a sock in it.

#its worse when ppl who suspect they have bpd tell you this #like UHM #honey did i fucking ask for your opinion?????? #read my lips: the answer is no #bpd #cluster b #personality disorder #npd #aspd #hpd #yanderecore

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Random Person: *does something very pathetic and irritating*

My Brain: ... you know what.

Me: what

My Brain: He'd look really good with his throat slit open, just saying.

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I find it so easy to become obsessive over people. If I finally get attached I can’t ever let go again.

If I see someone I used to know and was strong with, I’ll feel compelled to want them again, to know all about them. It’s currently working in my favor with my relationship however there are many times where it hasn’t.

I think people with ASPD get so attached because the chemical for love and attachment is addictive, and while most people get a steady stream: for us its a rare few who can give it to us. When we find someone who can, we want to know what makes them so special and why they can break us into humans again.

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Like the attitude towards psychotic people never fucking changes. Everyone shouts about respecting psychotic people until someone starts having delusions on the train and people whip out their phones to film and laugh at them. Everyone starts tweeting about better mental health treatments but in the same breath will call you a crackhead for having disorganized thoughts. Everyone loves their little Shane Dawson conspiracy theories but will ostracize the people scared/paranoid they’re being watched or poisoned. It’s a miracle whenever I can confidently tell someone I have schizophrenia and they don’t recoil or distance themselves from me and it’s a blessing when I can count on someone to still want to engage in a relationship despite knowing I have schizophrenia. Nonpsychotic people don’t get it. And this absolutely doesn’t just apply to ‘neurotypical’ people. You guys wanna think you’re above them when it comes to supporting other mentally ill people but most of you just act the fucking same. Your depression isn’t saving you from being a fucking dickhead, you’re just a dickhead on Zoloft.

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I do genuinely get concerned about, in the future, if I would be a good parent, in the case of perhaps meeting a partner who already has a kid, or my partner deciding they want to foster or adopt. I get concerned about my chronic fatigue, my short attention span, my poor upbringing, my lack of enthusiasm, and how easily I get bored and snappy. All those things around kids could potentially harm them. But then I watch Dr.Phil asking some lady “why the hell are you smoking meth with your daughter?“ And I’m like shit, wait, how low actually is the bar here??

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Really wish people with BPD would stop throwing those of us with ASPD/NPD under the bus.

It feels like you’re a pick me girl trying to get validation from the neurotypicals.

But guess what? They’ll still hate you the second a symptom shows up.

Just saw a comment saying “There’s a big difference between people with BPD and those manipulative sociopaths”

???? On a post about destigmatizing mental illness THATS what you’re gonna say???

You don’t have to stigmatize one disorder just to destignatize another. You could have just said “people with BPD aren’t ____”

There was no need to bring ASPD into it. And I see this shit so often. Please for the love of god get off the high horse. We are all viewed as monsters down here. Why alienate people who actually understand what it’s like dealing with a stigmatized disorder?

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When I was little I would make up stories and lie about my life to be more interesting, I did it automatically and it took me a long time to realize it wasn’t normal

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someone: so tell me about yourself

me, a cluster b: uuuuhhhhhhhh