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You treated me like an

ADULT

when i was still so

YOUNG

#vent #Technically abt ramcoa #lyric vent #'pretend you love me'-baby bugs #if anyone is curious

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and what if i do whore myself out again? what’ll happen? i’ll feel shit afterwards but at least someone’s gonna be calling me pretty. i need to let people use my body otherwise i’m not pretty at all

#hypersexual vent #hypersexual tw

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Doesn't get as much supply as im used to in a day

*Splits and relapses, ensuring that my EP will be more done with my shit come tomorrow but feel bad and will give me more supply*

#vent #actually bpd #bpd vent #bpd thoughts #bpd #bpd fp #bpd episode #actually npd #npd #npd vent #actually addicted #addiction #cw addiction #tw bad ppl things

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i have no idea what im saying so here we go.

I hate being an addict. i hate the cravings and withdrawals. i just wanna sleep until I'm better. my people don't deserve this. i hate all that i cant control this.

#actually addicted #vent #actually bpd #bpd vent #bpd thoughts #bpd #bpd episode #actually npd #npd #npd vent

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having npd sometimes is just:

i need supply. i can not ask for supply. people should simply Know to give me supply because im that important. if i do not get supply i am going to purposely make myself worse so i get the attention i want. Give me supply. stop talking. i do not have the supply to give a single shit about whatever you are talking about. god you are so fucking boring who the fuck do you think you are?

#did i make this in specific hopes that i will get supply #yes. i did #actually npd #vent

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#Actually #like literally #me and my boyfriends asks #talking about the same incident

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it's so draining going back and forth

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i need supply i need supply and i hate myself for it but also im god and deserve the supply yk?

#actually narcissistic #npd vent

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how do you get sober?

#addiction #genuinely #vent #actually bpd #bpd vent #bpd thoughts #bpd #bpd episode #npd #actually addicited #alcohol #alcohol addiction

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being an aware borderline narccisist is hell, i constantly worry im Being abusive. i can feel narc drops coming a mile away. i worry for my partner because what if im horrible to them without realizing?

that said. i am not an abuser because of my disorders. i am doing my best.

#vent #actually bpd #actually npd #bpd vent #npd vent

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Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

give me your attention i am literally crashing and youre paying attention to your other stupid friend stop that care about me care about me i need you i feel like im dying

#vent #actually bpd #bpd vent #bpd thoughts #bpd #bpd fp #bpd episode #actually npd #npd #aaaa

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Having npd+bpd+(suspected) dpd is hell. Im useless on my own. i need an FP/DP to do anything. They dictate my entire life but at the same time i want to be seen as above them, better than them. I want to worship them and at the same time have them worship me purely for existing. Im so fucked up. i go through phases where they talk and i just split because im so fucking bored and who tf do they think they are? they dont matter the way i do. I am above them. I am better. But also im so fucking worthless without them.

#vent #actually bpd #bpd vent #bpd thoughts #bpd #bpd fp #actually npd #npd #cluster b