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Imperfect victims I love you. Victims who went along with shit because they’re not good at speaking up and are used to people pushing their boundaries. Victims who made excuses for harmful actions done to them. Victims who isolated themselves when they were being abused and told only a few people or no one. Victims who get victim blamed and sneered at “why didn’t you just leave it’s your fault for staying it must not have been this bad”. Victims who sometimes lashed out when their abuser would trigger them. Victims who tolerated so much. Victims who often had the freeze or dawn response. Victims who didn’t leave when they saw red flags or missed them entirely. Victims who don’t feel strong and instead feel weak. You’re just as valid as any other victim.

#ryan.txt #cptsd #ptsd #trauma #traumatized

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Love watching triggering things yaaaaaaaay

#ryan.txt #this is sarcastic #idk why I do this to myself #cptsd #ptsd #trauma #traumatized

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#song lyrics #bpd #borderline personality disorder #cptsd #ptsd #trauma #traumatized #fucked up people

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🤢 Remembering🤢 when 🤢I 🤢let 🤢myself🤢 be 🤢vulnerable 🤢🤢🤢

#txt dot jpg #don’t fucking remind me

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Motherfucker really said I want you to heal:( and then constantly triggered my trauma, enacted my past trauma on me through their actions, aced like abusive people I’ve known, kept hurting me in repeat ways when I already communicated what they did that was bad, and then make me feel like *I* need to work on myself

#ryan.txt #(if you think this is about you it’s not) #fucked up people #you are unwell #and the fact they pulled what they did today AFTER getting called out by me for being shitty to me (again) #ridiculous

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YOU ARE WHAT YOU DID

#ryan.txt #trauma #traumatized #fucked up #you su​re fucking are! #song lyrics

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I’m going to unlearn shame *bursts into tears and beats my head against a brick wall*

#txt dot jpg

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There’s a special place in hell for you

#ryan.txt #bpd #borderline personality disorder #fucked up people

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cannot believe the utter bullshit I fucking endured today

#ryan.txt #bpd #borderline personality disorder #fucked up people #FUCK YOU #fuck you fuck you fuck you

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#haaaaaaahhhhhhh ahhhhhh so fuuunnnyyyyy #bpd #borderline personality disorder #bpd memes #memes #fuck my life #trauma #ex fp

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#some jackass reposted this so I’m reposting it<3 so y’all aren’t seeing this from a fucking weirdo #mental health #mental illness #psychology #important

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#words #recovery journey #important #oh this is some real shit #like my ptsd being triggered by you and then me lashing out and saying shit is not my true colors #you’re literally just triggering me #it’s not even a conscious action it’s mostly instinct and my brain trying to protect me #when I’m triggered or not doing well I am not my ‘true self’

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Every night my ptsd gets triggered my sleep schedule ends up fucked up

#ryan.txt #cptsd #ptsd #im so sick of this

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coping mechanisms

#bpd #borderline personality disorder #bpd memes #memes #not mine

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I wouldnt even need one hand to count the number of people who have truly loved me On

#txt dot jpg #oh you’re so fucking real #all the love was abuse

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#me…. #absolutely me core #bpd #borderline personality disorder #bpd memes #memes #not mine #I’m getting better at it but I’m still so bad about it